Book 1
Bitter Saffron
A Little Hemlock Mystery
by Cicely Marchmont
The Best-Kept Village
The greenhouse light had burned all night again, which was how Dilys Ashcroft knew, without getting up, that she had once more forgotten to turn off the one small warmth she could not bear to see go out.
She lay for a while in the grey of half-six and watched it through the gap in the curtains — a soft amber square hanging at the bottom of the garden, patient as a nightlight left on for a child who was not coming. Beyond it the sky was doing the thing September skies do in the Hemble valley: turning the colour of the inside of a shell, pink shading to nothing, the last of the summer heat already thinning out of it. A wood pigeon began its five idiot notes in the walnut tree. Somewhere down the lane a milk float whirred and stopped and whirred.
Her hand, without instruction, moved to the other side of the bed. The sheet there was cold and flat and had been made that morning fourteen months ago, and every morning since, into the same tidy nothing. She had stopped turning down that half. There was no sense turning down a bed for a man who was not going to get into it, and Dilys Ashcroft had always prided herself on having sense.
"Right," she said, to the ceiling, in the brisk voice she now used only on herself.
Wellington had colonised the good armchair in the night, as he did every night, having established over fourteen months that a lurcher of principle does not sleep in a dog basket while a superior chair stands empty. He was folded into it in the manner peculiar to his breed — all elbows and grief, grey as a January morning, one leg pointing at the wardrobe as though accusing it. When she came down he opened a single eye, established that she was neither food nor Hugh, and closed it again.
"Don't get up on my account," Dilys told him.
She put the kettle on. She fed the dog, who ate as if he had not been fed since the reign of the last monarch, and then arranged himself across the kitchen doorway so that she had to step over him to reach the back door, which was the whole point of him. She took her tea out into the garden in her dressing gown, because there was no one to see and no one to mind, and stood on the wet flags among Hugh's plants.
They were, of course, hers now. That was the thing nobody understood, or nobody said. She had been a botanist for forty years — proper letters after her name, a herbarium in the spare room she still could not open, a working life spent counting the parts of flowers until she could read a hedgerow the way other people read a newspaper. She knew every green thing in this garden by two names, the polite English and the true Latin, and had known most of them longer than she had known Hugh. And yet, since the funeral, she had come to think of the whole plot as his — his auriculas in their theatre against the north wall, his ridiculous doomed attempt at a fig, his greenhouse with its careful staging and its heater she could not switch off — as though she had married a garden and then buried the only man who could walk in it.
She moved along the borders the way one moves through the rooms of a house that has become a museum: touching nothing, disturbing nothing, keeping it exactly as he had left it. The dahlias were going over in a blaze, scarlet and bishop's-purple, gaudy as a funeral of a rich man. The Michaelmas daisies were coming up behind them. And there, along the front of the bed where the earth was open and warm, they had come up too — the naked ladies, as the village called them, pushing their bare pink-mauve cups straight out of the soil without a leaf between them, the way they did every year at exactly this time and no other. Colchicum autumnale. The autumn crocus, though it was no more a crocus than she was. Beautiful and sudden and slightly indecent, blooming leafless out of the wrong season, a thing that arrived at the party months after everyone else had gone home.
She looked at them a moment. Hugh had never liked them near the beds. Keep them where the dog can't get at them, he'd say, the doctor in him never quite off duty. Nasty stuff, the whole plant. No antidote worth the name. And she'd say, Then it's fortunate we're not planning to eat it, dear, and he'd laugh, and that would be that.
She had not laughed at anything in a while.
"Come on," she said to Wellington, who had appeared at the back door with the specific expression of a dog who has decided a walk is happening. "Before the whole village is up and full of opinions."
It was already too late for that.
Little Hemlock at ten past eight on the Friday of the centenary weekend was not a village so much as a preparation for one. She came down Church Lane with the dog straining at the lead like a badly rigged sail, and the place unrolled below her in the morning light exactly as it did on every postcard sold in the shop and every calendar the WI produced to raise money for the roof: the honey-coloured cottages leaning companionably together, the little humpbacked bridge over the Hemble, the square Norman tower of St. Anselm's rising out of a churchyard full of leaning slates and, this morning, a vicar.
The Reverend Clemency Odell was standing among the graves in her cassock and green wellingtons, holding a laminated seating plan in one hand and a mug in the other and having what appeared to be a difficult conversation with a marquee. Two men on ladders were doing something to the lychgate involving bunting and disagreement.
"Dilys!" Clemency's face did the thing everyone's face did now, the little downshift into gentleness, the head-tilt. "How are you, my love?"
"Upright," said Dilys. "Which is more than can be said for your bunting."
"Don't." Clemency shut her eyes. "I have forty tables, two urns that fought in the last war, a bishop threatening to visit, and a man from the brewery who says the beer tent's licence covers Saturday but not, apparently, the small hours of Sunday, which rather defeats the object of a harvest supper. And Gordon" — she opened her eyes — "Gordon has views on the flower arrangements for the church."
"Gordon has views on the weather," said Dilys.
"Gordon believes the weather answers to him." The vicar sipped, made a face. "Cold. Everything's cold today. Go on, get down there before Marion sees you, or you'll be doing the flowers."
"I'm not doing the flowers."
"No," said Clemency, in the voice of a woman who had watched this particular tide come in many times. "Of course not."
The lane came down past the Green Man, where Sadie Bunce was out sweeping her step and missing nothing, her eyes going over Dilys and the dog and the state of the morning and filing all three. "Lovely day for it," Sadie called, which in Sadie's mouth was not a remark about the weather but an opening of relations. "You'll want to keep that hound off my back kitchen. He had three of my chipolatas off the sill on show day, don't think I've forgot."
"He's a reformed character," said Dilys.
"He's a thief in a good coat," said Sadie, "same as half this village," and went back to her sweeping, satisfied.
Below the pub the land opened out into the Glebe Field, and there the century was happening.
They had been at it since Wednesday. The great flower marquee and the produce marquee stood white and swollen in the middle of the field like two beached whales, guyed and pegged and smelling already, even from the gate, of trodden grass and canvas and the particular green sweetness of a thousand cut stems in buckets. Between them the committee tent and the tea tent, smaller, tidier. Trestle tables were going up in ranks. A banner sagged between two poles — ONE HUNDRED YEARS OF THE LITTLE HEMLOCK FLOWER & PRODUCE SHOW, 1926–2026 — and someone had already had to rescue it once, judging by the mud on the H. Above it all, up the slope, Hemlock Manor sat grey and shabby and lovely in its unmown park, watching its village celebrate on land it had given away a hundred years ago and, if the talk in the shop was to be believed, might rather like back.
There was a man in the field who did not belong to it. Dilys marked him without meaning to — the botanist's habit, the flagging of the thing that is not native. He stood by the gate to the Glebe in a good but out-of-season coat, tall, spare, grey, with a spiral-bound something in his hand, and he was pacing. Not walking. Pacing, heel to toe, counting the frontage of the field along the road, and pausing to write. A land-agent's walk. She had seen enough of them, valuing the world by the yard, to know one when she saw one, and she filed him too, the way Sadie filed everyone, and thought no more of it than one thinks of a wasp at the edge of a picnic.
The name of the place had never stopped amusing her, in the dry way that things amuse a botanist. The best-kept village in the county three years running, the loveliest chocolate box in the Marches, and named — everyone assumed — for the herb, the poison, the cup that killed Socrates. It wasn't, of course; it was Humloc, the hollow by the river, a thousand years of a Saxon nobody's mispronounced hollow. But the churchyard had grown a fine stand of true hemlock down by the wall regardless, purple-blotched and stinking faintly of mouse, as if the land had heard its own name and decided to live up to it. A poison for a village that won prizes for its flowers. There was something in that Dilys had never quite got to the bottom of, and this morning, with the crocus opening pink in every border she passed — the vicar's, the Green Man's, the low wall outside the shop, everywhere, that same bare sudden mauve — she felt the something again and let it go again.
She got as far as the produce marquee before the village took her.
It came for her, as it always did now, out of kindness, which was the hardest kind of ambush to defend against.
"Dilys. Dilys." This was Clive Sowerby, allotment neighbour, competitive nemesis, and lonely widower, bearing down on her with a wheelbarrow and the expression of a man who has been waiting all week for an audience. In the barrow, swaddled in an old candlewick bedspread like an invalid prince, lay a marrow the size of a spaniel. "Now. What d'you make of that."
"I make of it," said Dilys, "that you've been overfeeding it again, Clive, and it'll be all water and no keeping."
"Judge doesn't taste it, does he. Judge weighs it." Clive patted the thing with a huge grubby hand. "Fourteen pound if it's an ounce. Beats Hugh's record." He heard himself and went red to the ears. "That is — I never meant —"
"Hugh's record was set with a marrow you could actually eat," said Dilys, letting him off, because she could not bear to watch him drown in it. "But it's a fine animal. You've done well."
"You'll be entering the flowers, then." He said it too quickly, glad of the change. "For Hugh. He always did the marrows and you did the — well. It won't be a show without an Ashcroft in it."
"We'll see," she said, which they both knew meant yes.
The shuttered building at her back she had not looked at, and did not now. She had come down the field along the top hedge specifically so as to pass it on the far side, the old Merridew nursery at the village edge, its long glasshouse blind with grime, its sign gone soft and grey and unreadable, the yard where trays of bedding plants had once stood out in their thousands now grown up in willowherb and buddleia to the height of a man. Tom Merridew's nursery. It had been shut for forty years and it still had the power to make a small silence in the village when its name came up, and the silence always ended the same way — called in the loan, didn't he, the bank — and then somebody would change the subject, because the bank was Gordon, and Gordon was head judge, and one did not.
She passed it without quite looking at it, and did not think about who was buried in St. Anselm's and who was not, and went into the produce marquee to find that Gordon Purslowe had got there first.
He was standing at the far end where the children's classes were laid out — Class 47, A Garden on a Plate; Class 48, Six Cherry Tomatoes; Class 51, A Vegetable Animal — in his blazer with the committee badge and his clipboard and his air of a man conducting an orchestra that had not asked to be conducted. A boy of perhaps eight stood in front of him, a small handwritten label in his fist, his ears very red.
"—and you have written," Gordon was saying, with the awful patience of a man enjoying himself, "curgettes. C-U-R. Which is not a word, is it. It is a courgette, from the French, and a young man who cannot spell what he grows has no business growing it. We have standards, at Little Hemlock. A hundred years of them." He handed the label back between two fingers. "Do it again. Neatly."
The boy took it. His chin was doing something. Dilys watched Gordon watch him do it, and saw — as she had seen for thirty years and never got used to — the small warm flicker of satisfaction cross the man's soft face, the pleasure that was the whole of him, the pleasure of being obeyed by someone smaller.
"Gordon," she said.
"Ah. Dilys." He turned the smile on her, and it was the same smile, and that was the horror of it; he did not save one face for children and one for widows. "You'll enter this year, I hope. It would be a great shame — a hundredth Show — if the loss of dear Hugh meant the loss of the Ashcroft name from the schedule. He'd not have wanted that." He said it kindly. He meant it as a kindness. That was the thing about Gordon: he handed you the knife wrapped so carefully in tissue that you thanked him for it before you noticed you were cut. "I'll have Pru put you down for the mixed herbaceous, shall I. And the flat classes. She's got the book."
"You'll have Pru put me down for nothing," said Dilys pleasantly, "until I've had my breakfast." And to the boy, who was still standing there with his ruined label and his red ears: "It's a very good garden on a plate. The moss for the lawn is exactly right. Whoever taught you that knew what they were about."
The boy looked at her. "My gran," he said.
"Then your gran is a wiser woman than the dictionary." She did not look at Gordon. "Off you go."
The boy went.
There was a man near the tent flap who had watched all of it — the tall grey newcomer, though not the one from the gate; this one had no clipboard and no coat, only a very cold, very clever pair of eyes and the still, appraising stillness of someone at a party he has decided not to enjoy. He had a paper cup of the committee's tea in one hand, held slightly away from himself as though it had disappointed him, which it very likely had.
"Charming," he said, to no one, or to her, as Gordon moved off down the tables radiating benevolence. "Is he always like that?"
"Gordon? He's been like that for thirty years. It's a preservative. Vinegar keeps beetroot the same way."
The cold eyes moved over her, quick, and warmed by exactly one degree. "You'd be the botanist. Ashcroft. They told me — someone told me — the whole village in the first afternoon, I can't keep it straight." He did not offer a hand. "Cardew. Ambrose. I've taken the old station house. For the quiet." He looked out at the field, the marquees, the bunting, the beginnings of a brass band tuning up somewhere near the beer tent, the whole warm humming machinery of a hundredth year. "The quiet," he said again, drily, as if it were a promise someone had failed to keep, and drank his terrible tea, and did not smile.
Dilys found, to her considerable surprise, that she almost had.
She did not stay to find out whether the feeling would develop. She had come to walk the dog and look at nothing and go home, and she had done a poor job of all three, and the day was warming and filling and beginning to smell of frying onions and cut grass and the particular electric excitement of a village that has decided to be at its very best. The autumn crocus nodded pink along the churchyard wall as she climbed back up the lane, bare and sudden and out of time. Behind her the band found its note. She would drop the flowers in, she told herself, latching her own gate against the noise. Two vases, the mixed herbaceous, Hugh's dahlias so no one could say the Ashcrofts had let the side down. Drop them in and come straight home and shut the door and let the century get on with itself without her.
That was the plan. She was still telling it to herself, quite firmly, when the knock came at the door that evening and she opened it to Marion Kettleby, chair of the WI, guardian of Standards, planted on the step like a monument to somebody's civic virtue, with a list.
"You'll do the flowers, of course," said Marion Kettleby, in the tone of a woman informing the tide of its duties, "since poor Hugh can't." And Dilys, who had meant to say no, found she had already said yes — the way she said yes to everything now, so that no one would ask her how she really was.
The Hundredth Show
There is no war on earth so genteel or so total as an English village flower show, and Little Hemlock had been perfecting this one for a hundred years.
Dilys came down through the churchyard and out onto the Glebe Field a little after nine, with a trug of dahlias on her arm and Wellington on a lead he considered a personal insult. The marquees stood white and enormous against the mown grass, guy-ropes taut, canvas cracking gently in the small wind that came up the Hemble valley every September and smelled of cut hay and diesel from the generator lorry. Bunting ran the length of the field, triangles of faded red and blue that had flown over the coronation and every Show since, and someone — Marion, it would have been Marion — had strung a banner between the two main tents that read ONE HUNDRED YEARS in letters cut from gold card and already curling at the edges.
The brass band from Kingsbourne was tuning up by the beer tent, which was to say four elderly men were disagreeing about a euphonium. A tannoy coughed. Somewhere a child was crying about a lost balloon with the whole-hearted grief only the very young can afford. It was, Dilys thought, exactly as it had always been, exactly as it had been every year she and Hugh had come down this same slope together, and the sameness of it went into her like a splinter.
She had meant to arrange her flowers and go home.
That was the arrangement she had made with herself in the dark at four that morning, listening to Wellington sigh in the good armchair downstairs. Do the flowers. Say the right things. Come home before it got loud. She had said yes to Marion the way she said yes to everything now, so that no one would ask her the question she could not answer, and she had promised herself the yes cost nothing more than an hour.
But the border along the field edge had naturalised itself over a century of Shows, and as she walked its length she found she was reading it without meaning to. Michaelmas daisies going over. A drift of Nerine bowdenii in that improbable pink no camera ever quite believed. And there, under the churchyard wall, where the grass had never been fed and never needed to be, the autumn crocus were up — Colchicum autumnale, the naked ladies, their bare stems pushing straight out of the turf with no leaf to dress them, cups of soft lilac opened wide to a sun that would not last the month. Pretty. Ordinary. They came up like that in half the gardens in the village, sudden and leafless and out of their proper season, and nobody thought anything of them at all. Dilys thought, without wanting to, that Hugh had always called them the funeral flower, and had never once been able to say why.
She set her jaw and went into the flower tent.
Inside, the light was green and underwater, and the smell was the whole reason she had come: chrysanthemum and bruised stalk, damp hessian, the metallic sweetness of a hundred cut stems drinking. Trestle tables ran in long ranks under the ridge, and along them the village had laid out its year. Sweet peas in milk bottles. Gladioli standing to attention like a colour sergeant's dream. The dahlia class, where the giants lived — dinner-plate blooms in claret and flame, propped and pampered, each one a small vanity given a name and a number. She found her allotted space, ran water into her vases from the churn by the door, and began, slowly, to place her dahlias.
And the strangest thing happened, which was that it got easier. Not the grief — the grief sat where it always sat, a lodger who paid no rent — but the hands remembered. Strip the lower leaves. Cut on the slant, under water. Turn the bloom to the light and let it find its own face. Somewhere between the third stem and the fourth she stopped composing her exit and simply worked, and for whole minutes together she forgot to be sad, and only when she noticed the forgetting did the sadness come back to collect its due.
"They're better than his," said a voice, warm as a poured cup. "Don't tell anyone I said so."
Pru Merridew had a way of arriving that was less an entrance than a settling, the way a robin settles: suddenly present, entirely at home, watching you with a bright and kindly eye. She was small and soft and seventy-odd, in the flowered pinny she wore like a chain of office, and she had a plate in one hand — there was always a plate — bearing a slab of ginger cake the size of a paperback.
"You've had no breakfast," Pru said. It was not a question. "I can always tell. Hugh used to say I could tell across a field." She set the plate down among the vases with the confidence of a woman who has fed the whole village and expects no argument from one widow. "Eat that. And I'll bring you tea, proper tea, not that stewed stuff from the urn — I keep a pot going for people who matter."
"Pru, you don't have to —"
"No," Pru agreed comfortably, "I don't." And stayed exactly where she was.
Dilys ate the ginger cake. It was very good, dark and hot with stem ginger, and Pru watched her eat it with the frank pleasure of someone whose whole self had been poured, long ago, into the feeding of others and had never been given back.
"I do think of you," Pru said, more quietly, turning a fallen dahlia leaf over in her fingers. "Since Hugh. People say the first year's the worst, and then they stop saying anything, which is the real trouble. The second year nobody brings you a casserole." She said it without self-pity, one widow to another, a fact reported from further along the same road. "Tom's been gone forty years and I still lay two cups some mornings before I catch myself." She smiled, and it was a good smile, but it had a floor to it, a place where it stopped. "Don't mind me. Eat your cake."
Dilys, who had built her whole grief on being left alone, felt something in her chest give a quarter-turn toward this woman, against all her intentions.
Down the table, a knot of people had gathered at the far end where a hand-lettered card announced NOVELTY CLASS — SAFFRON (ENGLISH GROWN). Miriam Pardoe stood behind her entry with the stiff pride of a woman braced for the worst and determined to enjoy it anyway. She had grown Crocus sativus on the top allotment — real saffron, the true crop, autumn-flowering, and she had cut the flowers that dawn and pinned three of them open on white card so that the whole absurd, precious economy of the thing was there to see. Three threads to a flower. No more. Each one a stigma, long and forked and a deep arterial red that deepened at the mouth to orange, drooping out past the pale petals like something the flower could not quite contain. Beside the pinned blooms she had laid a twist of the dried spice, and even from here, over the green smell of the tent, it reached Dilys: that particular scent, hay and honey and hot metal, the smell of a thing worth more by weight than silver.
"Three stigmas," Miriam was saying, to a woman who had asked and half regretted it. "Only three, and you must have them out by nine or the sun takes the oil. Seventy flowers to the gram, near enough. That's why —"
"That's why it's a great deal of fuss," said Gordon Purslowe, arriving, "over a very small amount of nothing."
He came into the tent the way a landlord comes into a cottage he owns, and the temperature of the room adjusted itself to him. Small, dapper, pink-scrubbed, a rosette the size of a saucer pinned to his blazer to mark him HEAD JUDGE, Gordon Purslowe surveyed Miriam's saffron with the expression of a man pricing something he means to refuse to buy.
"Very quaint," he said. "Very — enterprising. Though I confess I'm not sure it belongs in a produce show at all. One likes to see things one can actually put on a plate." He let that sit. "But then you weren't raised to it, were you, Mrs Pardoe. These things take generations to understand. My committee will decide whether it's eligible. I shouldn't get your hopes up."
Miriam's colour rose. "It's a crop grown in this parish. That's your only eligibility rule. I read it."
"Rules," said Gordon, with a small cold pleasure, "are for the committee to interpret." And he moved on, tapping the edge of her table once with two fingers, dismissively, on his way, so that the pinned flowers trembled.
Dilys watched Miriam stand very straight and say nothing, which cost her, and thought: he does that to everyone. He had always done it to everyone. It was how he had reigned for thirty years — not by loving the village but by remembering it, every debt and grudge and favour filed away behind that pink genial face, to be produced at the useful moment. Hugh had refused to sit on the committee with him. Life's too short, Dil, he'd said, to spend a single evening of it agreeing with Gordon Purslowe.
She carried the emptied trug out into the sun, and the marrows found her.
They were laid out on the grass beyond the produce tent, monstrous, glorious, obscene, each one hosed and buffed and cradled on a bed of straw like a green whale beached for judgment. Clive Sowerby stood over the longest of them with a face gone the colour of pickled beetroot.
"On a technicality," he was saying, to anyone, to the air, to Dilys as she passed. "A technicality, Dilys. Look at it. Look at the size of it. Beat your Hugh's record by four inches and he — he —" Clive's finger stabbed toward the committee tent. "Disqualified. Stem cut too short. There's men been growing marrows in this valley since before he could count and he takes a ruler to my stem."
"I'm sorry, Clive," said Dilys, and meant it, more or less.
"Sorry." Clive breathed hard through his nose. He was a big, lonely, blustering man who had buried a wife and a purpose in the same decade and had nothing left to win but this, and it had just been taken from him with a ruler. "I'll tell you what I'm sorry for. I'm sorry I don't put my hands round his throat. I could throttle that man. Straight up, I could throttle him where he stands, and there's forty year of this valley would hold my coat."
He said it loudly, the way he said everything, and three people heard him, and one of them laughed, because Clive threatening murder was as much a fixture of the Show as the beer tent. Dilys made a soothing noise and moved on, and thought no more of it than anyone else did, which was nothing at all.
The committee tent stood a little apart, canvas walls looped up to let the air through, and inside it the true government of Little Hemlock was in session. A long table. Papers. A tin box of rosettes graded by rank. And at the head, in the only chair with arms, Gordon Purslowe, holding court with a teacup.
His own teacup. His own tea. Pru had it ready for him the moment he sat — Dilys, hovering at the tent's edge with her clipboard of entry numbers, watched the whole small ceremony without knowing she was watching it. The cup was Gordon's, kept for Gordon. The pot was Gordon's. And the jar — the jar was the thing. A little squat jar of pale honey, set at Gordon's right hand, and floating in it, unmistakable even at ten feet, the thin red threads of saffron. Saffron honey. His affectation, his refinement, his one gentleman's flourish, and he took a spoonful of it in every cup, stirring it in with a small circular fussiness while the rest of the committee reached for the sugar bowl and left his jar entirely alone. Nobody else touched it. Nobody else would have dreamed of it. It was Gordon's, the way the chair with arms was Gordon's, and a man's saffron was not a thing you helped yourself to.
"I've had a thought about next year," Gordon announced, to the table, over the rim of his cup. "Streamlining. This is our centenary — a hundred years — and one likes to move forward, not simply repeat. I've been talking to some people about how a Show like ours might be — modernised."
"Modernised how, Gordon?" said Marion Kettleby, from the far end, in the voice of a woman who guarded the cake table the way other women guard borders and considered modern a species of vandalism.
"Well." Gordon set down his cup. "The tea tent, for one. A great deal of labour, a great deal of urn, a great deal of — Pru, you won't mind my saying — fuss, for very little return. A proper catering firm could do it in half the space and put money in the fund. One doesn't like to be sentimental about a lot of old ladies and a hot-water boiler."
The tent went quiet in the particular way a room goes quiet when someone has said the thing everyone can feel.
Pru Merridew was standing just behind Gordon's chair with the teapot in her hand. She had run the tea tent for forty years. Her husband's family had helped found this Show. And for one moment — Dilys saw it, would swear afterward that she had seen it, though at the time she hardly understood what she was seeing — something went out of Pru's face. Not anger. Something further down and much older than anger, something that stopped the small perpetual warmth of her the way a cloud stops a field, so that for a single breath the kind soft face was a stranger's, still and closed and looking at the back of Gordon Purslowe's neck.
Then it passed. It passed so completely that Dilys doubted it.
"Oh, I'm sure you know best, Gordon," Pru said, and she was herself again, warm as anything, and she leaned in and lifted his cup. "You'll be wanting this freshened. You've let it go cold, talking."
Beyond the tent, out at the field's edge where the mown grass ran up to the hedge and the ground fell away toward the old nursery, two men stood with their backs to the Show. Freddie Quennell — she knew the stoop of him, the anxious tweed, the squire with no money and a roof that ate everything he had — and beside him a stranger. Younger, glossier, in a suit that had never seen a field before today, with a tablet in his hand and a way of looking at the Glebe Field that was not the way you looked at a flower show. He looked at it the way Miriam looked at her saffron: as a yield. As a thing that could be got out of the ground. He lifted one arm and swept it slowly across the whole green length of the field, tent to tent to hedge, and said something, and Freddie nodded, and glanced back over his shoulder toward the crowd with the furtive quickness of a man who does not want to be seen agreeing.
Dilys did not know the stranger's name yet. She noted him the way she noted the crocus under the wall — a thing in bloom out of its proper season, pretty enough, and wrong.
"There," said Pru, at her elbow, making her start. She had a fresh cup in her hand, and she pressed it into Dilys's before Dilys could refuse. "Drink that while it's hot. And — oh, will you look." Pru had turned toward the flower tent, and her whole face had lit. Through the looped canvas Dilys could see, on the corner table, a spray of tall greenish bells that someone had brought in from an old garden. "Tellima grandiflora. The fringe cups. You hardly ever see it grown now, everyone wants the flashy things." She said the name easily, correctly, with the exact soft affection of long acquaintance — and then, catching Dilys's look, she laughed and put her hand up as if to take it back. "Listen to me. I don't know why it comes out. Oh, I only know what Tom taught me, over the counter, forty years of it. It sticks, that's all. Doesn't mean anything." She patted Dilys's arm. "You're the one who knows things. Drink your tea."
And she was gone, back into the current of the Show, needed in six places, the beating heart of the whole warm competitive machine — refilling, remembering, mending, the first with a plate and the last to sit down, the one person the village agreed upon.
Dilys drank her tea. It was good tea. She stood in the doorway of the committee tent with the September sun on her back and Wellington leaning his whole weight against her leg, and she watched the hundredth Show turn on its hundredth axis, all of it — the marrows and the daisies, the band murdering something patriotic, Clive nursing his fury, Miriam guarding her three red threads, Freddie and his glossy stranger measuring the field with their eyes, Gordon dabbing his mouth and telling Marion his heart couldn't take this heat, it really couldn't, the doctor had told him to take things gently.
"Then you should sit down, Gordon," Pru said, arriving from nowhere, "and let me look after you."
And Pru Merridew filled Gordon's cup a third time, stirred in his precious saffron honey with her own hand, and set it before him with a smile so warm and so complete that Dilys, watching, thought what a lucky village it was to have one person in it who seemed to love absolutely everybody.
The Judge's Cup
Gordon Purslowe gave out his rosettes the way lesser men give out sentences, and Little Hemlock stood in the September sun and took it, because it always had.
He had a platform for it — the low wooden dais dragged up from the church hall each year and dressed with a green baize cloth that had faded to the colour of a sick lawn — and he stood on it in his linen jacket and his club tie, a clipboard held against his chest like a breastplate, and he read out the placings in the voice of a man announcing the verdicts of a higher court. First. Second. Third. Highly Commended, which in Gordon's mouth was less a compliment than a caution. Between each class he paused. He let the pause work. He surveyed the crowd along the front of the marquees the way a landowner surveys a boundary, and only when the silence had ripened to his taste did he go on.
Dilys stood at the back, in the shade of the tea tent's guy-ropes, where the grass was cool and where she could not be seen to be alone. Wellington sat against her leg, leaning his whole disgraceful weight into her calf, his eyes half-shut, his nose reading the afternoon in a way she envied. Roast something. Crushed grass. The green, bruised smell of a thousand cut stems wilting in their jam-jars. Somewhere under it all, sweeter, the coconut-and-cream note of the WI cake table, which Marion Kettleby guarded as though it held the Crown Jewels.
"Sweet peas," Gordon said, and consulted his clipboard as though the name of the winner might change if he stared hard enough. "First — Mrs. Enid Purslowe."
A ripple went round. Not of surprise; of the opposite. Enid came forward from the second row where she always stood, a small grey woman in a cardigan too warm for the day, and took her rosette from her husband's hand without either of them meeting the other's eye. Gordon did not smile. He gave her the little card and the little roll of ribbon as if handing back a form incorrectly filled in, and Enid retreated with it clutched against her, and the crowd looked at their shoes and pretended the sweet peas had grown themselves.
"He grows them," Dilys murmured to the dog. "She grows them, and he judges them, and no one has ever once suggested there might be something the matter with that."
Welly sighed through his nose.
The classes went on. Dahlias, blazing in their buckets, the great shaggy dinner-plate blooms and the tight pom-poms like clenched fists. Gladioli. The onions, hefted and gleaming, each one a small brass planet. Gordon judged them all, and between judgements he drank his tea.
That was the thing Dilys watched, in the end, because it was the thing she could not help watching, the way you cannot help watching a man polish the same patch of a windscreen over and over. He had his cup — his own cup, the good bone china with the gilt rim that lived in the committee tent and that no one else was permitted to so much as breathe on — and he had his jar, the squat little jar of saffron honey with its handwritten label, and at his elbow he had Pru Merridew, who filled the cup and stirred in the honey with her own hand and set it before him, again and again, through the long bright hours of the afternoon.
"Saffron," he had told the vicar, earlier, holding the cup up so the light came through it amber. "Little Hemlock saffron, or near enough. A civilised habit. My doctor tells me one ought to give up something at my age. I've given up the sugar." A small, dry laugh, entirely for himself. He had a heart, Gordon; everyone knew about Gordon's heart; he wore it like another rosette, the pills that came out of the waistcoat pocket at intervals and went down with a mouthful of the amber tea. Mind my heart. It excused a great deal. It excused the chair carried out for him, and the fuss, and the way the committee arranged the whole hundred-year edifice of the Show around the comfort of one man's arteries.
He drank, and judged, and drank.
The saffron itself came up in the class for Novelty and Miscellaneous Produce, which Gordon plainly regarded as the servants' entrance of the whole enterprise. Miriam Pardoe had entered it. Of course she had. She stood off to the side in her good jacket with her chin up and her hands folded, and on the trestle in front of her lay her little folded paper of threads, and the card she had lettered so carefully — Saffron, Crocus sativus, grown Little Hemlock allotments — and beside it, because Miriam did nothing by halves, three of the flowers themselves in a specimen glass, mauve and open, each one showing the three long stigmas that were the whole point, red as arterial blood, drooping past the pale spears of the true anthers.
Dilys, from the back, could see them clearly even at that distance, because forty years teaches the eye to go straight to the thing that matters. Three stigmas. Red, deepening to orange where they branched. That was saffron: the female part, the styles, harvested by hand a pinch at a time, seventy thousand flowers to the pound, worth its weight in most of the metals men have killed each other for. She had grown it herself once, in Hugh's cold frame, for the pleasure of the doing.
Gordon picked up the paper of threads. He held it at arm's length. He sniffed it — a performance, the nose wrinkling — and he did not taste it, which told Dilys he knew nothing whatever about saffron, because the taste is the tell and the smell is only the invitation.
"Saffron," he said, to the crowd rather than to Miriam. "So we're told."
Miriam's chin came up another degree.
"The difficulty," Gordon went on, laying the paper down with two fingers as though it might mark him, "is that we'll not know if it's genuine, will we. From an incomer." He let it settle. "One likes to know the provenance of a thing. Where it's really from. Whether it's what it says on the label." He made a small mark on his clipboard. "Highly Commended," he said, which was the caution and not the compliment, and moved on to the marrows.
Somebody laughed — one of the beer-tent men, a short ugly bark — and then was ashamed and stopped. Miriam did not move. She stood with her folded hands and her scarlet threads and her open flowers, and she looked at Gordon Purslowe with an expression Dilys would remember later, in the dark, when it mattered: not fury, quite. Something colder and more patient than fury. The look of a woman filing something away.
Then the marrows, and Clive.
It should have been Clive's hour. Clive Sowerby had grown a marrow the size of a drowned dog, a great green swollen thing he had trundled up in a wheelbarrow that morning with the tenderness of a man wheeling a christening, and he stood over it now radiating a hope so naked that Dilys, who could not abide him, felt her chest tighten on his behalf. Hugh had held the marrow record in Little Hemlock for nine years. Clive had wanted this the way some men want to be loved.
"Marrows," said Gordon. He walked the length of the trestle. He stopped at Clive's. He looked at it for a long time.
"Disqualified," he said.
The word dropped into the marquee and killed every other sound.
"The rules," Gordon said, over Clive's noise — Clive had started to make noise at once, a rising splutter — "are quite clear as to the introduction of matter not consistent with natural growth. There is a smell of the chemist's shop about this specimen. I judge as I find." He wrote. "Disqualified. Sowerby." And he turned his back, actually turned his soft linen back on the man, and reached for his cup, and Pru — Pru was already there, already filling it, already stirring in the amber honey with her small neat hand and setting it into his fingers so that he might drink, magnificently, in the face of Clive Sowerby's ruin.
"You—" Clive got out. His face had gone the colour of his own beetroot. "You jumped-up little— nine years I've— I could throttle you, Purslowe, I could put my hands round your—"
"Clive." That was the vicar, Clemency Odell, materialising at his elbow with a hand on his sleeve and a voice like warm milk. "Clive, come and have a sit-down. Come on. In the shade."
"Threaten a judge," Gordon said comfortably, to no one, to everyone, drinking his tea, "and see how far it gets you next year."
They got Clive out. He went the way a bull goes, sideways and lowing, and the marquee let out its breath and pretended to admire the onions, and Dilys stood in the shade of the guy-ropes with her hand in the loose fur of Wellington's neck and thought: what a horrible little man, and how completely safe he is, because everyone here has decided to let him be.
It was some while later — the classes done, the crowd thinning towards the beer tent and the tombola — that she saw Gordon put a hand to his mouth.
She would not have noticed, except that she was already looking at him. He had come down off his dais at last and was standing with a knot of committee, holding forth, and he stopped mid-sentence and touched two fingers to his lips, and then pressed the back of his hand there, hard, and worked his jaw as though something had caught. His colour was high. It had been high all afternoon and she had put it to the sun, but this was a different high, a flush that had climbed up out of the collar and into the face.
"Something's too spiced," he said, loudly, to the committee, and reached for his cup, and drank, and grimaced. "This heat. My mouth's fair burning." He ran his tongue round his teeth. "The chicken at dinner had better be plain, that's all I'll say. Plain. A man of my age can't be doing with all this—" he waved a hand at the whole bright afternoon "—foreign muck."
Pru laughed her soft laugh and said something soothing and took the cup from him to fill it again.
Dilys watched her fill it, and stir the honey in, and hand it back, and she felt the small professional twitch go through her before she could stop it — the same twitch she used to feel when a keen young thing at the Botanic brought her a specimen and named it wrong, the reflexive itch to correct. A burning mouth. In the heat. Well. She looked at the amber cup, and the little squat jar, and she thought of nothing in particular, which was to say she thought of nothing she would let herself finish thinking, and Welly stood up and shook himself all over and pulled towards home, and she let him take her.
The harvest supper filled the village hall the way a tide fills a rock-pool: all at once, and warmly, and with everything floating.
The trestle tables ran the length of it end to end, dressed in the WI's paper cloths, and down the middle marched the coronation chicken in its great cut-glass bowls, pale gold, glossy with its curried cream, studded with sultanas and flaked almonds; and the ham; and the tomato salads bleeding pink into their dressings; and the baked potatoes steaming in their foil like little foil sheep. The hall smelled of hot electric urn and vinegar and two hundred years of jumble sale. Katie Bunce and two other girls went up and down with jugs of water and squash, and Sadie behind the hatch ran the tea like a signalman running a junction, and the din was tremendous and comfortable, the din of a whole village that has known itself all its life sitting down to eat in one room.
Dilys had not meant to come. Clemency had come and fetched her, which was the only reason, arriving at Foxglove Cottage with the particular gentle relentlessness of a good vicar and standing in the porch until Dilys put her cardigan on. "You'll sit by me," Clemency had said, "and if Marion starts on the flower rota you may leave, I give you my blessing." So Dilys sat by the vicar, near the top of the hall, and ate a little, and was talked over pleasantly, and found — to her faint alarm — that it was not unbearable. The noise of other people's lives washing over her. It was almost restful, the way a river is restful, precisely because it does not require anything of you.
Gordon sat at the head, of course. He was not eating much. He had a plate in front of him mostly untouched, and a glass of water he kept lifting and setting down, and Dilys, three places along on the other side, could see the sweat standing on his forehead in the electric light, a greasy sheen along the hairline, though the hall was warm but not that warm. He was still talking. He was still, in his diminished way, holding court — but the talk had a snap to it now, a peevishness, and twice she watched him break off and go still and pale and grip the edge of the table with both hands, the knuckles whitening, before the wave passed and he took it up again.
"Poor Gordon looks proper peaky," said the woman beyond Clemency, comfortably, forking up chicken. "Mind, so does half of us. My Bernard's been out the back twice." She lowered her voice to the volume that carries furthest. "It's the cream, isn't it. Standing about in that heat all afternoon. Coronation chicken on a warm day — Marion should know better, at her age. It's a wonder we're not all took bad."
And it was true; Dilys could hear it, once she listened for it, running along the tables under the ordinary noise. A man two down saying he'd not have the trifle, thank you, he'd gone a bit off his food. Somebody's child fretful and green about the gills. The particular little procession, one and then another, towards the door and the cold air and the lane. A tummy on the turn here and there, no worse than that; the ordinary revenge of a summer buffet; the whole hall diagnosing it in one breath and forgiving it in the next. The cream. The heat. The bug that's going round — half of Kingsbourne's had it. By the sweet course it had become the joke of the evening. They would be laughing about it in the shop on Monday.
But Dilys was watching Gordon, and Gordon was not the joke.
She could not have said, then, quite what set him apart. She knew it the way you know a wrong note in a familiar tune before you can name which note it is. The others had gone queasy in the last half hour, all together, the way people do when they have eaten the same bad thing at the same table. Gordon had been complaining of his burning mouth on the Glebe Field, in the sun, hours ago — before a soul had touched the coronation chicken, before the supper was so much as laid. His had started earlier and it was running deeper. The others were merely off their food. Gordon was gripping the table and sweating grey.
Different onset. Different course. The old vocabulary, unbidden. She turned her wine-glass by the stem and told herself she was a foolish old woman who had spent the afternoon staring at a man's teacup and was now inventing a mystery to keep herself company, because a mystery was better than an empty house with a light left on in the greenhouse.
Pru had him in hand. Pru was up out of her own seat and round behind his chair, bent to him, a glass of water in her fist, her other hand hovering at his shoulder — not touching, he wouldn't be touched, he never had been — murmuring at his ear. Poor Gordon. Poor Gordon, you're not well, will you not let me— And Gordon flapping a hand at her, snapping, "Leave off, woman, I've a stomach, that's all, I'm not a child," and Pru drawing back and coming again, patient, endless, the water held ready, her round kind face folded into concern so complete it might have been carved there.
"She's a saint, that one," said the comfortable woman, watching too. "Look at her. Never a word for herself and always the first up when there's someone poorly. Backbone of the village, Pru Merridew."
"She is," said Clemency softly, and meant it, and Dilys looked at Pru bent over the man in his sweating misery, and thought that yes, she was, and felt nothing at all move in her to say otherwise.
They got him up at last. It took the vicar and Freddie Quennell and a good deal of Gordon's own furious refusal of help; he would walk to the car on his own feet if it killed him, and he told them so. Enid gathered her cardigan and her handbag and rose to go with him, and Dilys — three places along, and no one's idea of a watcher — saw the woman's face in the moment before she arranged it. Not grief. Not fear. Something quieter and more terrible than either: a kind of listening stillness, the face of a woman waiting to find out whether at last, at long last, she might be let alone. Then Enid smoothed it away into wifely worry and followed him out.
The hall was thinning fast now, the queasy going home holding their middles and laughing about it, the well staying to help stack chairs. Clemency went the length of the room with her arm round old Mrs. Trencher, seeing her to her door. Katie Bunce collected glasses. The urn ticked and cooled. It had been, everyone agreed, a lovely Show and a good supper spoiled only a little at the end, and warm weather always did play the mischief with a cream, and wasn't it a shame poor Gordon had caught it worst of all, on his own centenary too, after all his hard work.
At the door they helped him down the step and out to the car, and Gordon leaned on the roof of it and swore weakly at the night, and Pru came out after them with his linen jacket that he'd left over the back of his chair.
"Just his poor tummy and his poor heart, like the rest of us," said Pru Merridew, folding Gordon's coat over her arm as they helped him to the car, "and that dreadful bug going round." And nobody in the hall, least of all Dilys, thought to wonder how Pru had known it was his tummy first, when the burning in his mouth had started hours before anyone else felt ill at all.
A Natural Death
The bell for early service was still ringing when Dilys learned that Gordon Purslowe was dead, and she was ashamed of the small, disloyal thought that arrived with the news: that no one, anywhere, would truly grieve him.
She had the news from Sadie Bunce, who had it from the milk, who had it from Dr. Whitcombe's cleaner, which was as good as having it from the coroner and considerably faster. Sadie came up the lane at half past eight in her outdoor coat and her indoor slippers, which told Dilys more about the state of the village than any words could, and stood at the gate of Foxglove Cottage with her hand flat against her chest.
"Gone," Sadie said. "In the night. Two, three o'clock, they think. Enid found him." She paused for the proper interval. "Well."
"Well," Dilys agreed, because there was nothing else to say through a garden gate on a grey morning with the bell going.
It was a Sunday the colour of pewter, the light thin and even, no wind. The dahlias along the path stood exactly where the Show had left them, blowsy and undiminished, red as arterial blood. Behind Sadie the lane ran down toward the church, and the whole soft valley lay under a lid of cloud that would not decide whether to rain. Somewhere below, the marquees were being struck; you could hear the flat metallic clank of the poles going down and a man laughing, which seemed wrong and was not.
"His heart, of course," Sadie said, settling into it, the way one settles into a warm bath. "Never strong. And that bug — half the hall was poorly by the end, weren't they, you saw. Marion Kettleby was up all night, and the Pardoe boy, and I don't like to say who else. Coronation chicken." She lowered her voice to give the phrase its due. "In this weather. That cream sitting out. I said so at the time, ask anyone."
"You did," said Dilys, who had not heard her say any such thing but understood the machinery.
"An old man, a weak heart, a bad bug, and" — Sadie permitted herself the smallest curl of the mouth — "one glass too many of his own importance. He'd had a good day of it, ordering everyone about. It catches up." She caught herself, glanced at the church, and adjusted her face into something more suitable. "God rest him."
"God rest him," said Dilys.
And that, she understood, standing at her gate with the bell ringing and Wellington's long grey head shoved through the bars beside her knee, was the shape the village had already chosen. It had been chosen before the tea had gone cold. An old man; a bad heart; the bug that felled half the supper; one glass too many of himself. It was a good story. It was tidy and it was kind — kind to everyone except the truth, which no one had asked after — and it had the great merit of requiring nothing further of anybody. You could put a death like that away in a drawer and get on with the harvest.
By eleven it had hardened. Dr. Whitcombe, who had been Gordon's doctor for thirty years and was owed money by half the parish and disliked by none, had come out to the house before church and gone away again with his certificate written. Gastroenteritis, Sadie reported by the second telling, and heart failure — the old ticker giving out under the strain of the sickness, poor man, exactly as one would expect. No question of anything else. No question of a post-mortem; why would there be? An expected death, near enough, in a man of sixty-seven with a cardiac history and a bottle of pills on his nightstand and a village full of people who had eaten the same chicken and were merely, thank goodness, less unlucky. The season would close over him the way water closes over a stone.
Dilys went in and put the kettle on and did not drink the tea she made.
It was nothing. She told herself so, standing at the sink with both hands flat on the cold enamel, looking out at Hugh's greenhouse where the light still burned because she had not been able to turn it off in fourteen months. It was a feeling, and a feeling was not a fact, and she was a woman who had spent forty years insisting on the difference. A colour was a fact. A stamen was a fact. Aroma, and the number of parts, and the way a thing grew — those were facts, and you could take them into a laboratory and be right. A feeling in the pit of the stomach on a grey Sunday morning was the sort of thing that grief manufactured to keep itself company, and she distrusted it accordingly.
But she went over it anyway, because she could not help it, the way the tongue goes to the sore tooth.
She had watched him. That was the thing she kept arriving at. She had been standing in the shade of the tea tent's guy-ropes at the prize-giving, no distance at all from where Gordon Purslowe held forth among the committee — the classes all judged, hours before the supper, before anyone had so much as smelled the coronation chicken — and she had watched him put his fingers to his lips and work his mouth as though something had caught there. She had thought, at the time, only that he was being disgusting about it, the way he was disgusting about most things. He had asked Katie Bunce for water. He had said the word burning. She was nearly sure of the word. His face had gone the wrong colour, not the flushed choleric red of a bully in full sail but something greyer, tallow under the skin. And that had been the afternoon.
The others had gone down in the evening. Marion, the Pardoe boy, the two Yeo sisters — all of them queasy after the supper, after the warm cream, all of them heaving and wretched and, by this morning, all of them recovering. That was a bug. That was six hours of misery and a day in bed and a sheepish return to the world. She had seen a hundred such summers. That was the ordinary arithmetic of a hot September and a churn of cream left in a tent.
But Gordon had started hours before them. And Gordon had not recovered. Gordon had started with his mouth — a burning mouth, before his stomach, before anyone else felt so much as a twinge — and gone on a different road entirely, downhill, alone, while the queasy climbed back up into the light. Same table. Same supper. Different journeys. One of these things, she thought, is not like the others.
Which does not mean a thing, she told herself, sharply, in Hugh's voice, because Hugh had always been the one to keep her honest. Old hearts fail in their own time and in their own way. Correlation, Dilys. You of all people.
Yes. Quite.
And who, precisely, was she to say otherwise? She was the widow who did the flowers. She was poor Dilys, since Hugh. She was the woman they were kind to, gently, from a small distance, the way you are kind to something you expect shortly to lose. If she went down the lane this morning and stood in the vicarage kitchen and said, in her clear careful lecturing voice, I don't think Gordon Purslowe died of a tummy bug — she could see it, entire, the way Clemency's face would arrange itself into patience, the way the word grief would be thought and not said. They would give her more tea. They would ask if she was sleeping. She had spent a lifetime being right about plants in front of people who could not tell a stigma from a stamen, and she knew exactly how it felt to be listened to with that particular soft attention that is really only waiting for you to finish.
So she said nothing to anyone who would listen. There was no one who would listen. That, she was coming to understand, was rather the whole of her situation.
The one who listened was twenty-five years old and had put his cap on the wrong way round to start with.
She came upon him at noon near the Purslowe house — she had not meant to walk that way, or so she told herself, though Wellington had needed the lead put on twice and had strained toward the green the whole way as if he knew perfectly well where they were going. A police car sat at the Purslowes' gate, small and unnecessary against the honey-coloured stone, and beside it a young constable stood with a notebook, looking at the front door as though it might set him a test.
He was very tall and not yet filled out, all wrists, and he had the earnest, scrubbed, slightly panicked look of a boy sent to do a man's errand and determined to do it thoroughly. When Wellington, who respected no man's grief and no man's uniform, planted his forepaws on the low wall and thrust his whiskery grey face at the constable in frank enquiry, the boy did not shoo him. He put out the back of his hand to be smelled, correctly, and let himself be judged, and only then said, "Morning," to Dilys, and touched his cap.
"PC Fettiplace," he added, as if she might want it for her records. "Owen. I'm — it's just the paperwork, for Mr. Purslowe. When it's expected. There's forms." He glanced back at the door with something close to dread. "Mrs. Purslowe's not — I didn't like to keep knocking."
"Enid will be with the vicar," said Dilys. "They'll have taken her to the vicarage. You could try there, but gently. She found him."
"Right." He wrote it down. Actually wrote it — vicarage, gently — in a round careful hand, and Dilys, watching the pencil move, felt something turn over in her chest that she could not immediately name and did not much care for, because it was too close to hope. He was doing it properly. Nobody did anything properly any more; everybody knew the answer before the question, everybody was in a hurry to have the world be simple. This great long boy with his cap on straight now was standing at a dead man's gate writing down what an old woman told him because it might be true and might matter, and she could have wept, which was absurd.
"You were there, then," he said. "At the Show." Not a fixture at the edge of the day, not part of the scenery — a person who had been present and might have seen. "Yesterday."
"I was."
"They're saying it was the bug. And his heart." He said it without weight, watching her, and she understood that the flatness was a question and that he had asked it on purpose. He was greener than April, but he was not stupid. He had noticed, perhaps, that a whole village had agreed on a thing awfully fast.
Dilys looked down the green toward the field, where the last of the committee tent was coming down in a slow sag of canvas, and she chose her words with the care she would have given a diagnosis.
"His illness was odd," she said. "That's all. I don't say it was anything. I'm not a doctor and Dr. Whitcombe is, and he's signed it, and I daresay he's right." She met the boy's eyes. "But it was odd. He was ill in the afternoon, hours before the others — his mouth first, before his stomach; he complained of a burning. The rest of them went down after the supper and they're up again this morning. He went a different way and he didn't come back. Bugs don't usually pick one man out of a crowd and treat him quite so differently from everyone who ate the same food." She stopped. "It's probably nothing. Old hearts fail. But you asked, and it was odd, and I've been forty years a botanist and I notice when things don't match."
For a moment she was certain he would do what they all did — the soft eyes, the thank you very much, madam, we'll bear that in mind. He did not. He wrote it down. All of it, or nearly; she watched the pencil labour through burning — afternoon — before the others — different course, and he underlined afternoon with a small firm stroke, and looked up.
"Before the others," he repeated. "How much before?"
"Hours. Four, five. The middle of the day."
"And the others were all after the supper. After the chicken." He frowned at his own notes, and she could see him doing the sum, the same sum she had done at her sink, and not liking the remainder either. "That is a bit —" He seemed to reach for a word grand enough and settle, endearingly, for hers. "Odd."
"It's very likely nothing," said Dilys again, because she was an honest woman and because she did not want to be the sort of old fool who cries wolf at a natural death. But she was aware, as she said it, that she did not entirely believe it, and that this boy — this one green boy with his careful pencil — was the first living soul in fourteen months to write down a single word she'd said as though it were worth the lead.
"I'll note it," he said. "Doesn't cost anything to note it." He hesitated. "You're the — Mrs. Ashcroft. The plant lady. Doctor Ashcroft's — his —"
"His widow," said Dilys. "Yes."
"He fixed my gran's foot," Owen said unexpectedly. "Doctor Ashcroft. Years back. She still talks about him." He went pink, as if he'd overstepped, and busied himself with the notebook. "Anyway. Thank you. I mean it. Most people just tell me to go home."
She went, before the sting behind her eyes could disgrace her, and Wellington went too, dragging on the lead, casting one long regretful look back at the tall young policeman who had scratched him behind the ears without being asked.
Which was how they came to be down by the field at all, and how the disgrace came about, and how the last jar of honey Gordon Purslowe would ever touch came home to Foxglove Cottage in the mouth of a dog.
The tea tent was down by the time they reached the Glebe Field, folded into its long grey sausage and roped for the trailer, and behind where it had stood there was the usual squalid archipelago of the morning after — trodden grass gone yellow in the tent's ghost-print, a lost cardigan, a wasp-loud drift of paper cups and squashed cake and the split black bags the volunteers had not yet carted off. It smelled of trampled grass and old tea and, faintly, sweetly, of something turning. Dilys had no business there and knew it, and told herself she was only cutting across to the stile, and did not believe that either.
Wellington had no such scruples. He was off the lead — she would swear afterward that she had held it, but the truth was that a lurcher who has spotted rubbish is a force of nature and she was sixty-four and tired — and he went into the rubbish pile nose-first and joyous, the whole disgraceful length of him wagging, flinging paper cups over his shoulders like a terrier at a rat-hole. She called him. He ignored her, magnificently, in the way Hugh had always said was the truest sign of a happy dog.
"Wellington. Welly. Leave it. Leave —"
He backed out with his prize and stood four-square on the ruined grass, ears up, tail going, immensely pleased with himself, and clamped in his long jaws — the glass grinding faintly against his teeth in a way that set hers on edge — was a jar. An ordinary jar. She got a hand to his collar and prised his mouth and took it from him, and turned it in the grey light: a plain glass honey jar, the small kind, the lid gone, a smear of gold gone crystalline and cloudy inside, and clinging to the sticky rim a few frail threads of red-gold that she knew at a glance for the saffron honey the whole village had made such a refined fuss of all summer. Gordon's affectation. Somebody's. There had been a jar of it on every trestle at the Show, near enough; Miriam's revival had seen to that. Rubbish. Just rubbish, thrown out with the cake and the cups when the tent came down, the way you throw out everything at the end of a day, and not worth a second thought except that a fool of a dog would crack a tooth or slit his gut on the glass sooner than leave it be.
She dropped it into her cardigan pocket to get it away from him, meaning to bin it at home, and thought no more of it than that — a spurt of ordinary irritation at the animal, a passing distaste for Gordon Purslowe reaching out to be a nuisance even from the mortuary, one last sticky jar of his self-regard. Behind her the men were loading the poles. The bell had stopped. The cloud still had not decided about the rain.
"It's only an old jar, you dreadful animal," Dilys told the lurcher, prising it from his jaws, and she carried it home and set it on the windowsill and forgot it — the last jar of honey Gordon Purslowe would ever be allowed to keep, dug out of the rubbish by a dog who, unlike the entire village of Little Hemlock, had refused to leave well alone.
The Plant Lady's Doubt
Grief, Dilys had found, was a greenhouse: a small warm place where you kept the one thing you could not let die, and it was the only room in her life where she still knew exactly what she was doing.
She had gone out to it after the ten o'clock news, as she went most nights now, in Hugh's old gardening coat with the secateurs still forgotten in the left pocket, cold against her hip. The bulb over the potting bench had been burning since dusk, and the village three fields off saw the light and thought, poor Dilys, keeping late again, and left her be. That suited her. She was learning that it was the most useful thing about her — that everyone had already decided what she was.
Wellington had followed her out and folded his long grey length under the bench with a sigh of enormous suffering, as though the greenhouse were a kennel and the kennel a personal affront. The glass was beaded with the day's damp. On the staging the autumn-sown seedlings pricked up their first true leaves, and it was among these — the small live things Hugh had never seen — that Dilys stood and did the thing she had been refusing to do for three days.
She keyed him out.
You began, always, with what you could observe, and you did not permit yourself to want an answer. That was the whole of it, forty years distilled: the specimen did not care what you hoped. So. A man of sixty-seven, elderly by the parish's generous reckoning, a known bad heart and a pill-box he tapped like a conjuror. That was the trunk of the thing, the fat obvious stem everyone had grasped and stopped at. Old heart. Bug going round. Nature, and a shame, and pass the sandwiches.
Dilys took a seed label and a soft pencil and, because her hands liked to be busy while the rest of her was frightened, wrote the course of it down the way she would have written a determination.
Morning — well. Judging the sweet peas, ruling the marquee, taking his tea. Cup after cup of it, all morning, that particular tea nobody else would touch.
Early afternoon — the mouth. She had this from Sadie Bunce, who had it from Katie, who had carried water to the committee tent and heard Mr Purslowe complain that the urn had scalded him, that his mouth was burning, and been told sharply that it was the horseradish in the coronation chicken and to fetch more milk. A burning mouth and throat. Dilys underlined it once.
Supper — the collapse. And here the village had its comfortable story ready-made, because a good half of the harvest supper had spent the small hours unwell, the whole warm creamy coronation-chicken lot of them, groaning and blaming the cook. A tummy-bug. Demonstrably, gloriously, a tummy-bug. Only — and Dilys had spent two afternoons gathering this, sideways, in the currency of the recently bereaved, a seed cake here and a murmur of dreadful, quite dreadful there — only the others had been wretched by midnight and mending by dawn. Sitting up wan and sheepish, asking for dry toast. Recovering. All of them.
Gordon had rallied too.
She had that from Enid herself, poor flattened Enid, who had said it twice as though it comforted her: he seemed so much better, round about one, he asked me for a cup of tea and said he'd turned the corner. Turned the corner. And then, an hour or two on, not the corner at all but the cliff — the sweat, the breathlessness, the heart Dr Whitcombe had always warned him of finally, obligingly, stopping. Small hours. Certificate by nine. In the ground by Thursday under a great many lilies and one wreath from the Show committee shaped, with hideous aptness, like a rosette.
Dilys looked at what she had written.
Burning mouth. Then hours of gastric ruin. Then a false dawn, a rally, a corner turned. Then the fall.
That was not norovirus. Norovirus did not scald a man's throat at noon and let him feel better at one o'clock in order to kill him at three. Norovirus was a rude, brief, honest illness that emptied you and released you. This — this had architecture. This had a design, a shape that rose and fell and rose and fell again, and Dilys knew that shape. Not from any single case. From the long shelf of the thing she had given her life to, where the beautiful and the fatal sat cheek by cheek under their proper names.
That was a plant.
She stood very still with the pencil going soft and warm in her fingers, and she began to run the candidates, because a botanist did not seize the first pretty hypothesis any more than she seized the first pretty toadstool.
Not aconite — Aconitum, the monkshood glowering in half the cottage borders — for that came on fast and cruel, the tingling, the numb creeping mouth, the drowning, all inside the hour. Too quick, and no rally. Not the foxgloves; Digitalis went for the heart directly and honestly and would not have troubled the gut for a whole afternoon first. Not the deadly nightshade, all dry mouth and wild eyes and a racing pulse and a man seeing devils on the tent-poles; someone would have remarked on the devils. Not the hemlock the village was named for and no longer even noticed by the ditches, Conium, the ascending cold that took the legs and then the breath while the mind stayed dreadfully clear. Not yew. Not the laburnum's rain of poison peas. Each one she picked up, turned to the light of its symptoms, and set gently back on the shelf.
And then she came to the one that fit, and the greenhouse seemed to tilt very slightly, the way a floor does when you have missed a step in the dark.
Colchicine.
Colchicum autumnale. The autumn crocus. The meadow saffron. The naked ladies — she could see them this minute if she stepped outside, the bare pink goblets opening leafless and sudden all up the lane and in every third garden in Little Hemlock, in her own border, in the churchyard grass, pretty as anything and asked after fondly by people who would be appalled to learn what they were nursing. Aren't they lovely, Dilys, so cheerful this time of year. Lovely. Yes. And every part of them, flower and corm and seed, freighted with an alkaloid that the old herbals half-worshipped and half-feared, that thinned to nothing in the mouth and then went patiently, terribly to work.
Because that was the horror of colchicine, the thing that made her set the pencil down and press her cold hand flat to the staging: it was slow. It lied. It let hours go by — six, eight, ten — before it announced itself, so that a man might swallow it in the sunshine of a Saturday morning and feel perfectly well through the raffle and the tug-of-war and only begin to burn as the shadows lengthened. It struck the gut first, exactly like a bad prawn or a warm bowl of chicken cream. It granted a rally, a cruel bright interval when the body seemed to have won, before it turned on the heart and the blood and closed everything down. And it left, in a churchyard, a perfectly ordinary-looking dead old man with a bad heart, in a week when a bug was going round.
It got away with it. That was its whole character. It was the poison that got away.
Somewhere under the bench Wellington groaned and turned over. Dilys became aware that her heart was going hard and light, and that the thing in her chest was not, God forgive her, grief.
It was interest.
It had woken her up. There was no honest word for it but that. For fourteen months she had moved through her days like a woman underwater, doing the necessary things slowly, and here in the small hours of a greenhouse she was more awake than she had been since the morning she came downstairs and found Hugh's chair still warm and Hugh gone out of it. Her mind had come back on all at once, the whole lit instrument of it, and it was pleased with itself, and she was so ashamed she had to sit down on the upturned crate and put the heels of her hands against her eyes.
A man was dead and she was glad to be thinking. What a creature to be. What a wicked, hungry, undrowned old creature, warming her hands at a murder.
"It doesn't make me right," she said aloud, to the seedlings, to the dog. "It only makes me interested." Wellington's tail thumped twice on the brick, agreeing to nothing.
But it did make her methodical again, and after a while methodical was steadier than shame. If it was colchicine — if — then the plant did not walk into a marquee and pour itself into a man. Someone had carried it there. And here the loveliness of the thing curdled into cleverness, because colchicine had almost no taste. A faint bitterness, easily lost. You could not simply tip it into the water urn; the whole tent drank from the urn and the whole tent was fine. You could not put it in the coronation chicken, or it would have killed half the parish instead of dosing them with cream gone off. No. To take one man and only one man, repeatedly, over the length of a morning, you needed something he alone took. Something he took again and again, all through the judging, that no one else would touch.
Dilys sat quite motionless on her crate.
His tea. Gordon and his tea. Gordon and his ridiculous, treasured, thirty-years'-affectation of a tea, the one he made a small ceremony of, the one that had begun when the allotments got their saffron up and the village wanted something refined to boast of. Not sugar — sugar was common; the committee took sugar and Gordon let them, benignly, the way a bishop lets the choir sing. Gordon took his tea with a spoonful of saffron honey, from his own jar, kept in the committee tent, dipped and stirred and dipped again, cup after cup, all the long self-important morning of the hundredth Show.
His saffron honey.
And saffron — Dilys was on her feet now without deciding to be, moving the seed trays an inch each because her hands needed it — saffron was Miriam Pardoe's saffron, three long threads to a flower, dried crimson stigmas of Crocus sativus that Miriam grew on her allotment against all the village's cool indifference and had brought to the Show in a little glass phial, holding it up, saying smell that, that's honey and hay and hot metal, that's the real thing, and it takes two hundred flowers to fill a thimble. Saffron, the most costly, most counterfeited spice on earth. Saffron, that people had faked with marigold and safflower and turmeric and dye since before the Romans. Saffron — and here at last was where the cold went all the way down — that a person with a wicked, patient turn of mind might fake with something else. Something bare and pink and everywhere. Something not a true crocus at all, though it wore the name.
She did not, standing in the greenhouse, know that this was so. She knew only that it could be. That was the whole distance between a botanist and the grave: could be was not was.
She thought then of the delay, and turned it over, and found it was worse than she had understood. Because if the dose went in with the morning's honey, then by the time Gordon fell down at the harvest supper, whoever had doctored his jar could be anywhere. At home. In the beer tent. Sitting at his very bedside with a cool cloth and a face full of sorrow, saying there now, Gordon, drink your tea. The poison had done the whole thing itself, hours after the poisoner's hands were clean and folded. You could not point at the moment of the crime because there had been no moment; only a spoonful in the sun, and then patience. The alibi was built into the plant. The plant was the alibi.
She would get nowhere with the village. She could hear already exactly how it would go — poor Dilys, since Hugh, you know, she's got a bee in her bonnet, it's grief, best humour her — and she was not fool enough to walk into Dr Whitcombe's surgery and tell a busy man he had signed a lie. She had a certificate against her, and a funeral, and a whole community leaning its warm bulk on the comfortable answer.
What she needed was someone who would tell her she was wrong for the right reasons. Someone who had no stake in Little Hemlock's peace, who did not care tuppence for her feelings, and who knew what colchicine did to a human body from the inside.
There was, as it happened, exactly one such person in the parish. He had bought the old station house in the spring and put up a hedge and offended everyone by not wanting to be offended at, and Sadie Bunce, who knew everything, said he had been a Home Office man, one of those doctors, the sort that read the dead. A pathologist. Widowed, like her. Retired, like her. Rude, by all accounts, unlike her, though she was beginning to feel she could learn.
She went the next evening, before her nerve could grow a second thought.
Dr Ambrose Cardew was at his gate when she came up the lane in the low gold light, doing violence to a wisteria with a pair of loppers, and he did it wrongly, cutting the flowering wood, which told her something about him before he had said a word. He was tall and stooped and dressed like a man who had stopped caring what the mirror thought, and he looked at her over half-glasses with the flat, sorting attention of someone who had spent his working life deciding what things were.
"If it's the church roof," he said, "I've given. If it's jam, I don't."
"It's colchicine," said Dilys.
The loppers stopped.
He looked at her for a moment longer, recalculating, and she watched him do it — watched the sorting eye move from tiresome village woman to tiresome village woman who has said a word she oughtn't to know — and she stood very straight in Hugh's coat and let him.
"You'd better say that again," he said.
"Gordon Purslowe." She kept her voice level, the voice she used for lecturing, laying the specimen on the table between them fact by fact. "Burning mouth by early afternoon. Gastrointestinal collapse through the evening. A rally about one in the morning — he asked his wife for tea and said he'd turned the corner. Then cardiovascular failure, and dead by four. Certified gastroenteritis and heart failure, because he was old and cardiac and there was food poisoning going round the supper that same night from the coronation chicken. Everyone who had the chicken was mending by breakfast. He was the only one who followed a different course. That course rose and fell and rose and fell." She paused. "I'm a botanist. I retired from thirty years of it. That is not a bug. That is an alkaloid, and the one it fits is colchicine, and colchicine is the autumn crocus, and there is one growing behind you against your own wall."
Cardew did not turn to look at his wall. He kept his eyes on her, and something in the long dry face had come alert, the way a hound comes alert without moving.
"Amateurs," he said, "are usually wrong."
"Usually," Dilys agreed. "Tell me where I am."
He was quiet. A blackbird went off in the hedge like an alarm and settled. When he spoke it was slower, the rudeness gone out of it, replaced by something worse for her purposes, which was care.
"You're not wrong about the course," he said. "That's the devil of it. That biphasic pattern — the deceptive interval — that's colchicine to the life. Multi-system, delayed, and it mimics a gastroenteric death so well that I have seen it missed by men who ought to have known better. I have corrected men who missed it." He set the loppers down on the gatepost, deliberately. "So. You have reasoned it correctly. And you have nothing at all."
"I have—"
"You have a feeling and a symptom picture assembled from village gossip about a man who is now embalmed and buried and whose GP has signed him off as natural." He said it without unkindness, which was somehow the cruellest way he could have said it, because it meant he meant it. "There was no post-mortem. There will not be one unless a coroner can be persuaded, and a coroner will not be persuaded by a retired lady with a hunch, however good her Latin. Do you understand what colchicine is, Mrs—?"
"Ashcroft."
"Mrs Ashcroft. Colchicine is the poison that gets away. It is cheap, it is common, it grows in the churchyard, it is nearly tasteless, it kills on a delay so long that the poisoner is home in bed by the time it works, and it hides inside the commonest death there is. If someone in your pretty village used it, they chose it because it disappears. It has disappeared. You are standing at my gate holding the shape of a crime with nothing inside it."
"Then I'll put something inside it," said Dilys.
He looked at her, and — she would think about this later, walking home — something at the corner of his mouth moved that was not quite contempt. It was closer to the face a man makes when a colleague, presumed dull, says the one sharp thing.
"You're serious," he said.
"I am the only person in Little Hemlock who is."
"Then God help Little Hemlock." He picked the loppers up again, and she understood the audience was ending, and understood too that he was not, whatever his voice did, sending her away as a fool — because a man who thought her a fool would not have named the biphasic curve, would not have said the devil of it, would not still be looking at her as though she were a specimen worth keeping. He was, maddeningly, intrigued. She could see it and he could see that she could see it, and neither of them said so.
She had come for proof and was going home with permission, which was less and somehow more. She turned to go, and the whole day's reasoning came down at last, in the plain cool way the best deductions always arrived, on the smallest thing of all.
The vehicle. She needed the vehicle. She needed the honey.
And there was a jar on her own windowsill this minute — the one Wellington had dug out of the Glebe Field rubbish and refused to give up, that she had carried home and set down among the geraniums and forgotten. Gordon's jar. The last jar of honey the man would ever be allowed to keep.
Except.
Except she did not know that it was his working jar at all. She did not know whether Welly had dug up the honey Gordon had actually eaten from all that fatal morning — or a decoy, a spent thing, an empty put out to be found, while the true jar, the doctored one, went home in a basket to be washed and returned to a shelf and never thought of again. One jar the village had thrown away. And another, somewhere, that had done the killing. They might be the same jar. They might not. And everything — the coroner, the truth, the innocent, the guilty, the whole lit instrument of her waking mind — turned on that difference and on nothing else.
"You have a feeling and a buried man," said Ambrose Cardew, not unkindly, closing his gate between them. "Bring me a fact." And Dilys walked home in the dusk thinking of the two jars — the one the village had thrown away, and the one, wherever it was, that had actually killed him — and knew that everything now turned on telling them apart.
The Saffron That Wasn't
Under the lamp the little dried threads looked exactly like saffron, which was, Dilys understood with a slow cold turning of the stomach, precisely the point.
She had spread them on a white saucer, a dozen of them lifted from the honey with the tip of a bone knitting needle and rinsed under the tap until the amber let go of them and they lay clean and separate on the china, curled like commas, red-orange, expensive-looking. Anyone would have said saffron. Enid would have said saffron. Gordon had said saffron for years, with the particular satisfaction of a man who has learned to want a thing chiefly because it is dear. The whole village would have gone on saying saffron until the end of time.
Dilys turned the desk lamp so the light fell aslant, and reached for the loupe.
The jar had not been hard to get. That was the part that turned in her still, sitting here in Hugh's greenhouse with the paraffin heater ticking and the dark pressed to the glass — how easy it had been, how the whole thing had wanted to be found and nobody had gone to look. She had walked up to the village hall after breakfast on the pretext of the harvest-supper crockery, which needed, she'd said, counting before the WI could be accused of losing another dozen forks; and there was Pru at the trestle in her apron, up to the elbows in the committee's leavings, sorting the season back into its boxes the way she sorted everything, kindly and completely.
"Now that," Pru had said, following Dilys's eye to the shelf of odds behind the urn, "I've kept for the next do. Seems a waste, doesn't it, when it's barely touched. Gordon's saffron honey." She had lifted it down and set it on the trestle between them, wiping the lid with her thumb as though it mattered that it be clean. "He'd not want it thrown out. He was that fond of it, poor man. I said to Marion, we'll have it for the committee teas come the AGM, and think of him." She had smiled then, the smile the whole village trusted, soft at the corners. "It's the small things you miss."
"It is," Dilys had said, and meant it, and taken the jar, and hated herself a little for the ease of it, because there had been nothing to it at all. You had only to be a woman of sixty-odd in a cardigan, asking after forks. Nobody watched you. Nobody watched any of them. Invisibility, she was beginning to think, was not the affliction she had spent fourteen months believing it. It was a set of keys.
So here was the jar Gordon had actually used — his own, from the committee tent, spooned into cup after cup through the long hot morning of the judging while he handed down his verdicts like weather. Not the other one. The other one sat on the potting bench three feet away, still crusted with the dark loam Wellington had hauled it out of, behind the tea tent, the morning after the Show, with the pleased violence he reserved for buried things; a plain jar, its label soaked to pulp, a smear of honey gone to sugar in the bottom. She had not so much as wiped the grime from that one — it could wait; all her attention was for the jar that had done the killing, and the buried one could keep its secrets a day longer. Someone had put it in the ground where a spade would not go and a dog would.
Two jars. The one the village had thrown away, and the one it had kept for the next do. Everything turned on telling them apart, and Dilys, who had spent forty years telling one thing from another thing that badly wanted to be mistaken for it, bent to the loupe and told.
The lens brought the first thread up huge and particular.
It was, to begin with, the wrong colour. Saffron — true saffron, Crocus sativus, the spice that had cost Miriam Pardoe two years and a strip of allotment and more contempt than the village would ever admit to dealing — saffron was a deep arterial red, red to the root, and it darkened rather than paled where the light went through it. This was not that red. This was orange running to yellow at the base, a warm brassy colour, pretty enough, the colour of a marigold's heart; and where a stigma should have flared it did not flare. Dilys set down the loupe and picked up her own certainty and turned it over once, carefully, the way Hugh had taught her, looking for the fault in it. Then she reached past the microscope for the little relic she had brought out with the jar: a twist of greaseproof from the kitchen drawer, and inside it three threads of the real thing, snipped a fortnight ago from the sample Miriam had pressed on her at the plant stall with a defiance that had been half a plea. You'll know it's proper. You'll be the one who knows.
She had known. She had complimented the woman on the length of her stigmas, and Miriam had flushed like a girl.
Now she laid one of Miriam's threads beside one of Gordon's on the white saucer and put both under the lens together, and the difference stopped being a suspicion and became a fact you could have shown to a jury of the blind by touch alone.
Miriam's thread was a stigma. Three to a flower — Dilys did not need to count them here, she had counted them a hundred times in her life, three long stigmas branching from a single style, each one broadening at the tip into a flared, notched, trumpet-mouthed funnel, serrated at the very edge, the whole thing built like a tiny scarlet bugle. That flaring mouth was the signature. No other part of no other plant made it. Under the loupe it stood up unmistakable, a small red horn.
Gordon's thread had no mouth. It ran straight and slender its whole length and finished in a blunt swollen head, a little club, a little bag — and Dilys, looking at the bag, felt the greenhouse go quiet around her in the particular way a room goes quiet when the mind has arrived somewhere ahead of the body. She reached for the scalpel from Hugh's dissecting kit, the handle worn to the shape of his fingers, and slit the swollen head, and it opened along a seam and spilled its powder onto the china: pollen. Fine, dry, faintly waxen. The little club was an anther. She was not looking at a stigma at all. She was looking at a stamen — the male part, the pollen-carrier, the wrong part entirely — and where saffron gave you three female stigmas to a bloom, whatever this had been cut from gave you these, and gave you six.
Six stamens. Three stigmas. A whole flower's difference between them.
She sat back. Wellington, folded into the good chair she had dragged out here months ago because she could not bear the empty greenhouse and could not bear to leave it either, lifted his long grey head and looked at her and put it down again.
There was the colour, and there was the count, and there was the shape; and there was, last, the thing she had known before she ever reached the microscope and had refused to trust because feelings were not facts and Ambrose Cardew had been right to say so. She picked up the saucer and held it under her nose and breathed. Miriam's threads, even three of them, even a fortnight dry, gave it up at once — that warm strange scent that was saffron and nothing else, honey and cut hay and, underneath, the faint medicinal bite, almost iodine, almost metal, the smell that told you the spice was real and not the dyed safflower the markets fobbed you off with. It was the smell of the real thing announcing itself.
Gordon's threads smelled of honey, because they had sat in honey. Under the honey they smelled of nothing at all.
No scent. Six stamens, not three stigmas. Orange, not red. A pollen-sac where a trumpet should be.
"You are not saffron," Dilys said aloud, to the saucer, in the voice she had used on students once, and the paraffin heater ticked, and she went on, because now she had begun she found she could not stop, and there was only the dog to hear her and the dog would not tell. "You are not even a crocus. You've never been near a crocus."
For that was the whole of it, and it had a name, and she made herself say the name because saying it made it real and refusing to say it would not make it less true. A crocus — a proper crocus, saffron among them — carried three stamens and a three-branched style, and belonged to the iris tribe, and closed its business by autumn. What she had here had six stamens. Six stamens and a bloom that came up naked in September out of bare earth, leafless, pink-lilac, sudden, on the verges and under the apple trees and in half the tidy borders in Little Hemlock, the flower the children called naked ladies and the old people called meadow saffron and no gardener with any sense ever let a beast near — Colchicum autumnale. The autumn crocus that was not a crocus. A lily, near enough; a thing off another branch of the world entirely, wearing a crocus's shape the way a wasp wears a bee's stripes, and full to the root and the flower and the seed of colchicine.
Colchicine. She had it now, the word Ambrose would want, the fact she was to bring him. She thought of the old herbals on Hugh's shelf, the ones with the warnings printed in the same calm voice as the virtues: gout, they said, and then, further down and unhurried, that the plant killed slowly and from within, that it burned the mouth first, that the body seemed to rally before it failed, that there was no antidote worth the name. She thought of Gordon in the committee tent with his mouth going hot over the marrows, blaming the tea; of the long afternoon; of the false ease at the supper table; of the dark hours and the doctor and the certificate that said nature, and of the whole warm village breathing out over him like water closing.
Not the bug. Not his heart, though his heart had done the last of it, obligingly, the way it was always going to. Not the coronation chicken, though the coronation chicken had done its bit, gone warm in the sun and turning half a dozen stomachs to make the perfect noise for the one death that mattered to hide behind. A man had spooned a poison into his own tea, glad of it, all morning long, out of a jar that said saffron and was murder, and had gone on doing it because the poison had the courtesy to wait.
And then — because she had spent her life being the one who knew, and the mind that knows cannot leave a fact alone but must turn it until it shows its other face — the second thing came, and it was worse than the first.
Whoever had done this had not simply chosen a poison. They had chosen a disguise. They had gone out into a September border and cut the stamens of the autumn crocus, brassy and slender and dear-looking, and dried them, and folded them into honey, and set the honey where Gordon Purslowe would find it and prize it — and they had done it knowing, exactly and coldly, that if the thing were ever weighed and doubted, if any soul in Little Hemlock ever held the jar up to the light and said this killed him, the word that would come out of every mouth in the village would be the word painted on the label. Saffron. And there was one woman in the parish who grew saffron. One prickly, exact, unloved incomer up on the allotments with two rows of Crocus sativus and a chip on her shoulder the size of the Glebe Field, who had stood at her stall and pressed the real thing on Dilys with that terrible hopeful defiance, and who had rowed with Gordon in front of forty people not a month since.
Anyone but a botanist would look at these threads and see saffron. Anyone but a botanist would look for saffron and find Miriam. That was not an accident of the poison. That was the architecture of it. The killer had reached for the one plant in the hedgerow that would, when it did its work, point its long red finger at the one person in the village nobody would mind hanging.
It was, Dilys thought — and the coldness of it steadied her rather than the reverse, because cruelty on this scale was at least a shape you could take hold of — it was the neatest thing she had ever seen done, and it had been done by someone who knew their plants. Not a passing knowledge. Not a poisoner leafing through a book. Someone who could stand in a border in early autumn and tell a Colchicum stamen from a saffron stigma with their bare eye and their bare fingers, and know the difference mattered, and use the difference like a knife. There were not many such people in Little Hemlock. She was one of them. She sat with that, and did not like where the short list of the rest of them was pointing, and set it aside for want of proof, and it was at that exact moment that Wellington came up out of the chair like a hound remembering he was one, and barked once at the greenhouse door, and there was a knock, and a young voice through the glass.
"Mrs. Ashcroft? It's Owen — PC Fettiplace. Sorry. Your kitchen light was on and then it wasn't, and I saw the greenhouse—"
She let him in. He filled the little doorway, all elbows and earnestness, his cap under his arm and rain starting on his shoulders, and he had, held out before him in both hands like an offering he wasn't sure of, a plastic evidence bag with the dug-up jar in it. Not the right jar. The wrong one, the buried one, and she saw that he had come to give it back and to have a word.
"I ought to say," he began, going pink, "that there's been — someone rang the station. About you. Said — well. Said the plant lady's been interfering. Digging things up behind the tea tent. Taking jars off Mrs. Merridew." He turned the bag in his hands. "Sergeant said give it back and tell you to leave it be, there's a good — he said leave it be. And I would have, only." He stopped. He looked at the saucer under the lamp, and the loupe, and the twist of greaseproof, and the scalpel, and the microscope, and something in the arrangement of it reached the quiet clever part of him that his sergeant had spent a year sitting on. "Only that's not the jar. Is it. That's the wrong jar. You've got another one."
"Sit down, Owen," she said. "No — not on the dog. There." And she drew the lamp round so it fell on the saucer, and put the loupe into his big hand, and taught him, in three clean sentences, to see the difference between a trumpet and a bag; and made him smell the greaseproof, and then the saucer; and watched the colour go out of his young face as the fact went in, because he was, under the pinkness and the regulation caution, exactly clever enough to be frightened by it.
"Six," he said at last, having counted, twice. "There's six on the little ones. And three on the — on Miss Pardoe's." He set the loupe down very carefully, as though it had become breakable. "That means—" He stopped, and started again, and his voice cracked up and steadied. "We have to tell DS Tolley. Tonight. This is — Mrs. Ashcroft, this changes everything, he'll have to reopen, he'll have to—" He was already on his feet, already believing, already halfway to the good and terrible idea that the truth had only to be shown to a policeman to be acted on; the first person in fourteen months who had looked at what Dilys knew and not looked away from it, and she found she could have wept, and didn't, because there was no time and because Owen would take it for grief and it wasn't, or wasn't only.
She knew precisely how the word of a woman in a cardigan, a botanist, poor Dilys since Hugh, would be received ten miles off in Kingsbourne by a tired man who wanted an accident. She could have told Owen to the syllable how Ray Tolley would nod, and thank her for her interest, and reach — because it was there, because it was easy, because a village will always hand you the stranger before it gives up one of its own — for the incomer with the saffron. She could have spared herself. She let him go on believing they would be believed, because he had to learn it the hard way and better tonight with her than alone; and because she needed him now, this green earnest boy, needed the one door into the police that would open to her, and it was open only because Owen Fettiplace had leaned on the saucer and seen a bag where he'd been told there was a trumpet.
"We'll tell him," she said. "You'll tell him. It has to come from the uniform, not the cardigan." She lifted the jar — Gordon's jar, the real one — and set it in his hands beside the wrong one, so that he held them both, the murder and the misdirection, one in each palm. "But before you do, Owen, you have to understand what it is you're carrying, because the moment you say it, this stops being tidy for anybody."
He waited. Rain on the glass. The heater ticking. Wellington's tail going slow against the leg of the chair.
"It's not saffron, Owen," she said, and heard her own voice steady for the first time in fourteen months. "It's the wrong flower entirely — it's the autumn crocus, and it's murder. And whoever did it made very sure that when you went looking, you'd go looking at the one poor woman in this village who grows the real thing."
The Incomer's Crocus
DS Ray Tolley had driven ten miles to Little Hemlock hoping for an accident, and Dilys watched him find one, ready-made and wrapped in a bow, in the person of the only woman in the village nobody would mind being guilty.
He had set up in the village hall, at the trestle table where the WI usually costed the raffle, and he had the look of a man who had already decided what the answer was and only wanted the paperwork to agree with him. Fifties, greying, tidy in a way that suggested his wife pressed his shirts and he had opinions about how. A cup of the tea-tent tea cooling untouched at his elbow. On the table before him, in a clear plastic evidence bag that someone had labelled in biro, sat the little jar.
Dilys knew that jar — or knew what it was meant to be taken for. Everyone in the village would have read it the same way: an old imperial-pound preserving jar, the plain reused sort that stood on any pantry shelf, and on it a cream label that read Little Hemlock Saffron — A Village Revival — the very words off Miriam Pardoe's stall, the saffron the village had decided to be proud of when it wanted a speciality it could hold its head up with at the county show. Gordon had kept his own in the committee tent, of course; Gordon had everything of his own, and had spooned it into cup after cup all show day long. But the jar in the bag was that saffron, or meant to pass for it, and Ray Tolley was looking at it the way a man looks at a thing he intends to be finished with by teatime.
"Mrs Ashcroft." He did not stand. Owen, at the end of the table with his notebook, half-rose and then thought better of it under his sergeant's eye and subsided. "You're the lady who's been telling my constable there's something wrong with the honey."
"I'm the lady who's been telling your constable the truth," Dilys said, "which I understand is much the same nuisance."
Something at the corner of Tolley's mouth. Not a smile. "Sit down, if you like."
She sat. The hall smelt of urn-tea and floor polish and the ghost of a hundred jumble sales, and through the high windows the marquees still stood on the Glebe Field like the tents of a defeated army, their canvas going grey now the sun had moved off them. Somewhere out there a generator coughed and died. The centenary Show, dismantling itself around a death.
"Here's where I am," Tolley said, and folded his hands. "Gentleman of sixty-seven, dicky heart, on the tablets for it. Hot day, running himself ragged over his flower show. Same afternoon, half the village goes down with the collywobbles off a chicken dish that sat out too long in the sun — I've got eleven names of people who were sick as dogs by nine o'clock, and every one of them ate the coronation chicken. Doctor's satisfied. Signs it gastroenteritis and a heart that gave out under it. Sad, but the sort of sad that happens." He turned the bag a quarter-turn with one finger, so the label faced her. "And then this turns up. Somebody's home-brewed saffron honey, and a suggestion it made him poorly. Which changes things from a bug to a — mishap. With something home-grown. That somebody sold at a village fete without so much as a label to say what's in it."
"It has a label," Dilys said.
"It has a pretty label." He said pretty the way another man might say unlicensed. "You know who grows the saffron round here, Mrs Ashcroft. You know better than me. I've been in the village three hours and I know."
"Miriam Pardoe."
"Mrs Pardoe. Who came here from — Bristol, is it —"
"Cheltenham."
"— from away, some years back, and set herself up growing this. Very proud of it, I'm told. Very particular." He let that sit. "And who, I'm also told, had words with the deceased. In public. On the morning he was taken ill. Words about her saffron, and him threatening to keep her out of his show, and her not best pleased about it. Half a dozen people heard it. Your Mrs Kettleby was quite the historian on the subject."
Your Mrs Kettleby. As though Dilys owned Marion, or the village, or any of it. She kept her hands still in her lap.
"So." Tolley spread his fingers. "Woman grows the stuff. Woman quarrels with him. Woman's saffron ends up in the man's honey and the man ends up dead. I don't like coincidences, Mrs Ashcroft, and that's three of them lined up like ducks. My problem isn't finding a reason. My problem's going to be there being too many."
He was pleased with himself. Not cruelly — he was not, she thought, a cruel man, only a tired one, a man with a caseload in Kingsbourne and a super who wanted things closed. He had come out to the country expecting an old man's heart to have stopped, and he had been handed, in its place, an old man's heart and an incomer and a home-made poison, and it all pointed the same tidy way, and he could be back at his desk by Friday. It was the neatest thing in the room. And it was wrong.
"May I see the jar," Dilys said.
"You may look. Don't touch."
She leaned in. Behind her she was aware of Owen leaning in too, quietly, the scratch of his pencil stopped.
Through the plastic, against the dull gold of the honey, the threads. A generous scatter of them, more than any sane cook would use, drifting where they had been stirred. And even like this, even bagged and secondhand and going cloudy in the warmth of the hall, they told her what they had told her at Foxglove Cottage with the last of the daylight coming through the kitchen window: no.
"Those are not saffron," she said.
Tolley waited, patient as a man who has heard a great many people be certain.
"Saffron," Dilys said, "is the stigma of Crocus sativus. Three of them per flower, no more — three threads, and a woman like Miriam Pardoe rises before dawn in October to pinch out each one by hand before the sun's on the field, because the flower only lasts a morning and the whole autumn's crop from a bed that size would fit in a jam jar. They are red. Deep red, red as arterial blood, trumpet-shaped at the mouth. And they smell — hold true saffron to your nose and it is hay and honey and hot metal, unmistakable, it stains your fingers yellow and your kitchen for a week." She touched the table, not the bag. "Look at what's in there. Go on."
He looked. To his credit, he actually looked.
"Yellow," Dilys said. "Yellowish-orange, and blunt, and too many of them — six to a flower, not three, and they are the wrong part of the flower altogether. Those are stamens, Sergeant. The male part. The part that carries the pollen, not the female stigma that carries the flavour. A saffron-grower would no more sell you a jar of stamens than a dairyman would sell you a churn of froth. There is no flavour in them, no scent — hold that jar open and you'll get honey and nothing. What there is in them" — and here she made herself slow down, because this was the whole of it, this was the hinge the entire door swung on — "is colchicine. Because those threads are not from Crocus sativus at all. They are from Colchicum autumnale. The autumn crocus. What this village calls naked ladies, because it comes up leafless and pink out of bare earth in September, and it is in half the borders between here and the church, and every part of it is poison."
The hall was very quiet. The generator did not cough again.
"That's a lot of Latin," said Ray Tolley.
"It's a lot of dead man," said Dilys.
Owen's pencil had not moved. She did not look at him. She kept her eyes on Tolley and she watched him do the thing she had watched Hugh's patients do a thousand times across a surgery desk — take a hard piece of true information and turn it, gently, into a soft piece of the thing they had already decided to believe.
"So it wasn't saffron," Tolley said slowly. "It was some other crocus that looks like saffron. That got into a jar of honey she was selling as saffron." He nodded, warming to it. "That's worse, isn't it? If she's out there picking her flowers half-asleep at four in the morning and doesn't know one from the other —"
"She knows one from the other," Dilys said, "the way you know a warrant card from a bus ticket. It is her life. It is the whole reason she moved to a village that has never once let her forget she wasn't born in it. You are describing a woman who cannot tell the difference between the plant she has staked her name on and a common weed that would kill her customers. That woman does not exist. And even if she did —" She stopped. Made herself say it flat, so there was nowhere for it to go. "Even if she were the most careless woman in England, Colchicum does not grow on Miriam Pardoe's allotment. It grows in gardens. In borders. In among the shrub roses and along the churchyard wall. It grows where somebody planted it or somebody let it, and Miriam grows saffron and only saffron because saffron is fussy and hates company and she guards that bed like a broody hen. Whoever filled that jar had Colchicum to hand and knew exactly what it was. This is not an accident, Sergeant. It is not bad hygiene at a fete. Somebody dried those stamens, and steeped them, and put them in a jar made to look like the village's own saffron honey, and gave them to a man who was going to drink them all day. It's a killing. And it was dressed up, deliberately, as the incomer's."
She had not meant to say so much. She heard her own voice come out level and carrying and certain, filling the raftered hall, and some part of her — the part that had been folded away in the greenhouse for fourteen months with the light left on — flinched at it, the sheer unaccustomed loudness of being sure of something in front of a man who wasn't listening. Her heart was going like a much younger woman's. She kept her face still.
Tolley let a breath out through his nose. He picked up the cold tea, looked at it, put it down.
"Mrs Ashcroft," he said, and his voice had gone kind, which was worse than anything. "How long since you lost your husband?"
There it was.
"Fourteen months," she said.
"He was the doctor. Wasn't he. Everybody's been telling me — Dr Ashcroft, lovely man, knew everyone's chest." He nodded, slow and terrible and gentle. "And you were a — a scientist, I gather. Plants. That's not nothing, that. I can see you've kept it up." A glance at the jar, generous, indulgent. "It's a hard thing, rattling round a house on your own after forty years of a busy one. My mother, when my dad went, she took up all sorts. Needed to. Needed something to be for." He said it as though he were giving her a present. "You've got a good eye and you've had a rotten time and I'd not say a word against either. But I've a coroner to satisfy, not a botany class, and what I've got is a poisonous something in a home-grown jar, sold by a woman who fell out with the victim the same morning. I'd be failing in my job if I didn't look hard at that. Now" — he stood, at last, tucking the bag under his arm, and the interview was plainly over — "we'll be sending this to the lab, and we'll be having a proper chat with Mrs Pardoe, and we've asked her to let us take a look at her plot and her — beds, is it. All above board. And if it turns out to be exactly the sad muddle it looks like, then nobody hangs for it and the poor woman gets a caution about labelling and we all learn a lesson about what we eat at village dos." He nodded to her, almost warmly. "You go home, Mrs Ashcroft. Have a rest. Owen'll see you out."
The plant lady, with her theories. Poor Dilys, since Hugh. She had spent fourteen months being that woman to the whole village, and had thought, dully, that she did not mind. She found, standing up from the raffle table with her knees complaining, that she minded very much.
Owen walked her to the door. In the porch, out of the sergeant's sightline, among the pinned notices for the bell-ringers and the mobile library, he stopped and turned his young earnest face to her and said, low, "Those really aren't saffron, are they. The threads."
"No," said Dilys.
"And he's going to say they are. Near enough. Because it's tidy."
"He's going to say Miriam Pardoe grew a killing by accident, or half on purpose, and be on the ring road by Friday teatime with it filed." She looked at him. Twenty-five and forever spoken over, and quietly, quietly clever, the only one in that hall whose pencil had stopped for the right reason. "You believe me."
"I saw the flowers this morning," Owen said simply. "In the border by the lych-gate. Pink ones, no leaves. I thought they were pretty." His ears went faintly red. "I didn't know they'd kill you."
"Most things that will kill you are pretty," said Dilys. "That's rather the trouble with the world." She patted his sleeve, once, the way she had not patted anyone's sleeve since the funeral. "Keep your notebook. Write down what he does, not just what he decides. There's a difference, and it matters, and one day it'll matter very much." And she went out into the afternoon before she could think better of the tenderness of it.
She did not go home.
Miriam Pardoe's allotment was at the top of the site, above Clive Sowerby's monstrous marrows and the parish beehives, in a corner most people didn't bother to walk to. Dilys had walked to it. She had walked to it in October more than once, in the cold pearly dawn, to stand at a respectful distance and watch a woman she barely knew move down her rows on her knees with a little pair of scissors and a lined basket, harvesting sunrise a thread at a time, and had thought: there is someone else in this village who understands that a plant is a discipline and not a decoration. She had never said so. That was a thing she was going to have to think about, the not-saying.
The saffron bed was raised, sharp-drained, immaculate — grit-topped, weeded to the last groundsel, the corms just beginning to wake for the autumn after their summer dormancy, one precocious flower already up and open in the mild afternoon. Dilys crouched to it, her old knees on the board Miriam kept along the edge for exactly this, and looked into the throat of the flower.
Three stigmas. Red. Branching from a single style, drooping over the lip of the petals the way they were meant to, longer than the three creamy anthers that stood up dutifully around them. Everything in its place. Everything the right colour, the right count, the right shape. Crocus sativus, pure and true and utterly, boringly innocent. She bent closer and there it came, faint on the warm air off the grit — the hay-and-honey of it, the real thing. She could have wept.
There was not a naked lady anywhere on the plot. She quartered it with her eyes, slow and professional, the way she had quartered ten thousand quadrats in forty years of fieldwork — the bed, the path, the little compost bay, the water butt, the row of pots against the shed where Miriam brought on her spares. Saffron and saffron and saffron, and a rosemary gone woody, and a self-sown poppy someone had let stay. No Colchicum. Not a corm, not a leaf, not the ghost of one. A woman who guarded her one bed against everything would hardly plant its lethal double a spade's length off. The village might not know that. Ray Tolley did not want to know it. But it was written here in the ground, plain as an account book, for anyone who could read the only language that never lied.
Miriam was at her gate.
She must have come up while Dilys was on her knees. She stood with her arms folded hard across herself, a tall angular woman in a man's old jumper, and her chin was up in the way of someone who has been braced all afternoon for the next person come to accuse her and has decided to get her contempt in first. Behind the chin her eyes were frightened. Dilys knew that particular arrangement of a face. She had worn it herself, at a graveside, when the vicar had said and now our sister Hugh and got the name wrong and Dilys had lifted her chin exactly so and not corrected her, because to open her mouth would have been to come apart.
"Come to see the murderer's garden, have you," Miriam said. "Get a good look. They've been up here an hour. Took photographs. Took a sample." Her voice cracked on the word and she hated it, Dilys could see, hated the crack. "Fifteen years I've grown here. Fifteen years of being the woman from away. And now I'm the woman from away who poisoned Gordon Purslowe, and there's not a soul in this village will look me in the — why are you smiling."
Dilys had not known she was. She got up off the board, slow, one hand on the shed corner, and came to the gate, and stood among the bare pink flowers that had opened in the border along the path — because they were there too, of course, the naked ladies, blooming careless and lovely all up the lane, in every garden but this one — and she looked the frightened proud woman full in the face.
"You grow the real thing, and someone killed a man with the false," Dilys said, at Miriam Pardoe's gate, among the bare pink flowers that were the wrong flowers entirely, "and they knew this village well enough to know you'd be blamed. Which means, my dear, it was never a stranger. It was one of us."
A Feud and a Marrow
There are men who would murder for love and men who would murder for money, and then there is Clive Sowerby, who Dilys was fairly sure would murder for a marrow — which was exactly why he hadn't.
She went to the allotments the next morning with Wellington on the lead, which was itself a kind of investigation, because Wellington on the lead meant she intended to talk to people and not have him excavating the beds. The dew was still on everything. The autumn crocuses were open along the path to the water tank, bare pink cups on their leafless stems, that particular nakedness they had, blooming as if they'd forgotten to dress. Naked ladies, Gordon had called them, with a little wet-lipped relish. Half the plots had them. Nobody planted them; they simply arrived, the way certain thoughts arrive, and stayed.
She made herself do it in order. That was the discipline of it, and she was glad to have a discipline again. You did not decide what a plant was by looking at the leaf you liked; you worked the key, couplet by couplet, this or that, until the plant told you its name whether you wanted to hear it or not. Flowers regular or irregular. Stamens five or ten. Yes or no, and no wishful thinking. She would work the village the same way. Start with the loudest. Rule him in, or rule him out, on the facts and not on the noise.
The loudest was digging.
Clive Sowerby was a big soft-bellied man gone to seed in the way of men who had once been strong and could not forgive their bodies for stopping. He had his shirt off under a waistcoat that had given up hope of meeting in the middle, and he was turning over the bed where his marrows had been, stabbing the fork in with more feeling than the job required. His plot was a monument to size. Everything on it was too big — the leeks like drainpipes, the onions swollen to the point of indecency, and in the corner, under a wigwam of netting like a shrine, the empty throne where the great marrow had sat.
Hugh had held the marrow record for nine years. Clive had spent nine years trying to break it, and had, this year, at last, with a green monstrosity the length of a spaniel — and then Gordon Purslowe, God rest him, had disqualified it on a technicality about the class rules, and awarded the rosette to a marrow half its size grown by a man Clive despised, and there had been, by all accounts, a scene.
"Morning, Clive."
He straightened, saw who it was, and his face did a complicated thing — grief and guilt and pugnacity all trying to get out of the same small door. "Dilys." He looked at Wellington. "Keep that off my brassicas."
"He's on the lead."
"Aye, so was the last one, till it wasn't." But he came to the edge of the plot, leaning on the fork, and there was something in the way he did it — the small eagerness under the gruffness — that told her he'd had no one to talk to since Saturday, or possibly since long before Saturday. "Terrible business," he said, which was what everyone said. "Terrible business, Gordon."
"It is."
"Mind, I'll not pretend." He wiped his mouth with the back of a filthy hand. "I'll not stand here and tell you I liked the man, because you'd know I was lying and I'd know it, and that's two of us wasting a morning. He was a bully and a cheat and he wronged that marrow, Dilys. He wronged it." His voice actually thickened. "Longest fruit in three counties and he binned it over a rule he made up on the day. You saw."
"I saw."
"I said things." He said it heavily, the way you'd confess to a doctor. "I'll not deny I said things. Whole beer tent heard me say things."
She had heard about the things. I could throttle that man had been the mildest of them, delivered at volume over three pints while Gordon made his stately way from marquee to marquee awarding rosettes like a small king knighting the deserving. Clive had followed him at a distance for a while, purple and loud, until Sadie's boy had steered him back to the beer tent. Everyone had heard. Everyone remembered. It was, on the face of it, exactly the kind of thing.
And that was the trouble with Clive, and the reason she'd started with him. He was the obvious answer. He had the temper for it, and the grudge, and the mouth. He was the sort of man about whom, if you found him standing over a body, you would say well, of course. A man who could shout I could throttle that man across a village green was a man the whole village had already half-convicted, which meant nobody had bothered to actually check.
So she checked.
"Clive," she said, gently, "where were you Saturday morning? Judging time. Ten till noon, say."
He blinked. "In the beer tent."
"The whole while?"
"Where else would I be, with my marrow murdered and the sun over the yardarm somewhere?" A flash of the old bluster. "Ask Sadie. Ask Ted Harbottle, ask anyone. I sat in that beer tent from the minute it opened and I told anyone who'd stand still about what that man did to my marrow, and a good few who wouldn't. I were —" he hunted for the dignified word and gave up on it — "I were three sheets by eleven, Dilys, I'll be honest with you. Legless by dinner. They had to walk me to the supper." He said it not quite with shame; more like a man reporting weather. "It's the only thing helps. When it's bad."
She let that sit a moment, because it was true and it mattered, and not only for the alibi.
"The committee tent," she said. "Did you go near it? At all?"
"That tent?" His lip curled. "Gordon's tent, with his rosettes and his special mugs and his precious honey and his — no. No, I never. Wouldn't have been let, would I. Pru's on the flap of that tent like a broody hen. You don't get past Pru into the committee tent unless she's poured you the tea herself." He snorted. "I'd sooner drink from the horse trough than take owt from Gordon Purslowe's table. And I told him so."
Pru's on the flap of that tent like a broody hen. Dilys filed it, the way you pocket a seed you can't identify yet, and moved on.
"Your marrow," she said. "The one that was disqualified."
"What about it."
"What did you do with it?"
He looked at her as if she were slow. "Chucked it on the heap. What d'you think? Eleven year of trying and he wronged it, so I wheeled it out and I chucked it on the heap and I've not the heart to grow another." His jaw worked. "Compost. All that, compost."
Not fed to anyone. Not entered anywhere. Not turned into a weapon. If Clive Sowerby had wanted Gordon Purslowe dead — and he plainly had, in the hot useless way a man wants weather to change — he would have done it to the man, in daylight, with his hands, or he would have done it to the marrow, because the marrow was where the wound was. He would have poisoned Gordon's own prize vegetable out of pure poetic spite and stood back to watch. He was a bludgeon. He was all bludgeon. There was not a scalpel anywhere in him.
Because the thing that had killed Gordon had not been a bludgeon. Somebody had dried a flower, and infused it, and matched a jar, and swapped it, and known — known, with a cold botanical patience — that the poison would take hours and the blame would land on a woman who grew the real thing. That was a mind that thought three couplets ahead. That was work done in a shed, quietly, over weeks, by someone who could tell one orange thread from another and knew exactly which one killed. Clive could not have told saffron from a strand of Sadie's wool, and would have been insulted to be asked. Whoever fixed that jar had wanted it to look like Miriam's saffron. Clive wouldn't have known Miriam had saffron. Clive barely knew Miriam had a name.
Wrong method. Wrong man.
She felt the relief of it settle, and under the relief something else, watching Clive stab the fork back into the empty bed where his marrow had reigned. He wasn't turning that soil for any crop. It was October soon; nothing was going in. He was turning it because the alternative was to stand still, and standing still, for Clive Sowerby, was unbearable, because there was no one at home now to stand still with.
Nesta Sowerby had died — when? Three years back. Four. The village had brought casseroles for a fortnight and then the village had got on with its own dinners, the way it did, the way it had with Dilys, and Clive had been left in a house that had gone quiet, with a marrow record to break and an enemy to hate and a beer tent to shout in, and those, she understood suddenly, standing among his indecent onions, were not three hobbies. They were his whole conversation. Every one of them was a way of not being alone in the evening. The feud with the leek man, the feud with the marrow, the feud with Gordon — he had built himself a little war so that something would talk back to him. She knew the shape of that. She had a greenhouse with the light left on and a dog who ate the sausages, and she was not, she thought, in any position to look down.
"Clive," she said. "The leeks."
His head came up too fast.
She had not been sure until his head came up too fast.
"Roy Pinnick's leeks," she said, mild as milk. "That went soft in the necks the day before judging. He's saying blight. It's not blight, Clive. I looked. There's a puncture in each, low down, neat as you like, and the rot comes up from there. Somebody's been at them with a spike."
The colour went out of him and then came back all at once. He put the fork down. He was, she saw, a man deciding whether to bluster, and then not having the strength for it, which was its own kind of admission.
"He nobbled my marrow first," he said, very low, not meeting her eye. "Two year running. Slug pellets down the crown when he thought no one — I never proved it. So this year I —" He stopped. His hands hung. "It's a wicked thing," he said, "to put a knitting needle in a man's leeks. I know it. My Nesta'd not have — she'd have been ashamed of me." He looked, briefly, appalling and about nine years old. "Don't tell Roy."
"I'm not the least bit interested in Roy's leeks," said Dilys, which was true, "and neither is anyone else, now." She let it land. A dead man made everything else small. "It stays with me."
He nodded, not trusting himself.
And because she had let him keep it — because she had taken his one squalid secret and put it in her pocket instead of holding it up to the light — he gave her something back. That was how it went in villages. It was a kind of trade older than money.
"That morning," he said gruffly, picking the fork up again for something to hold. "You asked who were near Gordon's tent. I were three sheets, mind, so I'll not swear to the clock. But I'll tell you what I saw when they walked me out for a — when I went behind the tent for a minute." He had the grace to leave the reason vague. "Back of the committee tent, past ten. Freddie Quennell, thick as thieves with that London chap, the one with the shiny shoes been measuring the field. Heads together, by the guy-ropes. Shut up sharp when they saw me, which is how you know." He sniffed. "And Pru in and out, in and out, but that's Pru, she's always in and out, she runs the whole show off her own back, does Pru. And little Katie — Sadie's Katie — trotting cups back and forth. And Enid come round the once, looking for Gordon, and went off again when she couldn't find him, and didn't seem in any hurry to, if you take my meaning." A grim little satisfaction. "That's the lot. That's what a drunk man saw. Make of it what you like."
Freddie and the London chap, heads together. She would take that to Hemlock Manor. Enid looking for Gordon and in no hurry to find him — that too, though something in her already doubted it would come to anything. And Pru, in and out, in and out. That's Pru. It slid past her, the way the true name of a plant slides past you the first three times you read it, before the day it finally catches.
"Thank you, Clive," she said. "Truly."
"Aye, well." He was already turning back to his soil. Then, over his shoulder, not looking at her: "You'll want to grow another marrow, come spring. Hugh's variety. Be a shame to let it go." A pause. "I could set you some seed by. If you wanted."
It was, from Clive Sowerby, practically a proposal of marriage.
"I'll think about it," she said, and found she was not lying, and that surprised her more than anything the whole morning.
The Green Man at half past twelve smelt of hops and beeswax and the ghost of a hundred years of woodsmoke, and Sadie Bunce was behind the bar with her sleeves pushed up, doing the thing she did, which was to look as though she was merely polishing glasses while in fact conducting the entire intelligence operation of the Hemble valley.
"Dilys Ashcroft," she said, without looking up. "You've been out at the allotments upsetting Clive Sowerby."
"I've been at the allotments," said Dilys, "and I don't think it's possible to upset a man who's already turning soil for no reason." She settled Wellington under the table with a firmness he pretended to resent, and took the stool at the corner of the bar, which was the confessional. "Half a shandy, Sadie. And whatever it is you're dying to tell me."
Sadie set down the shandy and leaned on the bar, and the polishing cloth went still, which was how you knew you were getting the good stuff.
"Well," she said. "You'll have heard Enid Purslowe's not crying." A significant tilt of the head. "Sixty-one years old and she's had her hair done. Tuesday. Colour and all. I'm not saying a word." She said several more words. "And Freddie Quennell's had that land man back twice since Saturday, bold as brass, and burning things in the Manor garden of an evening — Mrs Tranter saw the smoke. And the vicar's worn out, poor lamb, everyone wanting to talk about it and her having to look like she's not enjoying the excitement, which she is, we all are, God forgive us, it's the most that's happened here since the flood." She refilled a regular's glass without breaking stride. "And they're saying it's the saffron woman. The incomer. Pardoe. On account of her funny threads and the row she had with Gordon over her entry. Ray Tolley's man was up her lane this morning."
"They're wrong," said Dilys.
Sadie's eyes came up, quick and bright as a robin's. "Are they now."
"They're wrong." She left it there. She was not ready to say the flower's name aloud in a public bar, and Sadie, to her credit, did not push; she only tucked the certainty away behind her eyes, another item for the ledger, and moved the conversation on with the smoothness of long practice.
"Well. It's an ill wind." She resumed polishing. "I'll say this — that morning was a to-do and no mistake. I had our Katie up at the crack helping in the committee tent, washing the cups, on account of Pru asked special and you can't say no to Pru. Ran her off her feet, they did." A grandmother's pride, warm and unguarded. "Never stopped. In and out of that tent all morning with the tea things, saw everyone come and go, bless her." She held a glass up to the light, squinting at a smear only she could see. "Saw all sorts, our Katie. Doesn't miss a trick, that one. Fifteen going on fifty."
Dilys turned her shandy a quarter-turn on the bar and said nothing, and something in the quiet room shifted a half-degree, the way the light shifts when a cloud you haven't noticed slides off the sun.
"Our Katie washed cups in that committee tent all morning," said Sadie, wiping the bar, "saw everyone come and go, bless her, and never thought twice." Dilys tucked it away with the rest, not yet knowing she had just been handed both the person who could break the case — and the person the killer would come for next.
The Squire's Secret
Hemlock Manor was beautiful the way a drowning thing is beautiful, all silvered stone and rising damp, and Freddie Quennell stood in front of his burning secrets looking exactly like a man who has done something shameful and is praying it is the only shameful thing anyone will find.
The drive up had gone soft years ago, gravel thinning to moss and moss to weed, so that Dilys read the whole decline the way she read everything, plant by plant. Rosebay willowherb in drifts where the borders had been. Herb-Robert seamed into the mortar joints of the gate piers, prising them apart with the patience of a thing that would outlast the family. A buddleia big as a garden shed had colonised the corner of the stable yard, and its purple spires were furred over with the last late tortoiseshells of the year, drunk and unhurried in the September warmth.
Owen walked beside her with his hands clasped behind his back, which was what he did when he was trying to look a decade older than twenty-five and only ever managed to look like a choirboy who had swallowed a summons.
"You're certain we're allowed," he said, for the third time. "Only, DS Tolley said—"
"DS Tolley said it was a bug and an old heart and would we all kindly stop being morbid." Dilys did not slow down. "We are not here as the constabulary, Owen. We are two neighbours come to ask after the drains for the harvest festival. Freddie will be so relieved it isn't what he's afraid of that he'll tell us the moon is made of green cheese if we only look sympathetic."
Wellington, who had been quartering the verge for the ghosts of rabbits, lifted his long grey head and pointed himself at the smell before either of them registered it: woodsmoke gone sour, the flat wet reek of paper burning damp.
They came round the end of the stable block and there he was.
The old incinerator stood in the angle of two walls, a squat Victorian thing of firebrick and cast iron with a cracked lid propped open on a stick, and Freddie was feeding it. Not tending a bonfire, not clearing the season's prunings — feeding it, in the furtive stooping way of a man posting a thing he does not want witnessed, a fat manila folder disgorged sheet by sheet into the flames. He had his good tweeds on, or what had been good tweeds a decade of dinners ago, and he had the pink, boiled, sleepless face of the perpetually worried rich, which is a particular and pitiable colour, because it is worry with none of the excuse of real want.
"Freddie," said Dilys, pleasantly.
He came up out of his crouch as though she'd fired a gun by his ear. The folder jerked in his hands; three or four sheets skated loose and lifted on the heat, and one of them wheeled up over the wall and away, white against the grey sky, gone. He watched it go with an expression of pure animal loss.
"Dilys. Mrs Ashcroft. And — good Lord, is that young Fettiplace?" His eyes went to the uniform and stuck there, and the boiled pink deepened to a colour that would have interested any physician. "I didn't — that is, this isn't — I'm having a clear-out. Papers. Estate papers. Terribly dull, no earthly interest to anyone, you know how it — how it accumulates."
"It does," Dilys agreed. "Hugh kept forty years of seed catalogues. I'm still finding them behind things."
The mention of Hugh, of a dead husband, of ordinary grief and clutter, worked on him the way she had known it would; his shoulders came down an inch. He was a weak man, Freddie, and weak men are grateful past all sense to anyone who lets them off. She had learned that at sixty-four the way you learn the habits of a plant you've grown a long time — not from a book, but from watching the same behaviour repeat itself through every season until you can predict it.
"Filthy job," he said, waving a hand at the incinerator, and the false heartiness came up over him like a blush. "This damp gets into everything. Won't catch properly."
Owen, bless him, had drifted a half-step nearer the incinerator and was looking at it with the frank curiosity of a boy, and Freddie's whole body turned to keep the constable in view, a compass needle that could not stop finding north.
Dilys let the silence do a little work.
"We came about the field, in a manner of speaking," she said, and watched him flinch — but at the wrong word, she noted. Not Gordon. Field. "The Glebe. Clemency wondered whether the marquees might stay pitched through the harvest festival, or whether that's a nuisance to you, with the — arrangements."
"Arrangements." Freddie laughed, a dreadful little sound with no floor under it. "There are no arrangements. I don't know what you've — what people have been — there's nothing to arrange."
Behind him, Wellington had put his grey nose to the base of the incinerator and was sorting the fallen scraps of ash with professional thoroughness, and finding, plainly, nothing of interest: no meat-smell, no sweetness, no reason to sit down and wait. He sneezed, disgusted, and wandered off to lift his leg against the buddleia. Dilys marked it and set it aside. Whatever was burning here, it was only paper. The dog would have told her otherwise.
"Freddie," she said gently, "you have a man from Thornfield Homes measuring your field with a laser, you have burnt half a ream of something you couldn't bear the wind to take, and you have gone the colour of a boiled ham every time anyone has said a certain gentleman's name since Saturday. I am sixty-four and I have buried a husband and I have no patience left for pretending I can't see what I can see. What did Gordon Purslowe have on you?"
It was cruel and she knew it was cruel, and she did it anyway, because the case narrowed or it did not, and because there is a use for cruelty in the hands of someone who takes no pleasure in it. Owen went very still.
For a moment she thought Freddie would bolt — into the house, into the bluster, into some fresh sweating lie. Instead his face crumpled the way a paper bag crumples, all at once and from the middle, and he sat down hard on the mounting-block by the wall as though his strings had been cut.
"Everything," he said. "He had everything, that's the joke of it. He had the mortgage — did you know Purslowe still held paper on half the properties round here? Old bank business, private now, called in favours, bought debts up cheap when he retired like a — like a magpie with a taste for other people's ruin. He had my father's loans, God rest the pair of them, and he had the survey, and he had the letters, and he had —" He stopped. His hands were shaking. "He had me, Dilys. By the throat. Very politely. He was always so polite about it."
"The Glebe Field," Dilys said.
"The Glebe Field." Freddie's eyes went past her, out over the wall, out to the green shelf of land below the Manor where at this very moment the Show's last marquee still stood, canvas gone dark with dew, waiting to be struck. "Thornfield want it. Executive homes, they call them. Fourteen units and a — a feature pond." He laughed again, worse than before. "My grandfather planted the limes along that hedge. I can't heat the west wing. I owe more than the whole place is worth on paper, and Purslowe knew it to the penny, because Purslowe made it his business to know everyone's ruin to the penny, and he came to me eighteen months ago and he — offered to help."
"Prosser," said Owen quietly. It was the first he'd spoken, and Dilys was proud of him; he'd waited, and he'd put the name down like a card on a table, softly, face-up.
Freddie nodded, wretched. "Damian Prosser. Thornfield's land man. Gordon brought him. Gordon found them, matched them to me like a — like a marriage broker, and took his cut for the introducing. That's what he did, that's what he was, underneath all the rosettes and the head-judging and the little tin-god business at the Show. He was a fixer. He knew who wanted to sell and who could be made to, and he stood in the middle taking a slice off every side and calling it neighbourliness." The words were coming freely now, the plug drawn; this, Dilys understood, was a confession he had been dying to make to someone for a year and a half, only never to anyone who could arrest him. "The option's signed. God help me. It's signed. That's what — that's this." He gestured at the incinerator, at the dying orange in its throat, and his voice broke on the shame of it. "The copies. The correspondence. I thought if it was gone, if I burnt my side, then when it all came out I could say I'd never — that it was all his doing, all Gordon's, and he's dead and can't —"
He put his face in his hands.
Dilys let him have his moment. She had come up here for a murderer and she had found instead a coward burning the evidence of his own greed, and there is a species of relief in that, and a species of grief too, because a village she loved was being quietly sold out from under it by frightened, ordinary men, and no one would hang for that, and it was in its slow way the larger crime.
But it was not her crime. Not this week.
She turned the thing over while Freddie wept into his hands, turned it the way she'd turn a leaf to read the underside, and the answer was written plain there as veins.
"Freddie," she said at last. "Look at me. When did you last see Gordon alive?"
He lifted his ruined face. "Saturday. The judging. He — he cornered me by the produce tent, mid-morning, made me shake his hand where people could see it, all bonhomie, and under it he said the contracts would go through by Michaelmas and I'd best keep smiling. Then he went off to poison some poor woman's chances in the flower classes." He caught the word too late, poison, and paled. "Figure of speech."
"And where were you Saturday morning? Early. Before the judging."
"Kingsbourne," he said, blank with the ordinariness of it. "With Prosser and the Thornfield solicitor, a Mr Aldous, at their offices on Sheep Street, from half past eight. Signing. It took an age. I didn't get back to the field till gone eleven, everyone saw me come, I made rather a performance of arriving late because I couldn't bear to be there sober." He blinked. "Why on earth does that —"
He stopped. She watched the understanding arrive in him, slow and horrible, that he had been asked for an alibi, that he had been, however gently, a suspect in a death, and that he had just, by the grubby luck of having spent that morning committing a different sin in another town in front of witnesses, been let off it.
"You thought I—" He couldn't finish. "You thought I killed him?"
"I thought a great many things," said Dilys. "I no longer think that one." She said it kindly, because it was true, and because the truth of it was already settling into her like sediment. "Sit and think, Freddie. Think it through with me, because you've been too frightened to. Gordon dead — does that help you or hurt you?"
He stared.
"It hurts you," she answered for him, when it was clear he could not. "Gordon was the middle of it. Gordon held the strings — your father's debt, the survey, Thornfield, all of it ran through his hands, and only his hands. With Gordon alive the deal goes through by Michaelmas and you get your money and your ruin is postponed a few more years. With Gordon dead —" She spread her own hands, earth-stained at the knuckles, incapable of pretence. "With Gordon dead you don't even know who holds your paper now. Do you? The estate's frozen. The introductions die with him. Prosser has to start again with a corpse's solicitors and a widow who's just discovered she's rich. You needed him, Freddie. You needed him alive more than any man in this valley. Killing Gordon was the one thing on God's earth that could not possibly be in your interest, and you're too much of a coward besides — forgive me — to do anything but burn paper and cry."
It was not gallant. But it was clearing him, and he took it like the reprieve it was, and something like colour, real colour, came back into the boiled-ham face.
"No," he whispered. "No, you're quite right. I needed the wretched man. I've been up three nights running terrified they'll think — and it's the opposite. It's the exact opposite." A wet, hiccuping laugh. "I'm ruined by his living and undone by his dying. There's no version where I win."
"There rarely is," said Dilys, "for men who sell their grandfathers' limes." But she said it without heat, and she laid a hand a moment on his slumped shoulder, because he was a fool and a coward and not a murderer, and the distinction mattered, and mercy is a moral act too.
She left him to his fire.
The bricked-up door was in the north wall, and she went to it the way you go to a grave you have not visited in too long.
They had walled the garden up sometime after the last war, she knew — some Quennell of the pinched generation deciding the labour of it could no longer be borne, and rather than let it go to ruin honestly they had bricked the door, as if a garden could be made decent by being shut away where it could not be seen to die. The bricks were a wrong red against the mellow Cotswold stone, and time had softened even that mistake; ivy-leaved toadflax ran in the joints of it, and a hart's-tongue fern had rooted where the water came off the coping, green and glossy and utterly indifferent to the human failure that had made a home for it.
Over the wall she could see the top third of the glasshouse. Or its skeleton — the ridge and the broken rafters, the iron cresting, three panes left of the hundreds there had been, catching the grey light. Vines gone feral would be in there, she thought. A fig, most likely, still fruiting for no one, dropping its harvest year on year onto the buckled staging. Peaches fanned against a hot wall that no one had fired in living memory. Forty years of a plantsman's love, and then a locked door and a lie of tidiness.
Something in her chest moved and she let it, standing there, because it was only Hugh, of course. It was always only Hugh. His greenhouse with the light left burning. The tomatoes she had not had the heart to pull and could not bear to water. A door in herself she had bricked up because grief was easier managed if you could not see the whole of what was behind it, dying by inches for want of one hand and a little warmth.
Not a garden in the world was past bringing back, Hugh used to say, if you could get to it while one root still lived.
"Mrs Ashcroft?" Owen, at her elbow, uncertain. "Are you—"
"Perfectly." She turned from the wall. "Come. It's getting on."
They walked down the failing drive as the light went amber and then blue, Wellington ranging ahead and doubling back, and Dilys thought aloud because Owen had earned it and because a thing spoken is a thing tested.
"Prosser next, on your list — and you can cross him off before you write him down. He's an incomer of incomers, Owen; he doesn't drink in the Green Man, he doesn't sit on the committee, he wasn't within a hundred yards of that tea tent all day, and by every account he spent Saturday morning in a solicitor's office in Kingsbourne signing the very papers Freddie's just burnt. And he wanted the same thing Freddie wanted." She stepped over a fallen bough. "The deal. Which meant he wanted Gordon breathing. You don't murder the one man greasing the wheels of the fortune you're chasing. The land people didn't kill Gordon. If anything they'll be sitting in a Kingsbourne office this very minute cursing whoever did, because a corpse is very bad for conveyancing."
Owen had his notebook out, walking and writing, a trick that would put him in a ditch one day. "So that's Mr Quennell and Mr Prosser both — needed him alive."
"Both needed him alive." Autumn crocuses had opened along the drive-foot where a border had once been, leafless and sudden and pink, the naked ladies coming up bare out of the bare earth as they did every September, beauty arriving with no green warning and at quite the wrong time. She looked at them a half-beat longer than she meant to, some old habit of the eye counting, comparing, filing, and then walked on. "That's the shape of it, do you see. That's the shape I keep running into. Everyone in this village wanted something from Gordon. Money he could lend or forgive. Land he could broker. Silence he could keep or break. He was a spider, and half of Little Hemlock was stuck to some strand of him, and every last one of them needed the spider alive to get their fly loose."
"But someone killed him anyway."
"Someone killed him anyway." She stopped at the gate onto the lane and turned to look back up at the Manor, at the one lit window and the thread of smoke still going up from the incinerator, thin now, guttering out. Bloom out of season. A death at a celebration.
"He needed Gordon alive," Dilys said to Owen, walking home past the bricked-up door of the great dead garden. "They all needed him for something — money, land, silence. Which means the one who killed him didn't want anything Gordon could give. They wanted him gone. And that, Owen, is a very much smaller and colder sort of list."
The Widow's Freedom
Enid Purslowe had the look of a woman standing in a doorway she had not known was unlocked, and Dilys, who knew grief in all its climates, saw at once that whatever this weather was, it was not the weather of a killer.
"Dilys," Enid said, and then, catching herself, folded her face into something more suitable to the occasion. "How kind. Do — do come in."
The inquest had opened that morning in the little coroner's court at Kingsbourne and closed again inside a quarter of an hour: identification given, the body released, the word natural laid over the whole business like a clean cloth spread over a stain nobody wished to see. Dilys had sat on the hard bench at the back and watched Enid in the front row — navy coat, gloved hands folded in her lap, a black hat Gordon had surely chosen a decade ago and she had never dared retire — and had watched the widow's face try to be still and fail, the corners of the mouth tugging upward as at a joke told in the next room. Not grief. She had buried Hugh fourteen months since. She knew what grief did to a face, and it did not do that.
So here she was in the afternoon with a Victoria sponge she had baked and did not especially want to give away, because a sponge was a passport in Little Hemlock, and she meant to see the inside of this marriage now the lid was off it.
The hall smelled wrong. That was the first thing. For thirty years the Purslowe house had smelled of Gordon's pipe and Gordon's particular boot-polish and, under both, the cold waiting smell of rooms kept nice for a man who noticed. Now it smelled of a scented candle — cheap, sweet, three-for-two from the chemist's — burning brazenly on the hall table beside a jug of dahlias crammed in anyhow: blowsy, magenta, not one of them dead-headed or wired or persuaded to behave.
"I've let things go a bit," Enid said, apologising out of thirty years' reflex for a disorder that was only life coming back into the room. She led the way to the parlour, and there it all was, the small mutiny of a freed woman. The wireless murmuring dance music Gordon would have called that racket. His chair — Dilys knew Gordon's chair, everyone knew Gordon's chair, the wide leather throne angled to the fire and the television both — shoved back against the wall and half buried under a heap of soft wool, knitting on the needles, a paperback laid face-down with a lady in a crinoline swooning across the cover. On the little table, a plate with the crumbs of buttered crumpets on it, at four in the afternoon, and beside the plate a schooner of the good sherry, the Christmas sherry, out on an ordinary Tuesday and half drunk.
"You've had your hair done," Dilys said.
Enid's hand went to it. Set, and softened, and a shade lighter than the iron-grey she had worn as long as Dilys could remember. "Tuesdays," she said, as though confessing to something. "I've booked myself in Tuesdays. Gordon liked me to go Fridays, for the weekend, so I'd — so I'd look right at church." She sat, and stood again, and went to fill the kettle, because a woman must be doing something with her hands or the hands will say what the mouth won't. "I don't know why I'm telling you that. It's a silly thing."
It was not a silly thing. It was the whole thing, in miniature. Dilys had come braced against the oldest story in the book — the cowed wife, the forty years of grievance, the will read out warm, the wife did it — and instead she was being handed, teaspoon by teaspoon, the confession of a prisoner blinking in a yard, half in love with the light and half ashamed to be enjoying it while the guard lay unburied.
"Let me," Dilys said, and took the tea things from her, because Enid had made ten thousand cups of tea for Gordon's committee and Gordon's cronies and Gordon, and might, just this once, be allowed to sit while another woman warmed the pot.
They talked, at first, the way the village required. Poor Gordon. So sudden. A mercy he didn't suffer — and here Dilys held her tongue, because Gordon had suffered, and she was one of perhaps two people in Little Hemlock who understood in what particular and unnatural way. She watched Enid receive the condolences she had come armed with and set them aside, gently, like a woman shown a photograph of a place she has left and does not intend to visit again.
"Everyone's been so kind," Enid said. "Marion. The vicar. Pru Merridew sat up with us that dreadful night, wouldn't hear of going home — I don't know what I'd have done without Pru, honestly, she was here with beef tea and cold flannels and never a word of complaint." She turned the sherry schooner by its stem. "People are kind, when it's the worst. It's the ordinary days they don't see you."
Dilys filed Pru the way one files a bird-call in an unremarkable hedge — heard, not weighed — and steered.
"Enid," she said. "You mustn't mind me. You never do have to answer an old woman poking her nose. But I've known you a long time, and I've sat where you're sitting, and I'd rather you heard it from a friend than felt it from the village." She set down her cup. "They'll wonder. About you. The wife, the money, forty years of Gordon. Somebody will wonder aloud in the Green Man before the week's out, if they haven't. I'd like to be able to say they're fools without lying."
For a moment she thought she had gone too far and too fast. Enid went very still, the way a hare goes still. And then something extraordinary happened. She laughed — a small, appalled, helpless laugh, one hand pressed to her mouth as if to catch it and put it back.
"Oh, they can wonder," she said, and the laugh went out of her and left something steadier behind, something almost fierce. "I'll tell you the truth, Dilys, since you're the only soul who's asked me a true question in a week and not just patted my hand. I didn't wish him dead. I wanted to be shot of him, which is a different thing, and I'd stopped even hating him years ago, which is worse than hating, if you want to know." She drew a breath. "I was going to leave him. In the spring."
She said it, and then looked as astonished to have said it as Dilys was to hear it.
"There's a — a friend," Enid went on, the colour up in her cheeks now, the words coming faster the way water comes once the wall is breached. "Nothing you could put in a letter. A gentleman I met on the WI coach, the trip to Bodnant, the gardens — his late wife was a great one for gardens, and he still goes, on his own, and we got talking on the way back about — oh, about nothing, about hydrangeas, about the tea being cold in the flask — and he wrote to me after. That's all. Letters. And a cup of tea in Kingsbourne, market days, in the Copper Kettle where nobody knows me." She lifted her chin. "I've been putting egg money by. Cake money. My own bit, for years, in the Post Office where Gordon never looked because it was too small to be worth his looking. There's a little flat over the wool shop in Kingsbourne, with a window box, and I'd made up my mind. In the spring, when the — when the year turned. I'd have gone in the spring."
A window box. Dilys turned her cup a half-circle on its saucer and did not let her face move, because the whole shape of the woman was in those two words. Not a fortune, not a villa, not freedom in any grand sense. A window box. Somewhere to grow three geraniums that were hers.
"And the morning of the Show," Dilys said, gently, "you were where?"
"The cake stall." No hesitation, no offence; a woman with a clean conscience answers the question before she understands it is a trap. "Half past seven I was on that field, Dilys, unloading Marion Kettleby's Victoria sponges out of the boot of her Rover, and Marion timing me, you may be sure, in case I breathed on the icing. I was on that stall from the setting-up to the judging. I never once went near the committee tent." A flicker of the old life crossed her. "I never went near Gordon's tent if I could help it. That was his kingdom. I fetched and carried in the tea tent thirty years and I stopped last summer, and he never even noticed I'd stopped, because it was Pru poured his tea by then, and the girls." She said it without bitterness now, only wonder. "He never noticed."
There it was, then. The whole of it. A woman with a window box and a Post Office book and a gentleman who liked hydrangeas, timed to the minute by Marion Kettleby on a cake stall at the far end of the field while, three hundred yards off in a tent she avoided on principle, someone spooned death into her husband's tea. Not guilt. Relief — the guilty, giddy, sideways relief of the reprieved, which any fool might mistake for a killer's nerves and which Dilys, who had studied the difference on her own face in her own mirror at three in the morning, could read like a seed catalogue.
She reached across and covered Enid's hand with her own. "Then let them wonder," she said. "I shan't."
Enid's eyes went bright and spilled, and she dashed at them, cross with herself, and blew her nose, and the moment might have ended there, warm and finished, Dilys's real errand forgotten in the pleasure of doing a kindness.
But Enid, mopped and steadied, wanted to talk now, the dam quite gone, and what she wanted to talk about — of all the mercies — was Gordon's fussiness. His little ways. The pipe rack. The shirts ironed just so. The tea.
"You'd not credit the tea," she said, half laughing, half marvelling, a woman inspecting the bars of her old cage now she was outside it. "Everything had to be his particular way. His cup, his spoon, his — his saffron honey, if you please, that he'd got up as some grand refinement, because of the allotment lot and their saffron and all that carry-on. Ordinary honey wasn't good enough for Gordon, oh no. It had to be the saffron, in his own jar, that only he touched." She rolled her eyes to the ceiling, forgivingly, at the man in his grave. "And he'd been so pleased with himself, lately. Ever so smug. Came in a week or two back full of himself over it — a lovely new jar, he said, better than the usual, better colour, better everything. A gift, I think it was, or a tribute — people were always giving Gordon things, to keep sweet with him. A lovely new jar." She shook her head. "The vanity of the man over a pot of honey. And now look."
Dilys sat with her cup at her lip and did not drink.
A new jar.
She had come for exactly nothing and been handed the middle of the book.
She let none of it show. She said, mildly, that men were terrible over their little comforts, that Hugh had been unspeakable about a particular brand of marmalade, and Enid laughed and agreed, and they finished the pot talking of husbands and their marmalade and their pipes and the strange large silence they left behind, two widows in a warm room with the dance music playing, one of them turning at last toward the light and the other, quietly, under the ordinary talk, turning something over and over in her mind like a stone with writing on the underside.
She walked home the long way, though her knees complained of it, because she needed the walking to think.
At Foxglove Cottage the low sun lay along Hugh's greenhouse and lit it up gold, empty, the staging bare where the tomatoes should have been, and for once she looked at it without the usual small collapse in her chest. Wellington met her at the gate in a passion of grievance at having been left, and shadowed her through to the kitchen, and pressed his long grey head against her thigh while she stood at the dresser and took down, from the high shelf where she had put it and half forgotten it, the jar.
Welly's jar. He had dug it up the morning after the Show, out of the rubbish behind the tea tent, dug it up and pranced it home in triumph the way he brought her dead moles and other men's gloves, and she had rinsed it and set it on the shelf and puzzled at it and let it be, because a thrown-out honey jar was the least remarkable thing in the world after a Show. An ordinary jar. A plain screw-top jar with a smear of dried gold in the bottom and, caught in the smear, three or four fine red threads.
Red. She held it to the window and turned it and there they were, unmistakable now she was looking with the right question in her head: red threads. The long, three-forked, blood-dark stigmas of Crocus sativus. True saffron. The real thing, the honest thing, the innocent thing.
She set it on the table very carefully, as if it might break, though it was only she who might.
Two jars.
That was the shape that had eluded her, and Enid, God bless her window box, had handed it over across the sherry. Two jars. There had been the ordinary jar — this one, Gordon's usual, the true-saffron honey he'd fussed over for a year — and it had ended in the rubbish behind the tea tent, thrown out. And there had been a new jar, lately, a lovely new jar, better colour, a gift, a tribute, that only Gordon touched and that Gordon had spooned into cup after cup all through the morning's judging. And that jar — the one that mattered, the one whose threads she would give a great deal to see against this same window — had not been thrown out at all. That jar had gone, tidily, with all the other tea things, into the keeping of whoever cleared the committee tent when the great man fell ill. Into safe hands. Into helpful hands.
She was still standing over the two truths on the kitchen table when the bicycle bell sounded in the lane, and PC Owen Fettiplace came up the path wheeling his bike, cap under his arm, the earnest young face already apologising for itself.
"Mrs. Ashcroft. I hope it's — I was off at four, and I got to thinking, after what you said. About the list. The small, cold list." He stopped in the doorway, and Wellington went to him and leaned, and Owen fondled the dog's ears absently in the way of a man whose hands need something while his mind works. "DS Tolley's for closing it. He said so in the car. Elderly gentleman, bad heart, bug going round, doctor's satisfied, coroner's satisfied, everybody's satisfied." He looked up, and there was something in the boy's face that his sergeant had never once bothered to see there. "I'm not satisfied. I don't rightly know why. But I'm not."
"No," Dilys said. "Neither am I." And she stood aside and let him in, and put the kettle on again, and set the two jars — the dug-up one and the empty place beside it where its twin should have been — before the young constable, and told him everything: the burning mouth she had watched and no one else had marked, the delayed and dreadful clockwork of a plant that is not saffron, the innocent jar in the rubbish and the guilty jar in helpful hands, and the widow that afternoon who had been cleared not by an alibi alone but by the plain evidence of her face.
Owen listened. That was the whole of him, and it was everything: he listened, and he wrote it in his notebook in his careful hand, and he did not once say now then, Mrs. Ashcroft in the voice they used, the voice that meant there, there. When she had done he read it back, and asked two good questions, and she answered them, and something settled between them across the kitchen table that had not been there before — the old teacher and the one pupil in a slow class who has finally, of his own accord, put up his hand.
"Then where do we start?" he said. We. He did not even hear himself say it.
"With the jar we haven't got," said Dilys. "But not tonight. Tonight I'm going to walk up to the church, Owen, and sit a while, and put it in order in my head, and you're going to go home and sleep, because a policeman with shadows under his eyes gets asked questions." She saw him hesitate, torn between duty and manners. "Walk me as far as the lychgate, if it eases you. Then home."
He left her at the gate under the failing light, and she went in among the graves alone, with the great yew over her — Taxus baccata, a poison a thousand years old that the churchyard called holy and planted for shelter, so that even here, even in God's own acre, the lovely and the deadly grew from one soil and no one thought it strange. She found the bench near Hugh, and did not weep, and was faintly surprised at herself, and sat.
The naked ladies were out. All along the south wall of the church they had opened while her back was turned — leafless, sudden, shameless, the pale pink cups of the autumn crocus standing bare from the bare earth over the bones of the village dead, beautiful and out of season and everywhere. Colchicum autumnale. She had walked past ten thousand of them in her life and loved them and thought nothing. She looked at them now and made herself count what the killer had counted.
Four things, then. Only four, but all four together, and there was the terror of it. Whoever it was had grown the thing — had the autumn crocus to hand, a corm, a border, a bank of it like this bank blushing over the graves. Had the knowledge — not a poisoner's knowledge but a plantsman's, deep and casual, enough to know that these innocent pink cups carry a poison that kills slowly and by stages and wears the exact mask of a summer bug, enough to dry the stamens and pass them for saffron to every eye in the county but one. Had the access — could stand in the committee tent among the urns and the crockery on the morning of the Show and lift one jar and set down another, unremarked, unremembered, belonging there. And had, last of all and coldest of all, the reason that wanted nothing — not Gordon's money, not Gordon's land, not Gordon's silence bought or broken, none of the things the others had needed him alive to give. A reason that wanted one thing only, and could be paid in one coin only, and that coin was his death.
Four circles, and she drew them in her mind and watched them slide together, and the place where all four overlapped at once was very small, and very near, and she flinched from looking straight at it as one flinches from the sun.
"A lovely new jar," Enid said, "better than the usual — he was ever so smug." And in the cool of the churchyard, under the great yew, the whole thing turned over in Dilys's mind like a key: someone had given Gordon a new jar. Not a stranger. Not for money. Someone who knew plants, and knew this village, and wanted nothing on this earth except to watch him die.
The Jar of Honey
Everything in a murder, Hugh used to say, is either a plant, a person, or a place — and Dilys had a poison and a village and could not, for the life of her, make herself look squarely at the one small person standing exactly where all three met.
She had woken before six with the sentence already sitting on her chest like the cat they had never owned, and she lay under it for a while in the grey light, listening to Wellington groan and stretch in the good armchair downstairs. Hugh had liked to reason aloud over the first pot of tea, walking the kitchen in his dressing gown, laying out a problem the way he laid out seedlings — evenly, with room between each one to grow. A plant, a person, a place. He had meant patients then; a symptom, a habit, a house that was damp. But it worked for this too, and she hated that it worked, because the plant was named now and the place was named now and only the person had no name she was willing to say.
So she got up, and she made the tea, and she took her two jars out of the pantry and set them side by side on the kitchen table in the honest morning light, and she made herself begin.
They were not, at first glance, remarkable. Two jars of honey. The one Welly had brought up out of the rubbish behind the tea tent the morning after the Show, mud-freckled, its screw-band gone to rust at the rim, the label soft and swollen where the damp had got at it: PURE HONEY, the county show's own supplier, the label the committee had bought by the case for thirty years. The everyday jar. Gordon's real saffron honey, the innocent one, the one he had spooned from for years and years without coming to any harm at all — until this September, when it had ended up in the bin.
And beside it the other. The one Ambrose had wheedled off the coroner's officer in a padded envelope, sealed, initialled, and lent to her for one afternoon on the strict understanding that she was a botanist consulting and nothing more, and that if anyone asked she had never held it. The jar that had killed Gordon Purslowe.
She held it up to the window.
The threads inside the honey caught the light and glowed, and there it was again, the thing she had seen the first time and would go on seeing every time until she died: not saffron. Anybody in Little Hemlock would have said saffron. The colour of a cathedral window, the fussy little curl of them suspended in gold — of course it was saffron, what else came in threads and cost the earth and made a plain man feel refined? But saffron was three long stigmas to a flower, deep arterial red, and it smelled of hay and iodine and something almost bitter under the sweet, and Miriam Pardoe would have counted them out for you three at a time with her tweezers and her jeweller's loupe and her fierce proprietary love. These were stamens. Yellow-orange, blunt, too many of them, from a flower that was not a crocus at all whatever the village chose to call it. Colchicum autumnale. The naked ladies. The pretty pink things nodding leafless in half the borders of the parish this very week, and full to the anthers with colchicine, which had no strong taste and burned a man's mouth an hour after and killed him gently by morning.
She set the poison down and looked at the two labels.
That was where the cleverness lived, and she had missed it entirely the first day because she had been looking at the honey and not at the paper. The everyday jar wore the supplier's mass-printed label. The doctored jar did not. Its label was hand-cut, the corners trimmed square with scissors and not quite true, and across it, in ink, in a small upright old-fashioned hand: Little Hemlock Saffron. Sun-dried. A Village Revival.
Miriam's line. That was the phrase off Miriam's stall, off Miriam's little brown-paper twists at two pounds fifty the pinch, off the hand-lettered card she propped against the marigold in a jam jar to draw the crowd — a village revival — the incomer's one shy bid to be a village thing at last. Anyone who found this jar, anyone who caught the burning saffron-lookalike death in it and thought poison, would think of Miriam Pardoe and her allotment crocuses in the same breath, and the village had already half-thought it, and the police had thought it out loud.
But it was not Miriam's label.
Dilys had bought from that stall herself, two pinches last October, and Miriam wrote her twists in a hard slanting capital, all uprights, a chemist's hand — she had trained as something once, before the saffron, and it showed. This ink flowed. This was a rounder, softer, careful script, the sort taught to girls before the war, the sort that put a little serif on the tail of the y out of long habit. Not Miriam's hand copying Miriam's line. Somebody else's hand, patiently making itself look like Miriam's stall. A forger who had studied the target and got the words exactly and the handwriting not at all, because handwriting is the one thing you cannot forge without being someone you are not.
And the jar. She turned it over in her fingers, frowning. Squat, wide-shouldered, an old imperial pound size they had stopped making years ago; a faint moulded ring round the base and the ghost of moulded letters gone illegible with washing. Not the supplier's jar. Not a supermarket jar. She had held this shape of jar before — recently, and often, and pleasantly, and she could not for the life of her fix where. It sat just under the surface of memory like a stone you know is in the pond because you can see the shadow but not the stone. Somebody's pantry. Somebody's windowsill, backlit, a row of them. She let it go. It would come. Things came, if you stopped chasing them; forty years of trying to recall where she had keyed out a particular sedge had taught her that much.
So: not a stranger's jar, not a supplier's jar. Somebody's own preserving jar, from somebody's own shelf, relabelled by hand and sweetened and filled with the crocus that was not a crocus, and put where Gordon would find it.
Which was the whole point, wasn't it. Where Gordon would find it.
She sat down and drank her cold tea and made herself think about where that was.
The saffron honey did not live at the Purslowes'. Enid had been quite clear, sitting under the churchyard yew with her hands folded like a woman who had put down a great weight and not yet learned she was allowed to stand up straight: Gordon didn't keep it at home, he kept it at the Show, in the committee tent, in the little zinc-topped side table where the judges' bits and pieces went, because half the pleasure of it was the ritual of it — Gordon Purslowe crossing the marquee in front of the exhibitors with his cup, dipping his own private spoon into his own private jar, the head judge, the connoisseur, the one man in Little Hemlock with a palate. Everyone else took sugar from the caddy or went without. Only Gordon had the honey. Only Gordon touched the honey. He had told Enid, smug as a cat, that this year's was a lovely new jar, better than the usual — as if a jar of honey were a case of claret laid down for him by an admirer. He had assumed an admirer. Of course he had. A man like Gordon assumed the world left him gifts.
There had been no admirer. Dilys was sure of that now, sure the way she was sure of a plant she had held. Nobody had loved Gordon Purslowe enough to make him honey. What had happened was simpler and much worse: while the everyday jar sat in the committee tent where it had sat for years, somebody had lifted it out and put this one in its place, and thrown the old one in the tea-tent rubbish where it stayed until a lurcher with better instincts than the entire Kingsbourne CID went digging. A swap. Not a bribe, not a gift, not a stranger. A swap, done by a hand that had the run of that tent.
And there she came up hard against the tent.
The committee tent. She had stood in it a hundred times, at a hundred shows, and she could see it now with her eyes shut: the trestle spread with schedules and rosette boxes and the judges' clipboards, the smell of trodden grass and canvas warming in the sun, the zinc-topped table with the urn and the crockery and the great brown pot and the caddy and — yes — Gordon's honey. Who went in and out of it on Show morning? Half the parish. Marion Kettleby, sweeping through to commandeer more cups for the WI. Owen Fettiplace's sergeant, wanting to know where the lost-child point was. Freddie Quennell putting his patrician head round the flap. Katie Bunce, fifteen and long-suffering, carrying trays of washed crockery back and forth from the water butts. Clive Sowerby, roaring, before he was thrown out. Hands, hands, hands, all morning.
But there was a difference between passing through a tent and keeping it, and Dilys made herself look at the difference, though it was the last thing on earth she wanted to look at.
Because one person kept that tent. One person stocked it before dawn with the urn filled and the crockery counted and the caddy topped and the honey — the honey — set out on the zinc table ready for the head judge's little performance. One person moved through it all day at the still centre of the fuss, refilling, wiping, carrying, never hurried, always there, so wholly a part of the tent's furniture that no one in the history of the Little Hemlock Show had ever once seen her, any more than they saw the urn. One person had made Gordon Purslowe's tea, cup after cup, through the long hot morning of the judging, and handed it to him with a smile, and taken the empty cup away.
Pru Merridew.
Dilys stood up so fast the chair scraped, and went to the window, and stood with her arms folded looking out at Hugh's greenhouse with the low sun on it, and did not think about Pru at all, on purpose, for as long as she could manage, which was not very long.
Because it was absurd. Pru Merridew. Pru who had come up the lane fourteen months ago with a seed cake still warm in a tin and sat in this kitchen and not said one single wrong thing — not poor Dilys, not he's in a better place, none of it — had just sat, and let Wellington put his grey head on her knee, and said at last, He was proud of you, you know. Hugh. He used to stop me in the shop and tell me what you'd flowered. Nobody else had thought to give Dilys back a piece of Hugh she hadn't known she'd lost. Pru, who ran the tea tent for the love of it and buried the village's dead with casseroles and was, everyone agreed, the backbone of the place. You did not — you could not — take that gentle, tired, kindly woman and set her beside a jar of murder and hold them up together in the light the way you held up threads.
And yet Dilys had spent forty years learning not to let what a thing looked like tell her what it was. That was the entire discipline. A poison garden was only a garden read correctly. The naked ladies were pink and pretty and killed you all the same. And here was the great cold engine of it turning over regardless of what she wanted, ticking through its clean logic: someone had grown the Colchicum and dried it with a nurseryman's patience and known it would pass for saffron; and someone had had the run of the tent, and made the tea, and stood beside Gordon all through the fatal evening looking after him with a cool cloth and a kind word, so wholly the ministering angel that no policeman would ever ask where she had been at eleven that morning when the dose went in.
The delayed onset. That was the terrible elegance of it, and she saw the whole shape of it now and wished she didn't. Colchicine took its time. The dose was down by noon; the burning mouth, the sickness, the collapse came in the afternoon and the evening, hours after, mixed in beautifully with the wretched coronation-chicken bug that had genuinely and coincidentally been going round the harvest supper. So the poisoner had every reason to be seen by Gordon's side exactly when he fell ill — not administering anything, simply nursing, the kindest woman in the parish tending the man she'd served for forty years. The alibi wasn't a locked room or a train timetable. The alibi was compassion. The alibi was that she looked, at the crucial hour, precisely like what everyone already knew her to be.
Dilys pressed her knuckles to her mouth.
"No," she said, to the greenhouse, to Hugh's ghost, to the tidy machine of her own reasoning. "No, I don't want it."
Wellington, hearing a word he mistook for one of his, arrived hopefully in the kitchen with his lead in his mouth.
Which — she looked at him, at the daft mournful hopeful face and the lead trailing from his jaw — was, when she thought about it, not the worst idea anyone had had that morning.
The Glebe Field had gone back to being a field. Three days after the centenary Show there was almost nothing left to say it had happened: the marquees struck and carted away, the flattened rectangles of paler, sicklier grass where they'd stood already greening up at the edges, a single lost rosette trodden into the turf, tin-foil red gone dull. Cattle would be back on it by the weekend. The developer's stakes were still down along the top hedge with their little orange flags, and Dilys looked at those for a moment and thought of Freddie and of Gordon and of all the things this death had been supposed to be about and turned out not to be, and then she let Welly off the lead.
"Go on," she said. "Where the tea was. Go on, then."
She was not proud of what she was doing. She was standing in an empty field encouraging a dog to eat rubbish so that she would not have to be the one to find it. But Welly had found the first jar, hadn't he, honest and disgraceful, nose down in the bin bags the morning after; and a lurcher's nose knew nothing of who was beloved and who brought seed cake and who ran the tea tent, and told the truth for the plain animal reason that it could not do anything else. Wellington's nose had no manners. That was rather the point of it.
He worked the pale rectangle where the tea tent had stood in his high-stepping, casual, entirely deceptive way — sniffing here, cocking a leg there, appearing to think about nothing — and then stopped, and became a different animal, and dug.
He dug the way Hugh's lurcher dug at everything he shouldn't: turf flying, ears back, whole rangy body committed to the felony. Dilys came over slowly. There was a scorched patch in the grass under where the tea urn's little paraffin heater had stood on its tin tray, a black smudge the size of a dinner plate, the sort of thing you'd give not one second's thought to at a show — somebody had burned a bit of rubbish, tidying up, the way you did. Nobody in the county would look twice. And in it, half turned up already by two grey paws, the leavings.
She crouched. She did not touch — she had learned that much from Owen, bless him, and had a freezer bag and a pencil in her cardigan pocket like a woman gone quietly mad. She looked.
Threads. A pinch of them, blackened at the tips but not gone, curled and yellow-orange where the char hadn't taken — stamens, the wrong flower part, the crocus that was not a crocus, tipped out and set alight and mostly not consumed because green plant matter does not burn as cleanly as a guilty person hopes. And with them, its edge browned and crimped by the heat, a torn scrap of paper. She teased it with the pencil until the writing turned up.
…Hemlock Saf… and, below, in that same soft rounded old-fashioned hand with the little serif on the tail: …llage Reviv…
A jar had been prepared here. Emptied of its evidence, its leavings burned, in the small tidy competent way of a woman clearing up after herself in the middle of a show while everyone thought her only clearing up after the tea — and she had missed a pinch, because you always miss a pinch, and the grass had kept it, and the dog had found it.
Dilys knelt in the ordinary grass with the September sun warm on the back of her neck and did not move for a long time.
Welly came trotting back from the flattened grass where the tea tent had stood, tail high, disgracefully pleased with himself, and laid at Dilys's feet a scrap of scorched label in a neat old-fashioned hand and a pinch of burnt yellow threads — and Dilys stood very still in the ordinary afternoon and wished, with all her heart, that her husband's dog were not so very good at finding the truth.
Naked Ladies
Colchicum autumnale, the autumn crocus, the meadow saffron, the naked ladies — call it what you like, thought Dilys, it was nodding pink and innocent in half the gardens of Little Hemlock, and any one of those gardens might be a murderer's, which was another way of saying none of them was.
She had come in from the Glebe Field with the scorched scrap of label folded into her handkerchief and the pinch of burnt threads in an old aspirin tin, and she had laid them on the kitchen table beside the salt cellar as though they might behave better under proper lighting. Welly had flopped into the good armchair with the boneless satisfaction of a dog who has done a hard day's work and expects to be thanked for it, which, in his own way, he had. She did not thank him. She stood at the table a long while, listening to the tick of the greenhouse cooling out beyond the window — Hugh's greenhouse, the light she still left burning because a dark pane at the end of the garden was more than she could manage most nights — and she made herself do the thing she had been avoiding since the little threads had first refused to be saffron.
She made herself reason.
It was not a comfortable exercise, because reasoning cleanly meant setting her affection down on the doorstep like a muddy pair of Wellingtons and going in without it, and Dilys had a great deal of affection for the people of Little Hemlock, even the ones she could cheerfully have drowned in the water butt. Forty years of botany had taught her one discipline above all the others: that the plant did not care what you hoped it was. You counted the parts. You held it to the light. You named it, and if the name was ugly you did not un-name it to spare your feelings. Grief had made her forget, this last long year, that she was rather good at this. She was remembering now, and she was half-ashamed of how it warmed her.
So. The poison was colchicine. Ambrose had not said the word aloud yet, being a cautious man who liked his post-mortems before his opinions, but she had seen the shape of it in the way Gordon died and he had seen the shape of it in the way she described the dying, and neither of them had needed the other to say it. Colchicine, from the corm and the seed and the stamen of the autumn crocus. Which meant, on the face of it, that she was looking for someone with the autumn crocus.
She reached for the lead. Welly rose from the armchair with the martyred groan of the recently retired and was at the door before she had it off the hook, and they went out into the long gold light of the early evening to look at Little Hemlock's borders with the eye of a woman deciding which of her neighbours had a weapon in the ground.
—
It took her under an hour to discover that all of them did.
She began, because it was on the way, at the lych-gate of St. Anselm's, where a drift of them had naturalised in the rough grass under the yew — bare pink goblets on their pale stalks, no leaf to be seen, the flowers arriving weeks ahead of their foliage the way they always did, which was how they had got the name that made the churchwardens tut. Naked ladies. They came up leafless out of the mown grass and stood there rosy and shameless among the leaning stones, and Clemency, who had a soft spot for anything that flowered where it liked, had asked the mower to go round them. Dilys had admired them there for a dozen Septembers. She admired them now with a colder eye and walked on.
Marion Kettleby had a fat clump of the doubles by her front step, the mauve Colchicum 'Waterlily' that Marion mispronounced grandly and had certainly bought at a garden centre in Kingsbourne under the impression that it was something rarer. The vicarage border had them scattered through the Michaelmas daisies. The Green Man had a whole rosy sheet of them under the sign, where Sadie let the grass grow long by the car park, and three tables of drinkers were sitting not four feet from enough colchicine to see off the parish. Old Mr. Prewett grew them along his path. The cottage by the ford grew them. The pub cat sat among a patch of them washing its face.
She stood at the war memorial with the lurcher leaning warm against her shin and understood the thing whole, and it was not a comfort.
The weapon was a garden flower. Not a rare bulb smuggled in from a specialist's list, not a Latin curiosity requiring a licence and a locked greenhouse — a plant that half of England grew on purpose because it flowered when everything else had given up, that the other half grew by accident because it seeded about, that ladies of a certain age gave one another in brown paper bags across the WI trestle with the words they just look after themselves, dear. Possession of Colchicum autumnale in Little Hemlock proved precisely nothing. It was like proving that a suspect owned a kitchen knife. Everyone owned the knife. The village was carpeted in the means of its own murder and had been all along, pink and pretty and nodding, and nobody had ever thought twice, because why on earth would you.
That was the horror of it, and — she made herself say the harder word — that was the fairness of it. Whoever had done this had not needed to acquire anything. They had needed only to know. The plant was innocent. The plant was everywhere. The plant told you as much about the murderer as the September light did.
Welly found a smell at the base of the memorial and gave it his complete professional attention. Dilys let him. She was rearranging the question, and the rearranging was the first thing in fourteen months that had made her feel entirely, embarrassingly alive.
—
Not who has it. The wrong question. The village had handed her fifty answers to the wrong question and would go on handing them out all evening if she let it.
Who could use it.
She walked home the long way, up Church Lane and along the top of the village where the last cottages gave out into hedgerow, and she took the second question apart the way she would take apart a doubtful specimen, structure by structure, and would not let herself hurry.
To use it — to use it like this — a person had needed to know a great deal that was not common knowledge, and to know it well enough to stake a life on it. They had needed to know that colchicine does not strike like a stage poison, no clutched throat and toppling chair, but comes on slow and cruel and patient: the burning mouth first, hours later the collapse of everything below it, then — and this was the wicked cleverness, this was the part a casual gardener would never have banked on — a false rally, a seeming mend, before the heart failed quietly in the small hours when the doctor had gone home to bed. They had needed to know that this course would read, to a tired GP with a bug going round his patients and a cardiac patient on the slab, as nature. As a weak heart and bad chicken. They had needed, in short, to know the timing of the thing well enough to be somewhere else, unremarkable, blameless, doing something kind, at the precise hour it looked as if the poison must have been given.
And they had needed a vehicle. Not a single dramatic dose — a repeated, ordinary one, something Gordon would take himself, by his own hand, cup after cup, all through a long day of judging, so that no one need ever be seen to give him anything at all. Which meant they had needed to know Gordon: his fussy, particular, thirty-year ritual of saffron honey, the affectation he wore like a chain of office, the one indulgence in the whole marquee that he alone touched because everyone else, thank heaven, took sugar.
And — the last structure, the finest — they had needed to make the poison look right. To dry the stamens of the autumn crocus and infuse them into honey and have the result pass, to every eye in Little Hemlock, for saffron. That was not a thing you blundered into. Saffron and the autumn crocus were the oldest trap in the botanical book, the confusion that had been killing the careless since before there were books to warn them, and the person who had baited it here had baited it knowingly — had known that the deadly threads would sit in the jar looking expensive and refined and faintly foreign, and that suspicion, if it ever came, would swing like a compass needle straight to the one woman in the parish who grew the genuine article. They had dried a poison to look like a luxury. They had made a frame out of a flower.
Dilys stopped walking.
That was not a casual gardener. That was not Marion with her mispronounced doubles or Sadie letting the grass grow long. Somewhere between everyone in the village grows it and one person in the village could turn it into that jar the field had narrowed, and it had narrowed brutally, and she did not much like the direction it had narrowed in.
It had narrowed toward knowledge. Toward the quiet, deep, uncredited kind — the kind that names the parts and holds them to the light and is not fooled by what a thing is pretending to be. The kind she herself had, and had thought, until this week, that no one else in Little Hemlock possessed.
She had been wrong about that. She had been comfortably, lazily, affectionately wrong for years, the way the whole village was wrong, and she stood in the lane with the light going amber over the hedges and made herself, finally, be right.
—
There was another plantswoman in Little Hemlock. There had always been another plantswoman in Little Hemlock. Dilys had simply never once thought of her as one, and neither had anyone else, and that — she understood now with the cold clean drop of a true deduction — was the whole point.
Pru Merridew.
She said the name to herself and her mind produced, instantly and treacherously, the wrong picture: Pru at the urn, apron on, sleeves pushed up, pressing a second scone on you before you'd finished the first; Pru arriving at your gate within the hour of any bad news with a covered dish and a way of not making you talk; Pru counting the float twice because she'd been treasurer so long her fingers did it in their sleep. The backbone of the village. The last person on earth. The picture was so warm and so complete that it took a real effort of will to see round it, and Dilys made the effort, because she had spent forty years learning not to trust a picture that was too complete.
Look at what was under it.
Pru was the widow of a nurseryman. Tom Merridew had run the nursery at the village edge for the whole of their married life, back when it was a going concern with glasshouses that steamed on a cold morning and a reputation that reached to Kingsbourne, and Pru had worked it at his side for years — potting, pricking out, taking cuttings, keeping the ledgers and the labels and the Latin. Dilys had bought plants there as a young married woman. She had a fuchsia still, gone woody and enormous by the back door, that had come from the Merridews' benches in 1987. And in all the years since — the years of the tea tent and the casseroles and poor Pru, since Tom — Dilys had let Pru file herself away under treasurer and tea-lady and had never once put the two women together and seen that they were the same.
Because Pru would not let you. That was the thing. Pru laughed it off, every time, with the exact ease of long practice. Oh, I only know what Tom taught me. How many times had Dilys heard her say it — at the plant stall, at the show bench, over the trestle — I only know what Tom taught me, dear, while her hands did something quick and knowing that gave the lie clean away. Dilys had watched her, at last year's Show, name a visitor's unlabelled seedling across the width of the marquee — that's a Colchicum speciosum*, that one, not the common* — and then blink and pink and say she supposed she'd just heard Tom say it once. She propagated half the plants on her own stall from cuttings she'd struck herself and called them bits I had spare. She knew what things did. She fed her borders on something she mixed in a bucket and would not quite explain. She had, Dilys thought, and the thought was very cold, exactly the kind of deep, patient, self-effacing plant-craft that could dry a stamen to a thread and steep it into honey and know, to the day, how long the drying should take and how much would be enough.
The kind nobody credited. The kind a village never suspects. The kind that could stand behind a tea urn all day in front of forty witnesses and be the last hand anyone would think to look at.
Dilys found that she had turned, without deciding to, down the lane that ran past the Merridew cottage, and that Welly was towing her toward it in the frank hope of the sausages he associated with the address.
—
She did not go in. She had no more reason to knock on Pru's door this evening than on any other, and rather less nerve, and in any case she wanted to see the thing before she saw the woman.
She saw it from the lane, over the neat low hedge that Pru kept clipped square as a shortbread, in the last of the light.
The cottage garden was as it always was — the delphiniums going over, the sweet peas hanging on, the whole soft crowded English muddle of it, tended within an inch of its life by someone who plainly could not stop tending things. And along the shady border under the wall, where the soil would stay cool and moist through the summer, exactly where a knowing hand would put them and a careless one never would, the autumn crocus grew.
Not the accidental scatter of the churchyard. Not the mauve garden-centre doubles by Marion's step. A broad, deep, deliberate drift of the common Colchicum autumnale, the plain wild pink of it, thriving thick and glossy and clearly established for years, clearly divided and replanted and cared for, clearly grown — the way you grow something you have a use for. There must have been a hundred blooms open in the dusk, bare and pink and nodding, more of the plant in that one shady border than in the rest of the village put together, and it was the healthiest, best-tended stand of naked ladies Dilys had ever seen in her life.
And it proved nothing. That was the awful symmetry of it, standing there in the cooling lane with the dog straining toward the gate. It proved nothing at all, because half of Little Hemlock grew the wretched flower and possession was no evidence and any decent barrister would say so in his sleep and be right. Pru had as much claim to grow it as the vicar did. More, being a gardener. If Dilys marched to Owen Fettiplace this minute with she has autumn crocus in her border, he would have to answer, kindly, that so did his own gran.
No. The plant would never convict anyone. She had understood that at the war memorial and she understood it doubly now, staring at the finest patch of it in the parish and feeling nothing move under her feet but certainty. The plant was innocent. It would go on being innocent. The guilt, if there was guilt, was not in the border. It was in the knowing — and the knowing, unlike the flower, was rare, and it had a face and a name and an apron.
But even the knowing was not enough, and Dilys was too old a hand to pretend it was. Means without motive was a suspicion, not a case, and it was a cruel suspicion at that, aimed at the gentlest woman most of them had ever met. To dry a poison over weeks, patiently, deliberately, in the shape of a kindness — to steep it and jar it and carry it smiling to a man's tea day after day — a woman did not do that out of plant-craft. She did it out of a wound, and it would be a very old and very deep one, and it would explain the one thing the border could not: not how, but why now, why this year, why the hundredth Show, why at last.
And Dilys knew, with the small sick certainty of a woman who has just found the loose thread and cannot now stop herself pulling, where she had to go to look for it. She had walked past it her whole life without looking. Everyone had. The village had shut its eyes to it the way you shut your eyes to a scar.
Grief, she thought — and here her own came up to meet the thought, unbidden, the empty greenhouse burning at the end of her own garden, the good chair with the wrong dog in it — grief could turn any way at all. Hers had turned inward, folded her up small for a year, and was only now, God help her, turning back toward the living because a murder had made her curious. But grief could turn the other way. It could set and harden and wait, forty years if it had to, smiling behind an urn.
She looked at the dusk-pink border a moment longer and then she took the dog home.
The plant told her nothing, because the plant was everywhere. But the knowing — the drying, the disguising, the patient certainty that it would pass for a bug and a bad heart — that was rare, and it lived, Dilys admitted at last to the empty lane, behind the neat hedge of a nurseryman's widow who only ever knew, she always said, what Tom had taught her.
The Bitterest Root
The Merridew nursery had been shut so long that the village had stopped seeing it, the way you stop seeing a scar, and Dilys stood at its padlocked gate among the self-sown seedlings pushing up through the concrete and understood that some things go on growing long after you have decided they are dead.
Buddleia had taken the roof of the packing shed — Buddleja davidii, first coloniser of every bombsite and every heartbreak in England, its purple spires nodding out of the guttering as if the building had chosen, at the last, to flower. Rosebay willowherb stood shoulder-high along the beds. Valerian had rooted in the mortar of the low wall, pink and frothing, and where the great glasshouse had been there was only a cage of white-painted iron with most of its panes gone, so that the September sky came through in squares. She could read the beds still, under forty years of bramble. Long lines, dead straight. The lines of a man who had loved order and things coming up true to their name. Someone had grown here with tenderness once, and then simply stopped, and the growing had gone on without him, wilder every year, until it was only weeds.
Hugh had bought their first fruit trees here. The autumn they married, before Foxglove Cottage was even properly theirs — two cordon apples and a Victoria plum, and Tom Merridew had folded down over the young doctor's cheque and refused half of it, saying a village wanted its doctor rooted, and trees were the cheapest way of rooting a man he knew. Hugh had told that story for thirty years. She had not thought of it in fourteen months, and now it stood up in her like a plant out of season, and she had to put her hand on the cold iron of the gate.
Welly pushed his grey nose through the bars and drew a long, cataloguing breath — rabbit, fox, the ghosts of forty summers — and sneezed.
"Yes," Dilys said. "So do I."
She had always known the shape of the story, the way you know the words of a hymn without deciding to learn them. Merridew's Nursery. Where children bought their first seeds in a penny twist of paper, and Tom folded down to your height to show you which end went in the soil. Where every wedding in three parishes got its buttonholes and every funeral its wreaths. It had closed. Everyone knew it had closed. And in the middle of the knowing there was a soft place the village had trodden round so carefully, for so long, that a path had worn round it — a place where nobody ever said the rest.
Dilys was tired of the path round. She had trodden one round her own grief for fourteen months, and it had kept her precisely nowhere.
She went to find the vicar.
The vestry at St. Anselm's was cold even in September, and smelled of paraffin and old paper and the particular mildew of hymn books left to a damp wall. Clemency Odell hauled the burial register down from its shelf without being asked twice, which was one of the many reasons Dilys loved her.
"Merridew," Clemency said, running a finger down the ruled columns, her stole still on from the eight o'clock. "Here. Thomas Edward Merridew." She turned the book so Dilys could read it. "Buried the ninth of November. He was fifty-one."
Fifty-one. Younger than Dilys was now, by more than a decade.
"Cause?"
"The register only gives the day we put them in the ground." Clemency's voice had gone careful. "But I can tell you what the parish said, because the parish wrote it down in its own way." She crossed to the low cupboard and lifted out the bound parish magazines, fat leather quartos, a year to a spine. She found the year without hunting. She had clearly been here before, in this year, on some errand of her own. The page she wanted carried a black border, the old convention for the dead. We record with sorrow the death of Mr Thomas Merridew, late of Merridew's Nursery, whose flowers have graced this church for thirty years. And below, in the cramped print of a long-gone vicar: He did not long survive the closing of his business, and the doctors spoke of his heart, though there were those who spoke of other things.
"There were those who spoke of other things," Dilys read aloud.
"My predecessor but two had a gift for the unsayable said." Clemency did not smile. "It is the nearest a parish magazine ever comes to laying a charge."
"Go back," Dilys said. "To the spring."
They found it folded modestly into the April number, between a report on the bell-ringers and a recipe for rhubarb. It is with great regret that we learn Merridew's Nursery is to close, the bank having seen fit to withdraw its support at this season of all seasons, when a grower's whole year lies as yet unsold in the ground.
"This season of all seasons," Dilys said. Her mouth had gone dry. "April. He'd have had the entire year planted and not a stem of it cut."
"The Kingsbourne and County," Clemency said. "There was only the one bank then, and only one man ran it." She held Dilys's eye. "You know his name."
"Gordon."
Clemency inclined her head, the smallest movement, and shut the register with a soft clap of dust.
"And Pru stayed," Dilys said. It was not a question. She was watching the vicar's careful face.
"Pru stayed." Clemency straightened the stole with both hands, a small ordering gesture. "She has never once, in all the years I've been here, said a hard word about Gordon Purslowe. Not in confidence, not in temper, not with a drink in her. I used to think it was the finest Christian silence I'd ever been near." She paused. "I'm a priest, Dilys. I'm supposed to believe people can lay a thing down. I don't know what I think this morning, with you looking at me like that."
Dilys did not answer, because there was no answer that would not say too much.
She walked the long way to the Green Man, along the top of the Glebe Field, where the marquees had stood and only pale rectangles of flattened grass remained now, like the outlines of pictures taken down from a wall. Welly quartered ahead, nose to the turf.
She had the shape of it now, and it frightened her more assembled than it had in pieces.
Means. She knew where the means grew: Colchicum autumnale, nodding pink and leafless in half the borders of Little Hemlock and thickest, she had seen with her own eyes, along Pru Merridew's front path. Knowledge. The drying, the infusing, the cold patience to wait weeks while a poison steeped in honey — that was rarer than the flower, and it lived behind the neat hedge of a nurseryman's widow who only ever knew, she always said, what Tom had taught her. Access. Pru kept the urns and the honey and the crockery; the committee tent was her own kitchen, and no one ever counted a tea-lady in or out of it. And motive —
That was the piece Dilys had been most afraid of, and here it was, laid out in a burial register and a black-bordered page. Forty years deep.
She had said the name aloud once. Last night, on the step of the police house, keeping her voice low as though the hollyhocks might carry it. Pru Merridew. And young Owen's face had done a thing she would not forget: it had simply closed, the way a flower shuts at dusk, not from disagreement but from something nearer to pain. "Not Pru," he'd said. Not the way you say you're mistaken. The way a child says not Christmas, when you tell him it's cancelled. "Mrs Ashcroft, she brought my nan soup every day for a fortnight when her hip went. She's — it's Pru." And Dilys had not pressed, partly because there was no answer to it, and partly because some traitor part of her had wanted the boy to talk her out of it, and he had not been able to.
Tolley would be worse. Tolley wanted the incomer and her red threads; he had his tidy story and a woman from away to hang it on, and if Dilys carried him, instead, the treasurer of the flower show, the maker of casseroles, he would thank her very kindly and see her to the door.
She needed the plant to give her the person. Reason alone would not do it, however cleanly it fitted. Only a thing you could hold in your hand — dried stamens in a paper, a corm on a shelf, the discarded jar itself — would shift the story off its comfortable rails. She did not have that. Not yet. She turned the want of it over as she walked, and knew, with the small cold certainty that had been waking her at dawn all week, that she would have to go and look.
The Green Man at eleven in the morning smelled of last night's fire and this morning's polish. Sadie Bunce had the optics down off their brackets and was wiping each one, and Marion Kettleby sat at the corner table with the Show accounts spread before her and a face like a shut hymn book.
"Coffee machine," Marion said, as though the words themselves were sticky. She did not look up. "A hospitality suite, he called it. In a marquee. As if we were letting out corporate boxes at the cricket." She turned a page hard enough to crease it. "He put it to the committee in July. A motion to modernise. Do away with the tea tent — Pru's tea tent, that has poured at that Show since before either of us could vote — and bring in caterers from Kingsbourne. A firm. With a van."
"And the committee?" Dilys took the stool she was waved toward.
"Gordon got his way." Marion's mouth thinned. "Gordon always got his way. He held the paper on half the people round that table and they knew it. Carried, six to four. And Pru didn't say one word. Sat there with her hands in her lap and took the minutes — because she was secretary as well, you understand — and wrote down the abolition of her own tent in her own hand."
Sadie set an optic back in its bracket with a small click. "In that lovely copperplate of hers," she said. "And then went and made everyone a cup of tea."
Dilys turned her cup a quarter-turn on its saucer. "I've been to the vestry. I've been reading about Tom Merridew."
The wiping stopped.
"There's not many go looking there," Sadie said.
"There were those who spoke of other things. That's what the parish wrote. About his heart."
Sadie put down her cloth. Marion, for once in her governed life, put down her pen. And something in the low room settled, the way a room does when the people in it agree, without a word, to stop pretending.
It was the kind of village where a question asked in the vestry at nine was over the shop counter by ten and down the lanes by noon; where nothing was private and everything was known, and only the knowing was ever kept quiet. Dilys had lived inside it long enough to forget she was inside it. She bent to her cooling coffee and did not think, as she ought to have, of how far her morning's reading might already have travelled — or up whose neat and well-kept path it might, even now, be walking.
"He called it a business decision," Sadie said. "Gordon. He was up at the bank then, before he retired down here to be king of us all. Tom had borrowed against the spring stock, the way growers do — you spend in the winter and get it back off the summer, everyone knows that, my Bunce ran the brewery the very same way. And Gordon called that loan in April." She let the month sit there. "April. With the whole year in the ground and not a bloom of it sold. You might as well hold a man's head under in sight of the bank and call it a business decision." She shook her head, slow. "Tom sold what he could scrape. It wasn't near enough. The ground went for a song to some company nobody ever set eyes on, and Tom—" She stopped.
"Tom died in the November," Marion said quietly. "Of his heart, they said."
"Of his heart." Sadie's agreement was flat as a slammed door. "If you like."
"And this was the Show he'd helped found," Dilys said. "The Merridews."
"Tom's own father helped start it. A hundred years back this very year." Marion's voice caught on the pride and the shame of it together. "That's what makes it — the centenary. Of all the years. Tom's family put that Show in the ground, and Gordon Purslowe spent the hundredth one bullying widows over their marmalade and voting the Merridews' tea tent out of existence."
"And Pru?" Dilys said, though she knew.
"Pru stayed." Sadie's voice roughened at the edges. "What else was there for her? The cottage, no children, and forty years to fill. So she filled them with us. Every christening, every funeral, every whist drive and every wretched jumble. First through the door with a casserole when your man's took to hospital, last to leave when there's the washing-up. She made herself the middle of the whole village." A short breath, almost a laugh, with no laughter in it. "And she poured that man his tea, forty years running at that Show, and never once let her hand shake. And I used to think — God forgive me — there's a good woman. There's a woman who's forgiven. That's the word the church would put on it. Forgiveness."
Dilys thought about forgiveness. She thought about her own fourteen months — the greenhouse light she left burning because she could not bring herself to be the one who switched it off; the way grief did not soften a thing at all but set it, hard and clear as resin, keeping whatever fell into it exactly as it had been in the moment of the pouring. She had, suddenly and coldly, a picture of how a woman might smile every day for forty years with something inside her that had never once moved.
"They're at it again, you know," Marion said, into the quiet. "That land. There's been a man in a very good suit measuring the Glebe Field with one of those laser things on a tripod. Prosser. Thornfield Homes." She said the name the way you name a stain. "History repeating itself, and no one lifting a finger."
"Worse than that." Sadie leaned both fists on the bar, and something new came into her face — the look she wore when she was about to spend a piece of intelligence she had been saving. "It's not only the Glebe they're after. Someone told me — and I'll not say who, but they'd know, they'd know for certain — that the old nursery ground itself has changed hands. Gordon's doing. He'd got his hooks into it years back, hadn't he, after it went off cheap. Held it quiet all this time. And this year he sold it on. To them. Thornfield." Her mouth twisted round the words. "Tom's ground. To be houses."
The bar had gone very still. Down in the cellar a barrel shifted and sighed against its chocks.
"When," said Dilys, and heard her own voice come out level and small, "did she learn that?"
"He told her himself, at the Show," said Sadie, quiet for once. "Smug as you like. That Tom's last bit of land was sold, and there'd be houses on it by spring." And Dilys thought of Pru Merridew filling Gordon's cup with her own hand, smiling her whole warm smile, and understood that she had watched a woman pour forty years of grief into a teacup, and had thought it was love.
The Second Cup
It is one thing to reason coldly, in a greenhouse, that the gentlest woman in the village is a murderer, and quite another to hear that she has just sent a box of homemade fudge to a fifteen-year-old girl — and to start, at once, to run.
Dilys had not run in fourteen months. She had not run, if she was honest, in a good deal longer than that; running was for younger women, and for the version of herself that had chased Hugh's hat across a Welsh headland in a gale and laughed until she had to sit down on the turf. But she was running now, down the dusk-blue length of the green with Wellington stretched out ahead of her like a grey ribbon, and the reason she was running was a sentence Sadie Bunce had let fall not ninety seconds before, over the bar of the Green Man, in the tone women use for pleasant, ordinary things.
"Wasn't that kind of Pru," Sadie had said, polishing a glass. "She sent our Katie a whole box of fudge. Homemade. With a little note — thanks for all her help in the tent, poor Katie run off her feet all day, and Pru remembering. I said, you don't get that from the young ones now, do you, that thoughtfulness."
Dilys had put down her half of shandy so carefully that it did not so much as ring against the wood. "When," she had said.
"When what, love?"
"When did it come. The fudge."
"Oh — this afternoon. She dropped it round herself, or her Josie did, I forget. Katie's taken it up to hers, I expect. She was going home to change before —" and Sadie had stopped, because Dilys was already off her stool, already at the door, already calling for the dog in a voice that turned three heads in the snug.
Now the cool of the evening was in her throat like a cold spoon. She was aware of everything with a dreadful, poison-clear precision: the swifts still stitching the last of the light over the church, the smell of somebody's bonfire, the give of the grass and then the harder ring of the lane under her shoes. Katie Bunce, fifteen, freckled, forever singing something tinny into one earbud with the other ear left free out of a good girl's habit of listening for her gran. Katie who had carried cups and emptied slops and wiped tables all through the centenary Show, in and out of the committee tent a hundred times, seeing everything the way children see everything — completely, and without knowing which parts would matter.
I saw all sorts, Katie had said. Dilys had heard it herself, three days ago, in the queue at the shop, the girl showing off a little to the woman from Foxglove Cottage who was suddenly, gratifyingly, interested in the Show. Mr Purslowe fussing over his special honey. Mrs Merridew doing something to his jar — topping it up, I thought, ever so careful. Katie's got sharp eyes, everyone says.
Everyone said. That was the trouble. Everyone said, in a village where the walls had ears and the ears had mouths, and a girl's harmless boast at the shop counter travelled on the same warm current as the news of who was poorly and whose runner beans had bolted, until it reached — because in Little Hemlock everything reached her — the treasurer of the Show, the backbone of the village, the first with a casserole and the last with a suspicion attached to her name. Pru would have heard it the way she heard everything: kindly, attentively, over a cup of something. And Pru, who did not panic and did not rage, who had waited forty years with a smile on her face, would have done the one thing she knew how to do beautifully.
She would have made a gift of it.
"Owen." Dilys had the little constable's number ready under her thumb before she had finished thinking his name; she was walking and dialling and being answered all in one motion, the phone shaking against her ear only because her hand was shaking, not her voice. Her voice she kept flat as a slate. "Owen, it's Dilys Ashcroft. Where are you?"
"Just come off, Mrs Ashcroft, I'm at the —"
"Katie Bunce has had a present from Prudence Merridew. A box of homemade fudge, given this afternoon, and Katie has taken it home. I am going there now. I want you there faster than me." A breath. "It will be the same as before. Do you understand what I am telling you."
There was a silence down the line no longer than a heartbeat, but she heard him understand inside it — heard the whole grim architecture assemble in a young man's head, the honey and the jar and the tea and the delayed, patient death, and now a box of sweets and a child. To his everlasting credit he did not argue and he did not say surely not Pru. He said, "Two minutes," and the line went dead, and Dilys heard, a moment later and far off, the small foolish siren of the village's one panda car, which Owen had almost certainly never had cause to use in earnest before tonight.
She ran.
The Bunces lived up Chapel Rise, in the end cottage of a terrace whose front gardens ran to hollyhocks and gnomes, and Dilys took the hill with Wellington towing her and her lungs going like old bellows and a single sentence going round in her with the rhythm of her feet: not the girl, not the girl, not the girl. Because it was one thing — she had said it to herself in the greenhouse only that afternoon, coldly, holding the reasoning at arm's length like a specimen — one thing to prove that Pru Merridew had poured colchicine into the honey of the man who had killed her Tom by slow degrees, and let a whole village agree it was a bug. Gordon had earned his death, if any man had; there was a horrible completed justice in it, and Dilys had caught herself, more than once, not being sorry. But this. A girl who had done nothing but carry cups. A girl who had seen, which in this village was the only unforgivable thing. This was not forty years of curdled love. This was a woman covering her tracks, and it turned Pru at last, cleanly and finally, from a tragedy into a danger; and it turned Dilys's cold reasoning into something that ran uphill in the dark with a dog.
The gate. She had not remembered opening it. The little path, the door on the latch the way village doors still were, the smell of the house — fabric conditioner and toast and, faintly, teenage perfume — and Sadie's voice behind her now, wheezing up the hill in her slippers, Dilys, whatever's the — Katie? Katie, love? — and the kitchen, warm, lamplit, ordinary, unbearable.
And Katie on a chair at the table with one earbud in, homework spread out, a mug of squash — and the box open in front of her. A pretty box. Pru's own box, the sort she kept for the bring-and-buy, brown card with a scrap of gingham ribbon, and inside it, in a paper case, the fudge: pale, dense, home-cut in careful squares, dusted with something that might have been icing sugar and might not. One square gone from the corner. And in Katie's hand, halfway to her mouth, held between finger and thumb the way a girl holds a sweet she is about to enjoy —
"KATIE." It came out of Dilys as something she did not know she still owned, a whipcrack, the voice of a woman who had once had authority over lecture halls full of undergraduates and had not used it since Hugh. "Put it down. Do not eat that."
The girl froze. Her eyes went huge. The earbud fell out and swung. "I — Mrs Ashcroft?" And then, because she was fifteen and a good girl and a stranger's grandmother had just shouted at her in her own kitchen, her lip began to go. "I only — Mrs Merridew sent it — I've only had the one bit —"
One bit. Dilys's stomach dropped straight through the floor of the world. One bit. How long ago, how much, what dose in a corner square, how patient the poison, how many hours before a girl's bright afternoon began, quietly, to turn — she had the whole ghastly clock running in her head, and none of it, none of it, showed on her face, because the child was frightened enough. "How long ago, my love," she said, and now her voice was the other thing entirely, low and kind, the voice for a scared animal. "The piece you had. When."
"Just — just now. Just before you came. I've only just —"
And in that fraction of grace — the piece not yet down, or barely, and reachable, and God willing not enough — the kitchen door banged and a great grey shape came through it like a thrown spear, because Wellington had slipped his lead in the garden and Wellington had smelled, from the path, the one thing on this earth for which he had no manners, no loyalty, and no shame.
Sugar. Butter. The rich fatty sweetness of fudge, which the dog who had once eaten an entire Victoria sponge off a windowsill and been sick in Hugh's welly for his pains would cross a motorway to reach.
"Welly —" Dilys began, and got no further.
He took the fudge off the table in one shameless gulp, as Dilys had known he would — and then, as she had prayed he would not need to, he stopped, and dropped it, and backed away from the sweet thing with his ears flat and his lip curled, the dog who ate everything refusing this one small kindness; and Dilys knelt on Sadie Bunce's kitchen floor and put her arms round Hugh's disgraceful animal and knew, past any doubt now, exactly who they were dealing with.
He had spat it whole. That was the thing she would come back to, after — turning it over in the long insomniac stretch of that night with Wellington's warm disgraceful weight against her feet. She had watched it happen from the floor, on her knees, close enough to see the whole shape of it: the pounce, the snatch, the greedy working of the jaw for the length of a single second — and then the change. The head jerking. The tongue going, that pink foolish tongue, working and working the way it did at a wasp or a nettle, at something that had bitten him from the inside. And the fudge coming out onto the lino in a wet grey lump, and Wellington backing off from it stiff-legged, hackles up, growling — actually growling — at a square of homemade sweet as though it were a rat.
The dog that ate everything.
Bitter under the sweet. She had said it to herself the very first day, holding Gordon's honey to the light: colchicine is bitter, they say, under whatever you hide it in — the ancient poison of the ancient physicians, the one you gave the man you hated at dinner because it did not announce itself for hours and could be waiting in anything sweet enough to smother it. Sweet enough for a man who took his tea with honey. Sweet enough for a girl who liked fudge. But not sweet enough, in the end, for a nose that had never learned to lie, a nose whose whole moral education could be summed up as smell first, think never — and which had, on this one occasion, thought.
"Don't touch it," she had said to Sadie, who had by then arrived in the doorway with a hand at her chest and no breath left in her at all. "Don't anyone touch it. Katie — spit, love, if there's any left in your mouth, spit it into the sink and rinse and rinse and don't swallow. There's a good girl." And to the girl's terrified, welling face, gently, the truth in the only doses a child could take it: "You've done nothing wrong. Nothing. You're not in any trouble at all. But I think this fudge is bad — properly bad, food-poisoning bad — and I don't want you to have any more of it, and I want a nice young man who is on his way here to take it to a doctor and make quite sure. That's all. That's all it is."
It was not all it was, and the girl's grandmother knew it was not; Dilys saw the knowledge arrive in Sadie Bunce's face like weather, saw the landlady of the Green Man — who traded all day in every soul in the village and had never once, in Dilys's experience, been at a loss for a word — go absolutely white and absolutely silent, one hand gripping the doorframe. Pru. Sadie's mouth made the shape of it without sound. Pru sent it. And Dilys held her eyes across the little warm kitchen and gave her, very slightly, the smallest shake of the head — not now, not in front of the child, not a word — and Sadie, who had been keeping the village's secrets for thirty years and knew a lethal one when it walked into her kitchen, swallowed it whole and turned instead, briskly, to fill the kettle, because that at least she knew how to do, and put her arms round her granddaughter and said something into her hair about silly Mrs Merridew's cooking and never mind and here's Gran.
Owen came four minutes later, and did everything right. Dilys watched him do it and felt, absurdly, in the middle of the fear, a small proud warmth: the boy had listened. He had gloves in the car, and evidence bags, and he did not stamp about the kitchen exclaiming; he took a photograph of the box exactly where it sat, and the note in its envelope — For Katie, with grateful thanks for all your hard work — the tent would fall down without you! Fondly, Mrs Merridew, the loops of it so warm, so motherly, that Dilys's gorge rose — and he lifted the fudge, and the piece off the floor, and the piece from Katie's plate and even, having caught Dilys's eye and got her nod, the wet spat lump the dog had rejected, each into its own bag, each labelled in his careful round hand. He knelt to Katie's level and told her she'd been a great help and asked her, with a gentleness that did not once let the girl feel accused, to tell him again about the tent, about the morning, about Mr Purslowe and his honey, while Sadie hovered and the kettle roared; and Katie, steadied, told him — the special jar, the little silver spoon, Mr Purslowe cross because someone had moved his chair; and Mrs Merridew ever so busy at the urns, and yes, once, ever so careful, doing something to the jar with the lid off, topping it up she'd thought, being kind, because Mrs Merridew was always being kind.
Always being kind. Dilys stood by the cold window with the dog leaning hard against her legs and looked out at the dark village, at the one lit window three gardens down and away where — she knew the house — Prudence Merridew was very likely at this moment washing up her own tea things and listening, perhaps, for the sound of a child being taken ill, and she thought: she used the same knife. The same knowledge, the same patient hand, the same faith that no one would ever look twice at a gift from Pru. She had reached for the tool she always reached for. Care as camouflage. And it had failed her at last on the one witness in the whole of Little Hemlock who could not be charmed, bribed, out-waited or talked over — a dog with no politeness and an honest nose.
It would not, of course, be enough. She knew that even then, even in the giddy relief of the girl unharmed and the fudge in Owen's bags. She could hear Tolley already, the tired reasonable weight of him: a box of sweets, madam, from the kindest woman in three parishes, to a girl who had worked herself ragged — and the sweets went off, or the dog's fussy, or the child's told a tale — and where, exactly, is your evidence that anyone meant any harm at all? Circumstantial. A beloved woman. A nervy lurcher. She could see him not looking at her while he said it. And she knew that colchicine in the fudge, when the lab found it — and it would; she would have staked the greenhouse and Hugh's grave on it — would prove only that the fudge was poisoned, not that Pru had poisoned it; would confirm the method and the hand to anyone with eyes to see the pattern, and prove precisely nothing to a man who did not want to.
So it would have to be the whole chain, laid out where none of them could look away. The jar and the honey and the borders full of naked ladies. Enid's lovely new jar. The nursery and the loan and Tom Merridew's broken heart. Katie who saw, and the fudge that followed. Every clue in daylight, doing its innocent thing, and then read — read correctly, all at once, the way you read a plant: not by what it pretends to be, but by counting its parts. And at the centre of it, the one thing the very best murderers cannot help, the one thing that had already slipped out of Pru once and would slip again if Dilys built the room to make it slip in: knowledge only the poisoner could have. Pru had named the honey. Pru had named the saffron. Before either was public. Before there was any reason on God's earth for the tea-tent lady to know that a dead man's sweetener was the thing that had killed him.
Catch her in that, and it would not matter how many casseroles she had carried or how warm her whole warm smile.
Dilys turned from the window. Owen was writing; Sadie was pressing sweet tea on a girl who did not want it and taking it herself instead, in great gulps, her hands not quite steady. The kitchen was warm and lamplit and ordinary and safe, and a child was alive in it who might not have been, and outside the naked ladies were opening leafless and pink in the dark all down the borders of the village, beautiful and out of season and full of death, the way they had been all along.
She knelt down once more on Sadie Bunce's kitchen floor and put her face against the dog's rough grey neck, and Wellington, who had saved a life and did not know it and would have traded the deed in an instant for the fudge he had so nearly enjoyed, sighed the enormous put-upon sigh of the deeply misunderstood, and leaned.
"Good dog," Dilys said, into his fur, so quietly that no one else could hear it. "Good, disgraceful, glorious dog."
Then she got up, and squared her shoulders, and began — as she should have known she always would — to build the trap.
What Wellington Knew
"The trouble with your murderer," said Ambrose Cardew, examining Dilys's evidence with the first genuine respect he had shown her, "is that she is very good — and the trouble with very good murderers is that they are undone by exactly one thing: they know something no innocent person could."
He had cleared his kitchen table for it. That in itself was a concession, from a man who guarded his surfaces the way Marion Kettleby guarded the cake standards, and who had once told Dilys, in the churchyard, that he had come to Little Hemlock to be left alone with his books and his blood-pressure and had achieved neither. Now he stood over her exhibits in his shirtsleeves, reading glasses low, hands behind his back like a man who has learned not to touch what he is about to give an opinion on.
She had laid it out the way Hugh used to lay out a diagnosis: symptoms in a row, no leaping. She was aware of doing it for both of them — for the pathologist, who would only be moved by order, and for young Owen Fettiplace, who sat very upright in the third chair with his notebook open and his ears going faintly pink, the way they did when he was being trusted with something above his rank.
"Then let me show you the one thing," Dilys said.
She began with the honey.
Not Gordon's honey — that was in the police fridge in Kingsbourne, waiting on a toxicology request that Ray Tolley had not yet been persuaded to sign. This was the little that had come back to her sideways: the scrapings from the empty jar Enid had pressed on her, wrapped in kitchen roll, and beside it, in a twist of greaseproof, the threads.
"Saffron," she said, "is three stigmas. Red. The female part of one flower — Crocus sativus — and you get three threads to a bloom and no more, which is why the wretched stuff costs what it costs. Look at the colour. Deep red, drying to rust. And the smell —" she nudged the greaseproof toward Ambrose — "hay and honey and iodine, if you know it. Miriam's is textbook. She's a difficult woman and a very good grower."
"And these." Ambrose bent to the second twist.
"These," said Dilys, "are yellow. Yellow-orange, the colour of a marigold gone over. And there are more of them than any three. They're stamens — the male part — and they're the wrong shape, and they carry no scent at all beyond the honey they were steeped in. Nobody in that tea tent would have looked twice. Why would they? Yellow-red-orange, threads in honey, saffron honey, Gordon's little affectation, everybody's known it for years." She let that sit. "But it isn't saffron. It was never saffron. It's Colchicum autumnale. The autumn crocus. The naked ladies that are up pink in half the borders in this village at this exact moment, leafless and pretty and full of colchicine."
Owen wrote colchicine and underlined it and then, after a moment, crossed out the underline as too dramatic.
"Say the last part again," said Ambrose. "The part you think I'll disagree with."
"Not a crocus at all," Dilys said. "That's the whole joke, if you like jokes of that kind. Colchicum isn't in the crocus family. Six stamens where a true crocus has three. It only looks the part. It has spent several million years being mistaken for something harmless, and it killed a Roman or two on the strength of it, and last September it killed Gordon Purslowe over a Show committee."
She set down the greaseproof and picked up the rest.
Welly's finds, most of them. She had them in an old seed tray lined with newspaper, and she was not ashamed to say that a lurcher's nose had done for the village what forty years of botany could only confirm. There was the discarded jar first — the original, the real saffron-honey jar, the one Gordon had used all summer, dug out of the rubbish behind the tea tent where somebody had wanted it gone and had not reckoned on a dog who dug the right holes. There was the corner of a burnt label, scorched brown, the letters saff— surviving at the torn edge in a small, careful, old-fashioned hand. And there were the threads Welly had turned up with it: a scatter of the yellow ones, half-charred, as though whoever made the swap had tried to burn the evidence of the making and had been in a hurry, or squeamish, or both.
"Somebody dried these," Dilys said, "and infused them, and made up a jar to look like the real one, down to the label. A neat old hand. Then swapped the jars — the doctored for the true — on the morning of the Show, in the committee tent, where Gordon kept his and where he alone touched it, because everyone else in Little Hemlock takes sugar and thinks him a fusspot for not. And then tried to get rid of the true jar and the leftover makings, and did it well, except for the dog."
She did not name Pru. Not yet. She had promised herself she would make them arrive at it, rather than be led — because a thing you arrive at yourself, you believe, and a thing you are told, you argue with.
"And the fudge," said Owen, very quietly. He had been at Sadie's kitchen the evening before. He had watched Welly take the sweet off the table in one gulp and then stop, and drop it, and back away with his lip curled — the dog who ate everything, refusing that one small kindness. He had watched Dilys go down on her knees on the flagstones and put her arms round the animal. He had not said much since.
"The fudge," Dilys agreed. "Sent as a thank-you to Katie Bunce, who washes the committee cups, and who happened to mention to her gran that she'd seen the tea lady fiddling with Mr Purslowe's honey jar the morning of the Show. A thank-you gift to a fifteen-year-old girl. Identical method. The same hand reaching for the same plant when the same problem came up — someone who might talk. That's not a second murderer. That's the first one, frightened."
Ambrose had gone still over the tray. He picked up the burnt corner of label between two fingers and held it to the window light and put it down again with the care of a man handling a slide.
"You understand," he said, "that none of this is evidence. In the sense a court means."
"I understand it perfectly. That's why I'm sitting in your kitchen instead of Ray Tolley's, and why he" — a small nod at Owen — "is here off-duty with a notebook he'll pretend he never opened." She met the pathologist's eye. "I have the plant. I have the person the plant points to. What I don't have is the thing you have. Tell me I'm wrong about the man's dying, Ambrose, and I'll go home and dig my dahlias up for winter and hold my tongue for the rest of my natural life."
It was the nearest she had come, in fourteen months, to daring anyone to send her back to being nobody. She heard it come out harder than she meant. Somewhere at the edge of the room Welly, who had come with her and been fed a heel of cheese to keep him honest, thumped his tail once against the skirting and subsided.
Ambrose Cardew took off his glasses.
"You're not wrong," he said. "That's the difficulty. I read a good many colchicine deaths in thirty years at the Home Office, and I read them precisely because nobody local ever did. It is the poisoner's poison. Do you want the course, or shall I be kind?"
"The course."
"Then." He sat, at last, and laced his fingers, and became for a moment the man he had been before the quiet. "It begins in the mouth. Two hours, three, after the dose — a burning. Throat, tongue, a thirst that water doesn't touch. Your Mr Purslowe, I'm told, complained of his tea being off, sent it back, and had another. That's the burn. Nobody hears it, because a man like that complains of everything." He said it without unkindness, as a finding. "Then nothing, near enough, for a while. Then the gut. Violent — vomiting, purging, cramps, the whole miserable business, coming on in the afternoon and running into the evening. And here" — a dry lift of the finger — "is where your murderer has been given a gift she did not even have to arrange. Because that same evening, at the same supper, a dozen good people are being quietly sick over warm coronation chicken and a cream that sat too long in the sun. So Gordon's collapse is not a scandal. It is a bug. It is the bug. He is simply the worst of it, being oldest and having, as everyone knows, a shocking heart."
"His pills," said Owen. "He'd had his heart pills for years. Everyone knew."
"Everyone knew," Ambrose said, "which is the second gift. Because after the gut comes the rally." He let the word out slowly. "This is the cruel part, and it is the part that hangs your killer if you have the nerve to hang her by it. The patient improves. Colchicine gives you a false dawn — the vomiting eases, the man says he feels better, wants his own bed, goes home on his wife's arm looking peaky but mending. Everyone is relieved. And then, in the small hours, the second act: the heart, the marrow, the whole machine going down at once, multi-organ, and there is no bringing it back and generally no time to try. He died in his sleep, they said. He died," said Ambrose, "of Colchicum autumnale, dressed as gastroenteritis, wearing his own bad heart as a hat. And a GP with a village full of sick people and a cardiac patient of seventy is going to write heart failure and gastric upset and go home to his own bed, and who could blame him. There would be nothing to find without toxicology, and nobody had the smallest reason to order any."
The kitchen was quiet. Out in Ambrose's neglected garden a blackbird was making a great deal of noise about very little.
"Say it in one sentence," Dilys said, "so I can carry it to Tolley."
"In one sentence." Ambrose looked at her, and there was the respect again, plainer now. "His symptoms were textbook colchicine and nothing else — the burning throat first, the delayed collapse, the false rally, the sudden end — and the only reason it read as natural is that the poison is slow and a real bug happened to fall on the same night and cover its tracks. There. You may quote me, and I shall deny the phrasing."
Dilys had come for exactly that, and having it, she found her hands were not quite steady, and put them in her lap.
Because it was the slowness that mattered. The slowness was the whole thing.
"Ambrose," she said. "Then help me with the part I've been getting wrong along with everyone else."
"Which part."
"All of us — Tolley, the doctor, the village, me until yesterday — we've been standing at the wrong end of the day. We've been asking who was with Gordon when he was taken bad. Who gave him something. Who was near him when he fell. And the answer is that half the parish was, and the one who was nearest, the whole evening, patting his hand and fetching him water and walking him home —" She stopped. "That's her alibi. That's what everyone's read as her being the last person on earth who could have done it. The kind soul at the sickbed."
"Go on," said Ambrose, and she understood he had seen it already and was letting her get there, the way she had let the others get there over the honey.
"But you've just told me the dose was in by late morning." Dilys spread her fingers on the table as if she could lay the hours out on it flat. "Burning mouth, early afternoon. Two, three hours before that puts it —" she counted it off — "mid to late morning. In his tea. From his jar. During the judging, when he drank cup after cup, complaining, reigning, and nobody watched a tea lady top up a teapot because watching a tea lady top up a teapot is like watching the church clock. It was done and finished and inside him before he ever felt the first spark. So by the time he's dying at the supper, the poisoner has nothing left to do at all. Nothing. The work's been done for hours."
"Which means," Owen said slowly, working it out with his pencil, "being with him all evening doesn't clear her. It — the opposite."
"It's the disguise," Dilys said. "The tenderness at the supper isn't an alibi against the poisoning. It is the poisoning, the last act of it, the bit everyone was meant to see. She could sit at that man's side wringing out cold cloths precisely because she'd already killed him at eleven that morning and there was nothing further required of her but to be seen being good. The delay didn't hide her by accident. The delay is why she chose the plant. A poison that lets you be somewhere kind and public while it works — that's not a mistake in the method. That's the method." She heard her own voice drop. "The timeline that seems to exonerate her convicts her. It's the only reading that fits the flower."
Ambrose said nothing for a moment. Then: "You've a good deal of your husband in you. He'd have hated me saying so."
"He'd have loved it," said Dilys, and did not trust herself past that.
She stood, because sitting had become unbearable, and went to the window, and Welly heaved up and came and leaned his whole ridiculous weight against her leg. Owen closed his notebook and then, uncertain, opened it again.
"Mrs Ashcroft," he said. "It's enough for me. It's not enough for the sergeant. He'll say — he'll say you've a jar and a dog and a theory, and a nice woman everyone likes, and an incomer who actually grows the real saffron sitting there ready to be blamed, and which do I think Kingsbourne would rather it were." His ears had gone quite red. "He'd have Miriam Pardoe charged by Friday if I let him. He as good as said it."
"I know," Dilys said. "That's the shape of it, isn't it. The village will do the same. They'll want it to be Miriam because Miriam's from away and prickly and grows the deadly-looking stuff, and they'll not want it to be Pru because Pru brought them soup when they were low and made the tea at every funeral for forty years including" — the word caught, and she let it — "including my husband's. I know exactly which of them Little Hemlock would rather hang."
She turned from the window.
"So we don't give them a theory. We give them the one thing a case like this hasn't got yet — and can't be argued out of once it's on the table." She looked at Ambrose. "Means, she has. Opportunity, she has — she ran the tent, she kept the honey, she washed the cups. Knowledge —" she almost laughed — "forty years married to a nurseryman and everyone in this parish will swear on the font she couldn't tell a daffodil from a doorknob, because she never once corrected them, which is knowledge of a different and far cleverer kind. Motive I can guess and will prove. But none of that is her own hand. What convicts a good murderer is the killer's own hand, given freely. Something she says. Something she couldn't know unless she'd made the jar herself."
"And you think she'll say it," said Ambrose.
"I think," said Dilys, "she already has."
She had been turning it over since the small hours, and it had kept her from sleep the way grief used to, and she was almost glad of the change of jailer. The night of the supper, in the crush and the candle-smell of the village hall, with Gordon grey and clammy in a chair and Enid fluttering, Pru had been everywhere at once with her cloths and her glass of water, and she had said — Dilys could hear it, the exact fond, fussing pitch of it — It's his tummy first with Gordon, always has been, it'll be that honey of his sitting heavy, that and the saffron, I never did trust so much saffron on a stomach.
His tummy first.
The saffron.
That honey.
"Nobody," Dilys said, "had said a word about the honey. Or the saffron. Not that night, not for days after. There was no honey in it and no saffron in it, as far as the whole village was concerned — there was warm chicken and a bug and a poor old heart. The honey was Gordon's own harmless fad and nobody gave it a thought. Except her. She reached for it, that first night, before it was anything. His tummy first — she knew the order the thing came in. And that honey, the saffron — she named the vehicle and the disguise before a living soul had cause to. Small slips. The kind you only make if you know how the story ends because you wrote it." She drew a slow breath. "That's her hand. It's not enough to arrest her. But it tells me she'll do it again if I put her somewhere she has to correct me — because she can't help it, she's too good, she knows too much, and knowing more than everyone else in the room has been the one secret pleasure of a woman nobody ever credited with knowing anything. I ought to understand that better than most."
She did not say why. Ambrose, who was not a fool, did not ask.
"A trap," he said.
"A gathering." Dilys picked her coat off the back of the chair. "The committee, in the hall. I clear the innocent first — Miriam, in daylight, in front of the people who've been whispering, because it's owed and because it draws the poison out of the room. And then I give Pru Merridew one wrong fact to put right. One thing only the woman who made that jar could correct. And I let her be, for one last moment, the cleverest person present." Her mouth twisted. "God forgive me."
There was a thing left to do first, and she did it on the way home, though home was not on the way to it.
She took the lane past the old Merridew nursery — shuttered, its sign gone soft with rot, the glasshouse behind it a cage of broken lights — and then along the back of the gardens where the ground rose, and she stopped at the low stone wall that ran behind Pru's plot as if she were only a tired woman resting, with a leggy grey dog who wanted, endlessly, to be walked.
She did not climb it. She did not need to. A poison garden is only a garden read correctly, and she had spent her life learning to read this one.
The autumn crocus was up along Pru's back border in a drift, bare pink out of bare earth, leafless and lovely and thriving as it thrived nowhere else in the village, tended, thinned, cared for — a stand of Colchicum autumnale kept the way you keep a thing you use. And beyond it, over the low wall, in the ordinary September sun, Pru Merridew's potting shed stood open, and on its bench, drying in neat labelled trays as any careful gardener dries her seed, lay the little yellow threads that were not saffron and had never been saffron — and Dilys turned for home to lay her trap, grieving, already, for the friend she was about to lose before she had even had the chance to make her.
The Committee Meeting
Dilys had spent forty years teaching people to look properly at a flower, and she had never once had an audience so unwilling, or so afraid, as the Show committee of Little Hemlock sitting in rows in the village hall, waiting to be told which of them had done it.
She had let Marion call it, because Marion could summon a meeting the way other women summoned a taxi, and because a note in Marion Kettleby's hand carried the force of law where a request from poor Dilys, since Hugh, carried none at all. Emergency Show committee. The future of the Centenary Fund, and of the Show itself. That was the whole of the notice, and it had been enough. They had all come. That was the thing about a village. It would not miss the funeral and it would not miss the reckoning, and it could seldom tell in advance which was which.
Two rows of folding chairs — the good ones, the padded seats fetched out from the store cupboard, because Marion did nothing by halves — faced the long trestle at the top of the hall. The urn stood cold behind its hatch. Someone had set out a jug of water and a stack of the thick white cups anyway, from habit, from long unbreakable habit, and Dilys did not need to ask whose habit it had been. A jam jar of the Show's dahlias, three days dead, browned at the petal edges, sat on the closed lid of the piano and dropped a slow confetti onto the boards. The hall smelled of floor polish and cold tea and the particular chill that comes up out of a wooden floor in the evening even in September, and under it, faintly, of the chrysanthemums nobody had cleared.
They sat in the shapes they always sat in. Marion at the front, upright as a delphinium stake, guarding Standards. Clemency beside her, warm and tired, hands folded in her lap the way she folded them for the difficult prayers. Freddie Quennell too far back, jiggling one long foot. Clive Sowerby taking up a chair and a half, arms crossed over the great slope of him, scowling at the middle distance where he kept his grievances. Enid Purslowe near the end of the second row in a cardigan Dilys had not seen before, a soft moss green, the colour of a woman choosing her own clothes for the first time in forty years. Miriam Pardoe apart from all of them, at the back, coat still buttoned, handbag on her knees, sitting like a woman in a waiting room who expects the news to be bad and delivered rudely. Sadie Bunce by the door, arms folded, missing nothing, her sharp eye going round the room and counting the house.
And Pru. Pru Merridew in the middle of the front row, apron gone but the cardigan cosy, hands quiet in her lap, her face turned up to Dilys with exactly the mild expectant kindness she turned on any speaker — the treasurer's ready patience, the tea-lady's willingness to be pleased. She had drifted, on the way in, to the hatch and the cold urn and touched the stack of cups, unthinking, the way another woman touches her wedding ring. Then she had come and sat down to listen.
By the door Owen Fettiplace stood very straight in his uniform with his hat under his arm, twenty-five and pale and doing his considerable best to look like a young man attending a routine parish meeting. Against the far wall, by the fire door, DS Raymond Tolley leaned with his arms folded and his tie loosened and his whole tired body arranged around the wish that he were somewhere else, at some tidier crime, or better yet at no crime at all. He had come because Owen had made him come, and because Dilys had said, on the telephone, one sentence — Bring the toxicology, and stand where you can see the door — and something in the flatness of it had got past even Ray Tolley's great appetite for the easy answer.
Dilys stood at the trestle with her hands resting on the wood and let the silence do a little work for her. She was not nervous. She had expected to be, and she was not, and she recognised the not-being with a small private shame, because it meant that some clean cold part of her was enjoying this, was more awake in this cold hall than it had been in fourteen months of her own kitchen, and there would be time to be ashamed of that later. There would be a great deal of time.
"Thank you all for coming," she said. "I know Marion's note said the future of the Show. That's true. We shall come to it. But you all know, and I'll not insult you by pretending otherwise, that we have come here because of Gordon."
The room did a small thing then, a settling and a stiffening at once, like a border when the wind gets into it.
"The doctor signed a natural death," Dilys went on, unhurried. "A weak heart, and the bug that was going round. And half of you have thought, ever since, that Dilys Ashcroft has taken her grief and gone strange with it, poking at a poor man's tea. I don't blame you. It's the kinder story. I should have liked to believe it myself." She let that sit. "But Gordon Purslowe did not die of the bug. Gordon was poisoned. I know how, and I know when, and this evening — with Sergeant Tolley's leave — I mean to say so plainly, in daylight, in front of everyone, the way you ought to be able to say a true thing. Because a good many of you have been quietly suspected these last two weeks. Some of you by the police. Some of you by each other. And it is long past time the innocent were let off the hook to their own faces."
She saw Owen, by the door, move his hand a half-inch nearer the latch. Good boy. She heard the fire door take Tolley's full weight as he came off the wall.
"I'll start with the one it was done to." She turned, deliberately, toward the back of the hall. "Miriam."
Miriam Pardoe's chin came up. Her hands tightened on the bag.
"You grow saffron," Dilys said. "Crocus sativus. Real saffron — the true article, three long red stigmas to a flower, the ones you pick out by hand at dawn before the bloom shuts, that smell of hay and honey and iodine when you dry them and stain your fingers gold. You brought it to the centenary Show for your novelty entry and Gordon Purslowe stood at your bench and sneered at it and threatened to bar you, and you and he had words that half the marquee heard." She paused. "And when Gordon died with what people called saffron in his honey jar, this village — and the police, Miriam, I'll not spare them — looked at the incomer who grew the stuff and thought, well. There's your answer."
Miriam said nothing. Her jaw was set against something.
"It is not the answer," said Dilys, "and I can prove it with a flower. The threads in Gordon's jar were never saffron. They could not have been. Saffron stigmas are red — deep arterial red, red as a robin's breast — and they carry a scent you could not miss if you were blindfolded. The threads that killed Gordon were yellow." She held up two fingers a careful inch apart, the lecturer's measure. "Yellow-orange. The wrong colour and the wrong part of the wrong flower entirely, with no scent at all. Whatever went into that honey, Miriam, it did not come off your stigmas, and no amount of tampering with your crop could ever have turned it that colour, because you cannot make a red thing yellow by wishing. The one person in Little Hemlock who could not have supplied that poison is the one person who grows the genuine saffron." She looked round the rows. "She has been made to carry this because she is new here and prickly and grows a foreign thing you don't understand. That ends tonight. Miriam Pardoe never touched Gordon Purslowe's tea."
A silence, and then Clemency Odell said, quietly and clearly, "Thank God," and reached across the empty chair between them to put her hand over Miriam's on the handbag, and Miriam, who had come armoured to be accused, sat with her mouth working and her eyes gone bright and furious and did not pull her hand away.
"Which brings me," said Dilys, before the room could soften too far, "to the rest of you the arrow pointed at. Clive."
Clive Sowerby's arms came uncrossed. "Now you look here—"
"You threatened him," Dilys said mildly. "Loudly. In front of the beer tent. I could throttle that man — the whole queue heard you, after he disqualified your marrow and you knew, and I knew, and he knew, that it was your marrow honestly and you'd been robbed of it out of pure spite." A murmur; Clive went a rich brick colour. "You've a temper, Clive, and a grievance a mile wide, and you've been nobbling Roy Pinnick's leeks all season with a bradawl through the base where it wouldn't show—" the brick went to purple "—which is a shabby, small, sad little crime and I daresay Roy will want a word. But it is a vegetable crime. You'd have gone at Gordon with your fists or a rotten egg or a marrow through his greenhouse, out loud, in the open, God help us all, with a crowd to see you do it. You would never in your life have dried a flower for three weeks and smiled while you did it." She almost smiled herself. "And in any case you spent the whole of that morning drunk as a lord and twice as loud in the beer tent, where thirty people can place you, at the very hours it had to be done. You are the last man in this hall who could have kept a secret this patient. You're cleared, Clive. Try to look pleased about it."
A crack of nervous laughter went round, and Clive subsided, muttering, half-mortified and, underneath, unmistakably relieved, a lonely man who had just been told in public that he was not, at least, that.
"Freddie."
The foot stopped jiggling. Freddie Quennell arranged his affable face and it did not quite hold.
"You've been meeting a man from Thornfield Homes," Dilys said. "On the quiet. Burning papers. Measuring the Glebe Field with your heart in your mouth, because the roof of the Manor is going and the money's gone and you can't see a way but to sell the ground the Show stands on." Freddie had gone quite white. "And Gordon knew. Gordon knew everything about everyone's money — it was the one talent the man had — and Gordon was leaning on you to sell, because Gordon had his own hand in that deal. You had every reason in the world to want him quiet." She let it hang, and then set it down gently. "Except that you needed him alive, Freddie. He was your broker. He was the only one holding your grubby little sale together. Kill Gordon and the deal falls in the mud and you're ruined faster. And you were up at the Manor with the land agent the whole of that afternoon, which the agent has confirmed, damn him, because it suits him to. Your secret is a shabby one and this village will have views about the Glebe Field—" a growl, from Sadie's corner, that promised exactly that "—but it is not murder. You're cleared."
Freddie put his face in his hands, and did not look cleared so much as caught, which was the truth of it, and Dilys let him be.
"Enid."
Everyone had been waiting for Enid, and everyone pretended they hadn't. Enid Purslowe sat in her new green cardigan and looked back at Dilys with a steadiness that would have astonished anyone who had known her as Gordon's shadow.
"You are freer, and richer, and happier than you have been in forty years," Dilys said, and did not soften it, because Enid did not need it softened. "Everyone in this room has thought it. The wife did it — it's the oldest story there is. You inherit, you're released, and there's a friendship you'd kept from him that you needn't hide any more." Enid's chin lifted, but she did not colour, and she did not flinch. "But I sat with you, Enid, the week he died. And what came off you was not guilt. I have seen guilt this fortnight and I know its smell now. What came off you was relief — the terrible clean relief of a woman who has put down a weight she carried so long she'd forgotten it was heavy. You weren't near the committee tent that morning; you were on the cake stall with Marion and forty witnesses. You didn't do it." She held Enid's eye. "And two weeks ago, without in the least knowing what you were giving me, you told me the one thing that unlocked all the rest. You said Gordon had been so pleased with himself. A lovely new jar of saffron honey, he'd said. Better than the usual. You gave me the swap, Enid, and you never knew you had it."
Enid's mouth opened a little. And beside her, one row up and to the left, Pru Merridew's hands, folded so quietly in her lap all this while, went still in a different way — the particular stillness of a thing that has stopped breathing.
Dilys marked it, and did not look at it, and went on.
"So." She turned back to the room, and now her voice changed, came down and in, and the hall leaned toward it without knowing it did. Behind her she was aware of Owen easing the door shut, of the small definite click of the latch, of Tolley shifting his weight square to the fire exit. The room narrowed. Everyone felt it. It was the feeling of a floor tilting very slowly, so slowly you doubt it, toward one corner.
"Here is what was done. Gordon took his tea, all his life, with a spoon of what he called saffron honey, out of his own jar, in the committee tent — the one refined affectation the man allowed himself, and the one thing in that whole marquee that only he touched, because everyone else, thank heaven, takes sugar. Someone dried the stamens of the autumn crocus — the naked ladies, the meadow saffron, the pretty pink thing nodding in half the gardens in this parish right now — and steeped them in honey until the jar was full of poison the colour of gold. It looks like saffron to any eye that hasn't spent forty years counting flower parts. It was made to look like saffron, so that if ever a question came, it would point—" she did not look at Miriam; she did not have to "—at the wrong flower, and the wrong woman.
"On the morning of the Show, that jar was swapped for Gordon's honest one. He spooned his own death into cup after cup all through the judging, and by late morning the dose was in him. Colchicine works slow and cruel and patient. A burning mouth first. Then, hours on, the body giving way. Then — and here is the wickedness of it, here is the part no casual poisoner would dare bank on — a false rally, a seeming mend, before the heart lets go in the small hours when the doctor's gone home to bed. It came on at the supper. And the supper, by the mercy of pure chance, had a real bug in it — the warm coronation chicken, half of you queasy, all of you recovered — so that Gordon's dying hid inside everyone else's poorly, like one grey bird in a flock." She drew a breath. "And the person who did this spent that whole terrible evening at his side. Nursing him. Fetching and soothing and being kind. Because the dose was long since in, you see. Whoever poured it was provably just helping when he fell ill. The caring wasn't the alibi. The caring was the disguise. It takes a nurseryman's knowledge to make that jar. It takes the run of the tea tent to swap it. And it takes—"
She stopped herself. On purpose. She had promised herself she would not accuse, that she would not point a finger across a room at a beloved woman on a suspicion the plant could never prove, and she kept the promise, and she reached instead — mildly, almost carelessly, a woman thinking aloud and getting a small thing not quite right — for the trap she had walked home two evenings ago to lay.
"It's a pity, in a way," Dilys said, turning half from them to tidy her papers, as if the interesting part were already over, "that we can't say exactly where the threads came from. The likeliest thing, I suppose, is that whoever did it got at Miriam's saffron — took some of her real stigmas, and tampered with them, dried them harder or dosed them somehow — because that would be the neat way to make the jar match. Miriam's own saffron, doctored. Yes. That'll be how it was don—"
"No."
It came out of Pru Merridew before her face had time to catch it — quick, and sure, and gentle, the small firm correction she had given a hundred nervous exhibitors leaning over a hundred show benches, no, dear, not that one, look again. She had half risen. She had picked up the teapot from the trestle beside her without seeming to know she held it, the way her hands found things to hold.
"It wasn't saffron at all," Pru said, gentle and certain and correcting her as she had corrected a hundred exhibitors, "it was the meadow crocus — you can't dry saffron stamens like that." And then the whole warm room went silent around her, and Pru Merridew heard, at last, what her own kindness had just confessed, and set down the teapot she had been holding, very carefully, so that it would not break.
Two Widows
They left the two of them alone in the emptied hall, the way you leave two people who speak a language no one else in the room can, and Dilys sat down across from Pru Merridew among the folded trestle tables and said, simply, "Tell me about Tom."
Tolley had gone last, and gone reluctantly. He stood a moment in the doorway with his notebook shut in his hand — a man who had come to Little Hemlock wanting an accident and, failing that, an incomer, and had got instead the treasurer of the Flower and Produce Show sitting very upright under the sagging centenary bunting with her cardigan buttoned to the throat. Whatever he had expected of a murderer, it had not been this. He looked at Dilys, and something in his tired face gave way, the last of his tidiness going out of him at once. "Five minutes," he said, which was not a threat but a surrender. "The lad'll be by the door." And he went out into the dark to be sick of it in private, and left her the room.
Owen stayed. He set himself by the great tea urn at the end of the hall, out of the light, close enough for propriety and far enough for mercy, and he did not take out his notebook at all. Dilys was glad of him there. She was gladder still that he had the sense, at twenty-five, to know when a thing must not be written down until it had first simply been heard.
Pru did not weep, and she did not bluster, and she did not do any of the things that guilt does in the books. She folded her hands on the trestle table — those capable hands, chapped at the knuckle from forty years of urns and washing-up water, the hands that had carried a casserole to every sickbed in the parish — and she considered the question as though Dilys had asked her, kindly, for a recipe.
"He was a lovely gardener," she said. "That's the thing people forget. They remember the nursery going, and they remember me since, with the teapot. Nobody remembers Tom with a flat of seedlings in the crook of his arm, going down the rows in the morning talking to them. He talked to them, Dilys. Not soft in the head — he just thought a thing you'd asked to grow deserved the courtesy." She looked at her hands. "Forty years I've been the tea. He was the garden."
"I know," said Dilys, and she did; she had married the same kind of man.
"The loan was nothing," Pru went on. "You understand. A nursery's always in the bank's pocket in the spring — you buy your stock and your compost and your heat, and you don't see it back till you've sold your bedding out in May. Everyone carried a spring overdraft. Everyone. Gordon knew that better than any man alive; he'd signed off on ours a dozen years running with that little smile, as if he were doing us a great favour instead of his job." She said the name the way you'd handle a nettle you'd been stung by so often you'd stopped flinching. "And then one February he called it in. All of it, that week, no warning worth the name. There was a man from a firm in Kingsbourne standing in our top field with a clipboard before Tom had even opened the letter twice."
"Thornfield," Dilys said quietly. "Or whatever they called themselves then."
"Whatever they called themselves then." Pru's mouth thinned. "It was land, you see. It was only ever land to Gordon. Tom's forty years, my forty years — a site. He'd have the bank take it, and it would be sold on, and he'd have his little arrangement out of the middle where nobody could see it. And he stood in the Green Man that spring and told everyone how sorry he was, poor Tom, no head for figures. He was so sorry." She unfolded one hand and pressed it flat to the table, slowly, as though holding something down. "Tom didn't have a head for cruelty, that's all. He couldn't imagine it in another man, so he never saw it coming."
"And after," Dilys said.
"And after, he died." She said it plainly. "Not that week. That's the trick of a broken heart — it's very slow. It took the best part of three years, and the doctor wrote it up as the heart, and he was right, it was the heart, it just wasn't the way he meant. Tom went out to the empty glasshouses every morning after they'd stripped them, and he stood in them, and there was nothing to talk to. You've seen an unheated glasshouse in winter, Dilys. You know what it does to a plant left in it." Her eyes came up, and they were dry, and that was the worst of it. "It does the same to a man. Slowly. From the roots."
Dilys thought of Hugh's greenhouse, the light she still left burning in it because she could not bear the window black, and said nothing, and let the woman go on.
"So I made his tea." Pru gave a small, dreadful laugh, almost fond. "Isn't that a thing? Forty years I've made that man his tea. Every committee, every Show, every long dull Tuesday in this hall. He liked it a particular way and he liked me to know it, because that was the pleasure of it for him, that I should fetch and carry for the man who'd — and I did. I smiled. I was the backbone of the village. That's what Marion calls me, isn't it — the backbone." The word seemed to amuse her and hurt her at once. "You can be the backbone of a place and still be lying on the floor of it, and nobody the wiser."
"Why now, Pru?" Dilys asked. It was the only question that mattered, and she asked it gently, because she thought she already knew, and because a thing like this deserves to be said in its own words. "Forty years. Why this year?"
For the first time something moved in Pru Merridew's face that was not composure. It was not quite tears. It was closer to the way a wall looks in the instant before it comes down — a settling, a giving of the mortar.
"He told me two things this summer," she said. "He couldn't help himself, you see. He'd got so used to me taking it. In June he stood in this very hall, at committee, and moved that we do away with the tea tent." She let that sit. "'Modernise the Show.' A van from Kingsbourne to bring urns of coffee in paper cups, and let the ladies sit down for once. As if it were a kindness. As if fifty years of women knowing every soul that came through that flap — who was poorly, who was expecting, who'd stopped coming and wanted fetching back — as if that were a nuisance to be tidied away. It was the only thing I had left that was mine, Dilys. I built it in the shape of him. All of it — the fussing, the casseroles, the being needed — it was the garden Tom didn't get to keep. And Gordon moved to close it with a show of hands, and half of them put their hands up because he was looking at them."
"And the second thing," said Dilys.
"The second thing he saved." Now the wall came down, quietly, from the inside. "He told me at the Show. Our Show. The hundredth — the one Tom and I helped to found, the one the Merridews' name is on the very first minute-book for, if anyone ever troubled to read it. He came into the committee tent for his tea, and he was so pleased with himself, so warm — and he leaned in over the urn as if we were friends, as if we'd always been friends, and he told me he'd sold it. The old nursery. Signed the option to the developer, all these years on. Tom's last acre — the top field, where the frames were, where Tom stood every morning — houses by the spring. He told me the number they'd paid him. He thought I'd be glad the eyesore was going." She drew a breath, and it shook, only once. "And he held out his cup."
Dilys said nothing. Outside, far off, a car went along the Kingsbourne road and its sound climbed and faded and the hall was very quiet again.
"I had made his tea for forty years," Pru Merridew said. "I only changed the honey once."
There it was. Not wrung from her, not tricked out of her at last in some clever corner — given, laid on the table between them like the last plate cleared, and something eased in her when it was down, some forty-year weight set carefully aside so that it would not break.
"The stamens," Dilys said, because the botanist in her would not be entirely stilled even now, and because she thought Pru wanted, obscurely, to be understood by the one person who could follow the craft of it. "You dried them yourself."
"Through the summer." A gardener's pride flickered, terrible and small. "You know the plant. It's all through my borders, the meadow crocus — Tom grew it for the corms, we sold hundreds, they're a martyr to the naked ladies in an autumn garden. I dried the flowers on a rack in the airing cupboard, a few at a time, all July and into August, and I picked the stamens out with the eyebrow tweezers, and I steeped them in a jar of the good honey till it went the colour of it. Colchicum, you'd call it. I always just called it the meadow crocus." She looked at Dilys almost apologetically. "It's not saffron. I know it isn't. But it's the same yellow to a man who's never counted the parts of a flower in his life, and it dries to threads, and it doesn't taste of anything to speak of — a little bitter, and he took it in tea strong enough to hide a worse thing than that. And I knew what it does. Tom lost a dog to it once, got into the corms. Slow. It looks like a bad stomach for the best part of a day, and then the heart. And Gordon had a bad heart, and there was a bug going round the supper from the chicken, and there was Miriam with her real saffron for everyone to point at." The apology went out of her voice and something colder came in, just for a moment, the meticulousness of it. "I made him a jar to match the ones off the allotment stall, so it would look like hers. I'm not ashamed of the thinking. It was good thinking. I did it as well as Tom would have done anything."
"You did," said Dilys, and it was not praise and it was not condemnation, and Pru heard it for what it was — the plain acknowledgement of one expert to another — and it seemed to be, God help them both, the thing she had wanted most.
And here Dilys felt the floor of herself tilt.
Because she was looking across the folded trestles at a woman one year her senior in widowhood and no distance at all in kind, and she saw — with a lurch that would not let go of her afterward, that would sit up with her through the small hours for a long time to come — that she was looking into a glass. Here was grief that had gone on too long alone and set hard, like sugar left in the bottom of a pan, into something that could cut. Here was a life poured entirely into one lost person until there was nothing left of the pourer but the pouring. Pru had built her whole ruined self in the shape of Tom's garden and called it the tea tent; and Dilys had built hers in the shape of Hugh's greenhouse and called it keeping on, and left the light burning in an empty glass house so the window would not be black, and taken to talking to a dog because the dog was the last of a man, and decided — she saw it now, plainly, the way she saw the wrong flower part in a jar — decided quietly, across fourteen months, to stop being alive without ever doing herself the courtesy of dying.
The difference between them was one changed jar. The difference between them was that Pru's grief had curdled all the way to death and Dilys's had only curdled part of the way, into a greenhouse and a dog and a folding-away of the self, and there was still time — there was, she understood with something between terror and a fierce unlooked-for gladness — there was still time to choose the other thing. To keep loving the living, which was harder, and which was the whole of it. Pru had loved only the dead, and the dead cannot be added to, only avenged; and so she had spent forty years being added to by a man she hated, and had balanced the account at last in the only currency left her.
"Pru," Dilys said, and her voice was not quite steady. "You could have come to me. To any of us."
"No," said Pru, quite kindly. "You'd have made me go on living. And I'd done all the living I meant to do." She stood, then, smoothing her skirt, composed again, the treasurer to the last. "I'd like to see Tom before your young man takes me. Just across to the churchyard. I've a right to that much, surely, before it's all lawyers."
Owen came forward from the urn. His face was working. But he had the sense, again, that older men twice his rank had not — he did not reach for her arm. "We'll walk you over, Mrs. Merridew," he said, and his voice cracked on the Mrs., and he cleared it and got it back. "Both sides of you. That's all."
So they went out of the bright hall into the cool of the churchyard, the three of them, and Dilys did not know until they were among the leaning stones why her heart had begun to knock. It was habit — forty years of reading a person the way she read a plant, watching the hands. She had watched Pru's hands all evening. And in the shadow of the great yew, the yew that had stood over the burying of this village since before there was a bank or a Show or a Merridew to ruin, Pru stopped at a modest headstone with its lettering gone soft under the lichen, Thomas Merridew, and the flowers of the field, and she bowed her head as if to pray, and her right hand went to her cardigan pocket.
Dilys saw the small brown bottle before it was fully out. The stopper, and the way the fingers closed round it as if closing round a hand held out. Of course. Of course she had kept a dose. She had kept it for herself from the first — Dilys had known it, without letting herself know it, from the moment the woman buttoned her cardigan to the throat and sat so very upright, the composure of someone who has already arranged her exit and has only to reach the door. She meant to follow Tom out of the cold glasshouse. She meant to cheat the courts, and the shame, and the long slow public unmaking of the backbone of Little Hemlock.
Owen made a sound and started forward, and Dilys stopped him with one hand flat against his chest, because force was the one thing that would break her now — break her the way she had set down the teapot in the hall so carefully it would not shatter.
"Katie is safe," Dilys said into the dark, quiet and level, as you'd speak to a frightened animal. "You never touched her, Pru. The dog wouldn't take the fudge and I came in time and she has not the least idea, and she is home asleep this minute with her grandmother. There is no harm to your account that cannot be borne but that one, and that one you did not do." The fingers on the bottle did not loosen, but they did not move to the stopper either. "And Tom," Dilys went on, and her own throat closed on it. "Tom's memory deserves better than this. You have spent forty years being the one who cared for people. Do not make the last thing you do a leaving of the mess for a fifteen-year-old to find you cold under his stone. He would hate that, your Tom. He talked to his seedlings. He would not want you to end as a thing that frightened the child washing cups."
A long stillness. The yew moved once, high up, in a wind Dilys could not feel at ground level.
"There is a difference between grief and death," Dilys said, and it came out of her raw, because she had learned it not an hour ago and was learning it still, standing in a graveyard beside a murderer she could not stop mourning. "I know there is. I have been most of a year pretending there isn't. Don't teach me back the wrong way now, Pru. I have only just unlearned it."
Owen was weeping openly, the boy, and did not wipe his face, and stepped up on Pru's other side, and this time he did lay his hand — very gently, hardly a touch — on her sleeve. "Prudence Merridew," he said, and his voice held, "I'm arresting you for the murder of Gordon Purslowe. You do not have to say anything." The rest of the caution he got through with the tears running, word-perfect, the way he'd learned it and never once had to use it, and it was the most careful thing Dilys had ever heard a man say, each phrase set down like the teapot, so that it would not break.
In the churchyard, under the yew that had watched the village bury its dead for a thousand years, Pru's hand closed on the little bottle she had kept for herself, and Dilys reached across the dark and took it gently, the way you take a fallen fledgling, and said, "No, my dear. Grief is not the same as death — I have only just this minute learned the difference, and I will not let you unlearn it for me." And Pru Merridew wept, at last, for the first time in forty years, and let the poison go.
The Turning of the Year
They arrested the kindest woman in Little Hemlock on a Tuesday, and by the weekend the village had done what villages do: folded the horror away under the everyday, and left only Dilys, it seemed, still turning it over — a widow who had gone looking for a murderer and found, instead, a way back to being alive.
It was a fortnight now since the churchyard. A fortnight of the year turning under her like a slow tide going out. The heat had gone off the mornings all at once, the way it does in the Marches, and there was a smell in the lanes of the first fallen leaves and woodsmoke and the wet earth of gardens being put to bed. Dilys walked to the shop for milk and passed the Merridew nursery at the village edge, and its shuttered windows had a wreath on them — not a funeral wreath, nothing so tidy as that, but a bunch of Michaelmas daisies someone had wedged into the broken guttering, purple and hopeful and going over. She did not know who had put them there. She suspected half the village and would never be told.
That was the thing nobody had been ready for. Not the grief for Gordon, which was small and dutiful and mostly relief wearing a black tie. The grief for Pru.
You could not stand at the WI cake table and hate her. Marion Kettleby had tried. Dilys had watched her try, on the Thursday, gripping the edge of the trestle with both hands and announcing to the room that she for one had always thought there was something not right, something pent up, in Prudence Merridew — and then Marion's mouth had folded in on itself, and she had said, in quite a different voice, "She iced my Bert's funeral tea. She wouldn't take a penny for it," and sat down heavily on a stacking chair and looked at nothing.
They had loved a murderer. That was the sum Little Hemlock could not make come out right, however it added the figures. It had loved her freely and served her tea and sent its children to help in her tent, and all the while she had been drying the little threads of death on a rack in her potting shed, patient as a woman putting up jam. And when the truth came, the village did not get to feel clean about it, because in the same breath it had to remember how eagerly it had turned on Miriam Pardoe — how the whispers had run to the incomer, the prickly one, the one who would grow something foreign — how glad it had been, for four whole days, to have a stranger to blame.
Dilys thought that was the just part, and the hard part, and that they were the same part. A village that would not look properly at its own beloved would always, always reach first for the one from away.
She had said something of the sort to the Reverend Clemency Odell, who had walked up to Foxglove Cottage with a cake she plainly had not baked and the exhausted eyes of a woman who had spent a fortnight holding the whole parish's confusion in her two hands.
"They keep asking me whether they can visit her," Clemency said, at the kitchen table, while Wellington leaned his whole disgraceful weight against her shins in the hope of cake. "On remand. In Kingsbourne. They want to take her things. Sadie's knitting her a bed-jacket."
"Of course she is."
"I don't know how to tell them it's wrong to."
"It isn't wrong," Dilys said. "It's the truest thing about them. They loved her before they knew, and they can't unlove her to order, and I don't think they should try." She turned her cup on its saucer. "She wasn't a monster, Clemency. That's what nobody can forgive. A monster would have been a comfort. She was one of us, worn thin in one exact place for forty years, and then he pressed on the place." She was quiet a moment. "He was very good at finding the place. It was the only real talent he had."
Clemency looked at her. "You went to see her. Owen said."
"I did." Dilys did not enlarge on it. What passed between two widows across a table in a bare room with a young constable at the door was not for retelling, even to a vicar. Pru had asked after Wellington. Pru had asked, with a small terrible normality, whether the dahlias were holding in this weather, and Dilys had said they were, and Pru had nodded as though something had been settled, and neither of them had wept, having both done that already, in the churchyard, under the yew.
—
Miriam Pardoe came to tea on the Friday, which was itself an event of some magnitude, Miriam not having been to tea in the village in the whole of her fifteen years in it.
She arrived stiff as a fence-post, holding a twist of brown paper in front of her like a shield, and she said, before she was properly over the threshold, "I don't need consoling. I hope that's understood. People keep consoling me and it's insufferable."
"I shan't dream of it," said Dilys. "Come and see the greenhouse. It's a disgrace and I'm ashamed of it."
That was the right thing, though she had not planned it as a strategy; it had simply been true. Miriam's whole rigid body eased a half-inch at the word disgrace, at being asked for judgement rather than offered pity, and she followed Dilys down the garden past the blazing wreck of the dahlias to the long white glasshouse at the end.
Dilys had not opened it to another living soul since Hugh. Fourteen months the light had burned in there of an evening, and fourteen months she had gone in alone at dusk to water and to grieve and to stand among the things he had loved as though standing near them was the same as standing near him. The village knew about the light. Poor Dilys, she keeps his greenhouse just so. They had said it kindly and it had been a slow kind of dying, and she had known that too, and gone on.
She unlatched the door and the warm green breath of it came out to meet them — tomato leaves and damp gravel and the resin of the old cedar staging — and Miriam stepped in and stopped dead.
"Oh," said Miriam Pardoe, on an entirely different note.
Under the staging, in a shallow terracotta pan, were the corms. Dilys had lifted them the week before, on the first cold morning, and cleaned them and laid them out, and she had not been sure, until she said it aloud now, what she meant to do with them.
"Crocus sativus," she said. "True saffron. I bought them from a man in Norfolk in nineteen eighty-something, on a whim, and Hugh laughed at me for it and then made me a raised bed with sharp drainage because he could not bear for anything of mine to fail. They've never done much. I never gave them their heads." She looked at the small brown offsets, at the fine tunics like brown silk. "You know how to grow the thing properly and I don't, and I have Hugh's whole glasshouse and forty years of it standing empty and getting sentimental. It seems to me that between us that is a stupid waste, and I am too old to waste things any more."
Miriam did not answer at once. She was looking at the corms as another woman might look at a sleeping child, with her whole face gone soft and unguarded, and Dilys, who had spent the fortnight learning to look at people the way she looked at plants — plainly, in daylight, with attention — saw the loneliness on her go out like a light switched off.
"They're crowded," said Miriam at last, unsteadily, and cleared her throat, and it came out businesslike and fierce, which was how she said thank you and yes and please all at once. "They want dividing. You've let them get crowded, Dilys, it's a wonder they flower at all."
"I know it," said Dilys, and something in her chest that had been clenched for fourteen months came unclenched, a little, and let a small amount of light in. "Come Saturday and teach me better."
—
It was Owen Fettiplace who told her about the Glebe Field, because Owen told her everything now, having decided — with the whole solemn weight of his twenty-five years — that Dilys Ashcroft was to be trusted with things, which nobody had decided about him in his whole career and which had gone to his head in the best possible way.
He came up on his bicycle in the blue dusk, still in half his uniform, and sat at her kitchen table eating the end of Clemency's cake and being talked to by Wellington, and he said, "Prosser's back. The land-agent. He was out on the Glebe with his measuring wheel this afternoon, bold as brass, and Mr Quennell was with him, and they went into the Manor and drew the curtains."
Dilys stopped with the teapot in her hand.
"I thought—" Owen frowned. "I thought when we—when Mrs Merridew—I thought it would stop. She killed Mr Purslowe over the land, didn't she. Half of it was the land. And I thought—" He looked young and baffled and betrayed by the arithmetic of it. "It didn't stop. It's like he never—it's like killing him didn't even—"
"No," said Dilys. She set the pot down. "It didn't stop. That's the cruellest thing in the whole business, Owen, and I want you to hold onto it, because you'll meet it again and again in this work: she took a man's life to punish him for what he'd done and to stop what he was doing, and the thing he was doing went on without him, because it was never really his. He was a door the money used. Kill the door and the money finds another. Freddie Quennell is deep in debt and weak as water, and the field is his to sell, and Thornfield Homes will buy Tom Merridew's last acre off him whether Gordon Purslowe is above the ground or under the yew." She poured the tea. "She burned down her own life for nothing. That's the part I can't stop turning over. Not the killing. The nothing."
Owen was silent, chewing this along with the cake.
"Which means," Dilys went on, and heard her own voice change, take on an edge she had thought retired for good, "that somebody in this village had better be paying attention to that field, and to that weak man, and to that oily one with the measuring wheel. It won't be the police. Ray Tolley closed his case the moment the toxicology came back, and a good thing too, and he'd no more open a file on a land deal than fly." She looked at the young constable across the ruin of the cake. "But you might keep half an eye. And tell me what the eye sees."
"That's not—" Owen looked torn between his oath and his hero. "There's nothing illegal in buying a field, Mrs Ashcroft."
"There's nothing illegal in growing autumn crocus, either," said Dilys. "It's what a thing sits next to that tells you what it is. You taught me that, in a manner of speaking. You wouldn't let it go, the honey jar, when your sergeant told you to. You kept turning it. Keep turning."
He flushed with pleasure to the ears and pretended he hadn't.
DS Tolley himself had said his piece two days before, on the lane, from the window of his car, in the tone of a man passing a kidney stone. He had wound the window down and looked at her over his reading glasses and said, "You were right. About the—" a wave of the hand, meaning the flower, the poison, the whole botanical impossibility he had refused for a week to entertain. "The plant business. You were right and I was wrong and there it is." And then, because he was Ray Tolley and could not leave a wound un-salted, even his own: "Doesn't mean I want you turning up at my crime scenes, mind. Village is quiet now. Let it stay quiet."
"I should like nothing better," Dilys had said, meaning it, and they had both known it was not, quite, the truth, and that she would see him again, over some other quiet the village turned out to be keeping, and that he knew it, and that this was as near as Ray Tolley came to respect: the grudging expectation that the plant lady would be back.
—
On the Sunday she walked up to the Manor.
She had told herself she was taking Freddie the last of the runner beans, and she did leave them on his step, but her feet carried her round the side, along the wall, to the door in the wall.
The walled garden at Hemlock Manor had been the wonder of the county once, Hugh had said, in the time before the first war — an acre of espaliered pears and glasshouses forty feet long, of pineapples grown in dung-heat and grapes under glass and a head gardener with eleven men under him. Now the door was bricked up. Somebody's grandfather had done it in the fifties, sealed the whole acre off rather than pay to keep it, and behind that wall the great garden had spent seventy years dying by inches: the glasshouse roofs falling in, the pear trees gone to thicket, the paths lost, the whole green heart of the place shut away in the dark to rot with nobody to read it.
She had walked past this door a hundred times in fourteen months and never once stopped. It had seemed, before, only another empty greenhouse, another light gone out, and she had had no strength to spare for other people's dead gardens when she could barely keep her own.
She stopped now. She put her hand flat on the cold brick.
Behind it, she knew, the autumn crocus would be up — it always came up wild in old gardens, colonising the neglected grass, and there would be sheets of it in there in the ruined dark, blooming leafless and pink and lovely and unwitnessed. Beauty at the wrong time in the wrong place with nobody to see. And behind it too, if you knew how to read a wall, an espalier still living in the thicket, a fig gone feral but bearing, a whole buried architecture of somebody's love and labour waiting under the brambles for a hand.
It could be brought back, she thought, and the thought went through her like cold water and warm water at once. Not kept alive — she was done, she found, with keeping dead things alive. Brought back. Divided and pruned and let into the light and made to bear again and given away.
She did not walk away. That was the whole of it, and it was everything. For the first time she stood at the door of a dying garden and did not turn from it, and something in her put down a small root into the idea and meant to stay.
Freddie could not sell what he'd let her mend. And a village that had a walled garden coming back to life in its midst — an acre of it, glasshouses and all, work for hands and a reason for the young ones to stay — might find it had rather more to say about a field of executive homes than a village that had nothing. She was sixty-four years old and she had just, she recognised, given herself a fight that would outlast her, and she was so glad of it she could have laughed aloud against the bricks.
—
She walked home in the last of the light and Dr Ambrose Cardew fell into step beside her at the lych-gate, having, she strongly suspected, been waiting there with a book he was not reading.
"They tell me," he said, without preamble, prickly and dry as ever, "that you are proposing to resurrect the Manor garden single-handed. At your age. With one lurcher."
"You've been listening to Sadie."
"Everyone listens to Sadie. It's the only reliable intelligence in the parish." He walked with his hands behind his back. "It's a preposterous undertaking. Seventy years of neglect. You'll want drainage engineers. You'll want money you haven't got. You'll want a great deal of help from persons better qualified than a self-taught village know-all."
"I expect I shall," said Dilys.
"I did a certain amount of glasshouse work," said Ambrose Cardew, to the hedge, with enormous carelessness, "before I took up cutting people open for the Home Office. My late wife's roses. I'm told I have a hand for it." A pause. "Should you ever require an opinion."
Dilys looked at him sideways in the dusk — the dry clever difficult face of a man who had also lost his other half and come here for the quiet and been, plainly, bored to the point of death by it — and she felt the smallest possible warmth kindle somewhere below her breastbone, unfamiliar as a room lit that had long been dark, and not, she was quite certain now, grief.
"I might," she said. "You'd have to be told what to do."
"I always am," said Ambrose, and walked her home.
—
That evening she went down the garden to the greenhouse as she had every evening for fourteen months. But the pan of saffron corms was gone from under the staging — Miriam had them now, on her allotment, dividing them properly in the good sharp soil — and the long benches that had stood in her mind as an altar to Hugh stood, tonight, only as benches: workspace, empty, waiting for the winter sowings and the divisions and the cuttings she would strike and share. She knelt on the old kneeling-mat, in the ripe green dark, and she did not kneel to tend a shrine. She lifted a crowded clump of snowdrops-in-the-green she'd heeled in months ago and forgotten, and she teased it apart into a dozen, into two dozen, roots and all, to give away — to Miriam, to Owen's mother, to the churchyard border, to the walled garden when its door came down. Dividing. Sharing. Planting outward.
Hugh had never wanted a monument. He had wanted the light passed on. She had known that all along and had not been able to bear it, and now, tonight, she found she could.
She washed the soil from her hands at the outside tap. Beyond the greenhouse glass the village lay in its hollow, lamplit, gossiping, competitive, kind, and quietly under threat, and along every dark border in it — hers, Pru's abandoned one, the sheets of it behind the Manor's bricked wall — the autumn crocus was still blooming in every border in the village, pink and bare and lovely and full of death, and Dilys Ashcroft looked at it for a long moment from her own doorway — the beautiful, the deadly, growing as they always had in the very same soil — and then she turned off the greenhouse light, on purpose, for the first time in fourteen months, and went out into Little Hemlock to answer the knock at her door, and to begin, however late, to live.